baring it

let me just say that

what ang mohs mean by you dont really have to get naked,

and what we mean by you dont really have to get naked,

is a completely different thing.

i'll tell ya that. :p

the rubber

My fun pack of condoms.

My pack of Fun condoms!

My Fun pack of Fun condoms!

Yea, thats the way!

=P

Now, to play, or not to play? =Ppp


Ooo Look! Blueberry Muffins! :pp

you n me both

if 'pathetic' is an adjective,

what is its noun?

patheticism?

pathetia?

pathetathy? (you know, like apathy?)

:p


anyways.
i am sure there is a simple answer
that has just whooosh past me.


*let us not pretend to be more noble than we really are.

I am so f*cking attracted to you,

its not even funny.

=.="

the right guise

coming from someone with shirt tuck out at the back

who sits spread out like that in front of who we set up the fronts for..


it must be quite bad.

=/...

Dont get up in the middle of the night. (not even to pee)

its f-cking bad for the soul.

=(.

her sad little smile..

this is me laughing sadly.. incredulously.. incredulously sadly.. (theres a word for this)

np.

thats what I say when i feel...... this way.

so, dont think i dont know.

(hah)


i try godknows i try.

more than *insert suitable continuation* you know? you deserve? you will?

oh yes i try.

so.

:)..

this is my sad little smile.. :)


"Dear God.. take over where we cant..? Amen.."

toast

Today,

i had toast.

I had one toast with butter and jam.

i had one toast with butter and cheese. n den jam.

n i had one toast with nutella.


Today, I had toast. sss.

They say they dont.

But the world only cares about princesses.


the world gave them everything.

To bed, to bed,

oh bed...

What a long week...
n not even one has passed.

You must be stupid to be waiting.
but you're not.

You just think you are, so that can be your excuse.

But well. Oh well.

Oh well.

Selfishly, selfishly, you pulled me back in.

Did you ever, Ever stop to think bout what you were doing.

n whether it benefited Anyone other than yourself.

dont lie to yourself. what good could it possibly do me.
when you started off saying "If i need you to.."

Again.

There when you need, away when you dont.

How do you Ever justify yourself to yourself.

bedding

oh and..

normally the fact that im about to do something so.. 'forbidden' (tho really.. in my books not really. but i revel in the fact that it probably is in yours.)

would excite me tremendously.

(payback)


if i werent so busy 'trying' to be emo.


=/p


ps. why does it feel so wrong today? hm.

where are you

where are you..

now

when its not You 'needing' Me.

i wonder.

hm.

the very day

When i said "years.."

n he asked, "why not anymore?"

n i said, "its been so long."


You were gonna get back at me weren't ya.

the very day..

-

Maybe ive stopped caring if im making the same mistakes, knowing nothing will ever change, even if i 'played it right'.
Why lie to myself?
Why deny who i am n hide how i feel?

good morning august

its not about talking

its about being.


its not about what i want.
(i know what i want)
what do You want?


what i hear, is probably not what you mean
(n vice versa)
but thats the way it is.
it unfolds. always.
n we end up where we always are.
stuck right there.


why its so quiet in here
is because
we could fight the same fight
over n over
but where would that take us?
a rhetorical question thats rhetorical

n u hate me enough already so
whatsthepoint.


You can Ask me, at the peak of all your cycles..
but really, how much should i try?


so, yes, im fine, and good morning august.