(reflection)

He called her k****..
but hes the father, n her the kid..
n thats the difference.
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I should get me a new place..
it would be healthier..
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If someones sad,
but they dont want to tell you about it..
or if you dont know if they do..
den what do you do?
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'with you', thats what she failed to say..

Do you ever wonder why i came to the pool house to look for you?
Everyday!
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Mass Sociogenic Illness!
tat Jambu lecture! (or psychogenic or watever i forget.. Hey! i dont need to remember this crap anymore!)
It was on House! Hah!
hilarious.. :p
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You've grown up by now..
i can tell..
but i dont care anymore..
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Stupid pool tomorrow.. bah..

do you ever get scared? after you say or do something?
i do..
all the time..
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i think at the beginning..
right at the beginning..
we dont know them yet.
n we need that time to really get to know them like we do now..?
to care?
to really get all that drama..

otherwise its just.. drama..
but now?
now its different..
.

n He runs right?
yea.. but he doesnt Know her..
his crush.. his interest..
he might 'care'..
but he cant possibly love her more than she does..
coz shes known her all her life right?
loved her all her life?
n hes only just been there..
so yea..
he cant possibly.. at that point..
love her more then she does. who has loved her all this while.

but no, we dont even think about it now.
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So, you know the OC right?
n some people say (n by some i mean one person. cept yea, its not just one person. =P)
that the First season was the best season, n after that it just wasnt that great anymore. (still great.. just not as amazing..)
n so i think..
maybe its because
just like everywhere else..
when the first Year of a relationship is always the best?
n after that it just goes downhill?
until its over.

like theirs.
eventho in their case, it was for storylines n drama n getting viewers n all. :p

n you're a coward.
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if you really meant it to be that way..
you would never have told me.
not yet anyways.

n the fact that you did..
just tells me...
n overrides what you tried to do.
with your short silence.

n it doesnt surprise me because that whole behind the scenes thing is so you.

its so us.

n i would never have told you unless you asked. (cept i didnt. hah.. (but tat was only bcoz it was too easy..))
coz thats the key.

or maybe bcoz i would never have had the guts to.
to offer it up.

or maybe bcoz im just not that assuming.

(so what was the point? for you.)


but i guess now we know that maybe i shouldnt.
coz nothing good ever comes out of anything i do.
not even for you.
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now i dont do it because i want to..
but because thats the only way.

so dont break it k?
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nuff for now..

gd night.


n im the loser.