no new moons for you

(on one of the few times that i can realize it..)

I'm better than that, come on~ (like duh, and insert eye-rolling.. *tongue*)

I can vaguely (probably not just vaguely) remember what it used to be like, n how its better now, isnt it.

Empty, dreary, nothingness?
but thats nothing new. nothing out of the ordinary, unusual, unexpected.

Probably more dull, than bleak.

Dull is.. do-able.
Dull is not extraordinary.

Dull must be the nothingness i'd begged for from before.


Right now, im wanting control. Struggling for control, planning for it?
But we Know, control or not, outcome is the same, so can i give it up?

So there is nothing out there right now.

That has Got to be better than being able to really really feel.

Like i could before.


so

Wake up.
Smell the fresh air.

Living in nothingness is not something thats never been done before..

=)..