sex is my alcohol

boys will be boys.

sigh..

i think there's somebody i need to stay away from..
(someone i dont trust. sigh...)


so many words.. so many thoughts..
so many things happening, or on the brink of happening..
but i cant write about them right now.
or i dont want to..


Anyways, schools starting tomorrow.
end of the holidays.
bugger.

So i've been a good lil girl the past few days. stayed at home n didnt go out.
bah..
but its the end of my hols. last chance to go out.
so i did. today.
AND, my parents arent around (big brother is tho), so its the perfect time to stay out late n stuff.
I seriously considered sneaking out of the house last night.
jus because i can.
n there wont be a better chance than this anymore.
too bad i didnt tho.

I dont know why
but ive been considering doing alot of things i shouldnt do.
alot.
well, i guess i do know why.
but at the same time.. why? why suddenly?

maybe it isn't tat suddenly...
or maybe its because the oppurtunities have been presenting themselves..

yes, there's somebody i need to stay away from.. sigh..


but instead of doing anything bad
im sitting here listening to a song.
a song thats a mockery of me actually.
but here i am,
listening.

laugh at me.
coz i sure am laughing at myself.