My fingers smell like something tat i shall not mention.
Do not misunderstand, i did not stay up till now.
I jus walked out of my dark, air-con-ed room. Downstairs to the comp.
Wish my dad wud go up to bed.
Tot of the second.
People shud grow up n not be Fucking actors. (yes. do not hope for sensors today.)
If a person is Not ur Fucking friend.
If a person is ur Fucking FUCKING enemy!
Dun Fucking act all pious n shit and ADD them as friends.
I mean, REQUEST to add them as friends!
FUCK U!
Why wud u Fucking want to (request to) add someone u hate! Someone who is ur Fucking enemy! to ur list of 'Friends'!?
FUCK OFF!
My dad really needs to go upstairs n sleep now.
Let me explain to you about my idea of praying.
I am a Christian. so called.
yes. so called.
I believe in God n i was brought up blablablablabla
But i was not brought up to go to church.
Therefore, it is also not in me to pray.
Everybody prays.
Everybody can pray.
I do not go to church to worship Him.
Therefore, my idea is tat i am therefore 'unworthy' to pray, as in, ASK Him for things.
I mean, why shud he grant me anything?
It isnt fair tat the only time i 'pray' to Him is to ask him to grant me things.
I make it a point not to pray to him for anything. ......most things...
Like a boyfriend.
Or good results.
Or to die soon.
Maybe, sometimes, things that mean my Life to me... things i cannot help but to ask him for...
den only do i ask it from Him.
Jus now,
I asked that God wake my boyfriend up.
...
No, he isnt in a coma or anything like that.
I jus did.
.
Although to be fair i did not go down on my knees or pray fervently for it or anything. I jus asked.
Unfortunately for me, or as far as my mortal eyes can see right now, God, with his infinite wisdom, decided not to wake him up.
Cool shit.
Cant remember wat else i wanted to say.
Goin back up to lie on my bed.
yes. note my words.
4.55am
Its been 2 hours.
Good nite.
Oh ya. Remembered.
The problem with this blog is, i probably feel better after i blog this shit.
I do not wish to feel better.
Not in this way.
But then again, im not exactly better.
Jus moodless.
...
Same shit. Ruins everything.
Oh well.
den only do i ask it from Him.
Jus now,
I asked that God wake my boyfriend up.
...
No, he isnt in a coma or anything like that.
I jus did.
.
Although to be fair i did not go down on my knees or pray fervently for it or anything. I jus asked.
Unfortunately for me, or as far as my mortal eyes can see right now, God, with his infinite wisdom, decided not to wake him up.
Cool shit.
Cant remember wat else i wanted to say.
Goin back up to lie on my bed.
yes. note my words.
4.55am
Its been 2 hours.
Good nite.
Oh ya. Remembered.
The problem with this blog is, i probably feel better after i blog this shit.
I do not wish to feel better.
Not in this way.
But then again, im not exactly better.
Jus moodless.
...
Same shit. Ruins everything.
Oh well.
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