Where the heart is...

Heylo.

Hai...wanted to try to weasle my way out of writing today...been busy oh. :) But since this is my 2nd day at this, i thought i had better try hard not to slack! :) Maybe tomorrow... hehe

Had a busy day today, supposed to meet up with my old friends early but kinda woke up late! :) Finally did get to the gathering, n luckily half were even later! (even though they had a good reason, school! haha :))
So, had a great time catching up with all my old classmates, making stupid jokes, enjoying each others company! Some i haven't seen for like, 7 months man!

I love the fact that, our whole relationship within the group is comfortable. Like back in school, we din necessary talk to each other after school, or even much IN school, but we were all friends. No questions. And i think graduation and separation actually brought us all closer! Like, now that i dun get to see them much, i miss dem n yearn to meet up with them... something lidat.

But generally, I think with these friends of mine, for me, its an out of sight out of mine thing. (Oh God, im contradicting myself!!!) Haha, its cause, when i'm here in kl, leading my own life (so called), i might not miss them much (accept for this friend of mine that we all turn to for help with our work, especially maths! I use to 'Miss' her like hell everytime i have maths work! haha). But when i do get to seem them, i realise how much i Do miss them, n really dun wan to leave! :)

Like, a few months ago, we were planning this small gathering at my place, and i was ok with things, just for the fun, but i din really feel anything yet. Then they came and we all had a fantastic time, and when it was about time for them to leave, i started to feel sad, like i didnt want things to end! :) I remember that i seriously felt this pang. First time i felt that i missed my friends oh. :)

Today was kinda similar. OK, der wasnt the big pangy feeling, but i sure din wanna leave! Spose to be back by 2pm, but only left around 4 i think. hehehe :) Sure got a earful from my mum! But ComeOn! How could i just leave?!

With your old friends, theres already a strong base to your friendship. Everyone knows everyone elses person. You can go there and just say anything, not hurting anyone cause you either know wat to say, or ur friends noe wat to expect from you! You can get teased n laughed at non stop n still noe its all just outta fun! No suspicions of 'hidden meanings' or whatever. With your new friends(lets say new classmates), u still have to practice some caution. You dunt know everything about them yet and vice versa. You dont know when they might mean something else, or when your words might hurt them. The 'begining' phase most probably would consists some pleasing, where u still have to 'be polite', work to find common ground....With your old friends, knowing them and all, u noe their good points n bad! So u're friends because of the good. Therefore, u tend to focus on the good n block out the bad. With your new friends, u just dunno yet. (I dun totally agree with everything ive said here. i guess its very much flexible. doesnt work with everyone, or all the time. just trying to support how i felt..)

Da other thing is, the person i felt i missed the most at this gathering, was the only one there whos actually here with me in kl(or subang, watever), in the same college! We are the ones who can see each other all the time if we wanted to. :) Part of this was ofcourse because we got much closer, being the 'only ones' out here n all.The Other part however, is cause i haven't really 'seen' her for like 4 weeks! Why?! The stupid jerk got a boyfriend and forgot all about me! hehehe :)

Its really funny how u can be so close (in distance) and yet so so far. At the start of coll, for like 4 months, we used to pride ourselves in being able to go out for lunch together atleast once a week, without fail! (otherwise we dun really get to see each other, diff class n all) We even came home n brag about it! hehe :) But the moment she was officially on with her boyfriend, that very 1st week, we din meet for like 2 weeks! hehe :) Den, we had lunch once. DEN we din get together for 4 weeks!!! :) N we hardly even saw each other in college those 4 weeks cause of the change in locations of our classes.

Haha. OK, im trying to point out 2 things here.
1) When they say distance (as in distance of like 2 different countries) is a killer of friendships, they dunno wat their talking about! :) Its not the distance, but the heart! What the heart wants hard enough, the head will work to get! But if the heart is idle, then being nex door wont help. :)
2) How quickly friends can dump you when they get someone to call 'boyfriend' Or 'girlfriend' hehe :)

No, im not bitter or mad. :) I actually totally understand, n dun mind. :) Just a little comment, see how many of u have faced the same thing, OR did that to someone else! hehehe.
I just hope that i wont be like that when my turn comes. :) (Eh, turn can come faster anot?! Im like surrounded by people in love, or like leh, so irritating n depressing u noe?! hehehe,jk)

Anyways, hmm, this has been kinda productive. Long entry, no? :)
Think i should have crapped more about the 2nd part instead of the 1st. :) Nm, late aldy. Deprived my bro from the comp for far too long! :)

Later.