post hoc

The brain cells said : "Yes! We managed to order the expulsion of the alcohol. We think it was a success. We think we got most of it. It wont get (inside) us now!"

And the stomach says : "Urghhh groan groan burnnnn..."

Brain cells to body : "Stay down lads, stay down!" (ala Eddie Izzard)

..

n the brain cells say : "OooOoo.. a lil whoopeedooda here... *sway sway* maybe a lil remnant effect afteralll.... *slurr*"

n the stomach says : "Fooooooodddd! NO no! No food... sickkkkkk..."

n the brain cells say : "No! Give stomach Food! We need food! We need food! *brain cells holding signs walking around chanting*"

..

after food :

Brain cells and stomach : "Ahhhhhhhh..."


Another pointless post brought to you by...

14 days

it is very hard to decide between

what is good for you but makes you confused and upset and longing

and what is bad for you but makes you happy, if only for a while.


The choice should really be obvious

if you know whats good for you.

but you want it so bad
that you're willing to risk it, even if you've made the same mistake over and over
and over

and you're not sure how right you are in analyzing it that way

how fair you're being n

whats the right thing to do?

Whos happiness matters?
matters more
Or whos happiness has been sacrificed all the while

How important you are,
how much can you really do,
is it really for them, or really, for you.


So,
Whats the right thing to do?
Should you sacrifice whats good for you for that something that you want, for, possibly, that someone else as well
or do you hold back n do what might be right, right for you, n maybe, maybe (you'll realise) they dont need you after all.

relativity

3am.
the mildest time of the day or night.
probably because everyone sane is asleep.

everyone but people like me.
(and that will be .... ?)


theres alot to be said about trust.
n what it has to do with comfort
proximity
ease
mood..

theres alot to be said about trust.
n how it can make you feel.

after the first time
everything just went downhill.


we were having a chat about Einstein n his theory of relativity today.

its only just Monday today

hows that for relativity.


this.

the story of my life.

maybe i should have had it figured out by now.
the number of times its happened

maybe it is really me thats the prob.

i should know better.

so, how do you change how you feel?


is it right that things seems these way
or was i supposed to be better?

am i being my usual me, instead of the unselfish person that one should be
or does it all make sense
or, have i done enough already.

which ways the act?

trying to figure out what kinda person to be
n what things to feel.

sounds

That tone is fast becoming one of the most annoying sounds ive heard in my life.

It used to be another.


I wonder
what if i played the two next to each other just to see which one bugs me more.

two completely different people..
you wouldnt think there was a competition.

but u never know.
its annoying me now.


what am i doing?

Backup plan

if im honest with you, its because i trust you.

if i didnt trust you, i wouldnt be honest with you.

if i tell you something, but not everything,
i trust you, but not too much,

maybe im not sure how much.


So which way do you want it?


How well do you know me?

How well do you need to know me before you can tell.
or can read whats going on
or even just
sense.


I refuse to listen to the left overs
or process for you

it is not a privilege,
its disrespectful.


How much do I trust you?
..

(p.s. - hate that hanging around people makes me feel inadequate.)

Earth Hour

temp



very emo~!

and check this out



so cool~
haha..

ok now i gtg, n turn off this page as well coz ppl are here.. in the dark.. n because i Made dem, now ive to provide entertainment, with My laptop.
haha~

maybe i know just how to hurt you


maybe thats why i hate myself

when i inadvertently do




maybe no more

maybe its lock-away



maybe all my claims of doing it for you...

n this is one more thing to do..



-

n that dark place...

thats where i'll be.




(who cares anymore)

maybe tis why i rather be alone


maybe when you turn off your need for anyone..

it doesnt matter so much when you have no one to turn to.

mistake

nobody else was a mistake.

nobody else,

but me.

Introducing...

Allyssa has met

the Most beautiful thing in the world~!

Behold!


maybe this would be a good time to, you know..
follow those ppl who name their phones.

Haha.

So, what do you think?
Any suggestions?
Look like a.. James? no..
Jordan? no...
William??? hahahaaa <--inside joke

Man!
Ive had it for 7 hrs now n Still i havent opened it!
Thats bcoz i spent the first few hours taking photos and admiring it..
Staring n staring..
Jus cant take my eyes off of you babe~!
Hahaa..

But after that i just got distracted by other stuff la.

Was a whole load of drama getting this phone, mind you.
But then again, my life has been wrought with So~ much drama in the last few days, you wouldn't believe.
Haha.
N ive managed to keep a good head through it all so..

I'm doing good..


Maybe u'll hear about it all some day.

Now its time to study!
(Damm its 3pm! Wtfoof! Didn mean for distractions to go so far..)

But wait!
First to uncover..
wait.. what name did we decide on?
=p

Sorry Edward, I love you, but Dr. Cullen is So. Hot!

*i swear its the dr's coat*
(omg)

oh... my... Gawwd!

Why is it so easy to steal my heart?

-

caring for someone more than they care for you in return
is a very tiring thing..

I think i'm like Edward.

its not easy being around you..
that, i can safely say.

you keep getting caught off-guard..
n then you struggle with what to feel,
what to think.

i did a 'noble' thing today.
i avoided the obstacle.
i looked away eventho it hurt.
because its not meant for me.

i am getting better at it
(its about time)

but sometimes its alright,
n sometimes it isnt.

but that means, sometimes it is, isnt it.

maybe i can do it?

maybe im doing it for me,
and for you.

*would you believe how much i never stopped.

*kiss..*

Question :

Do you ever wonder if you're good enough?

Question :

Do you ever have to worry that you aren't?


Or are you like me.
Constantly wishing you were.

Wondering if you're ever gonna be.

two of us

Still hard to say goodbye.

still.

So you're right n im a sucker.

what difference is that gonna make?

as if anyones gonna be like me.
(havent found another)

as if you are.

why?

n if you do.
boy is that gonna kill.

who?

(Argh, i lost both phones! Goddammit!!)

some people have such rich lives.
some people are losers.

am so tired this being a part of yours.

"outside looking in"

its always been a case of 'what i can never have'
with the people i've loved.

im tired.
of dealing, of pretending.
of basically putting you above.

i dont want to be above.

i just dont want there to be two of us.

'You really wanna know Why its back to nought?
Its you being selfish. Thats why.
When have you ever let it be for me, n not you?
If you're about you, then its always gonna be about you.

Because i'm always, all about you.'

*cue Aaron Carter : 'Im all about you~~'*

"This is exactly why i broke up with you. So i wont have to deal with all of your crap. But now its still like being your boyfriend. Without the sex!"

"But you do get the sex."

natural air-conditioning.
so nice to sleep.

Have you ever tried exercising in the shower?
all the extra endorphins!

Hah. thats a joke just incase you didnt notice.

Man are showers therapeutic and awesome.
(as you can see, if you're astute enough)
i could stay in them forever.
i wonder why i dont do more of those.

Off now, looking awesome.
My boots my boots! I have new boots!
N my sweater that i love. eventho no one else seems to think so.. +_+"
i wonder why~

Out xmas shopping.
S'too bad it goes dark at 4.

Now, bugger off if you're gonna be all high n mighty.

Oh no, you've gone and made me sad now.

with your unhealthy shows.
(=p)

Fck, if life is so fcking perfect.

"coz we're awesome"

I'd talk to you, if it'd make a damn difference.

what about studying?

How long Can you love someone?

I'm done. Oh i wish i was.

let

"Hemorrhage (In My Hands)"

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Memories are just where you laid them

What did you expect to find?

Was it something you left behind?
Don't you remember anything I said when I said,


Don't fall away and leave me to myself


Am I the only place that you've left to go?


And leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands

And I watched as you turned away
You don't remember, but I do
You never even tried

-

"I ran out of love for you"

n sometimes you dont.

we count time.

so,
there has to be something, i know that.
there is something, we know that.

but more than that i'll never know.

i think the wrong girls get all the guys.

He asked, what are the sacrifices that women do for men.

This is what i do for you.

Yes, maybe we do rule the world.
but we'd give it up for you in a heartbeat.

just as quickly as you let us go.