for the greater good

I had a great day today.

awesome.

N it was while sitting down. Sweaty body emanating heat. Muscles starting to feel the pain..
-in that moment- Surveying my friends n my surroundings..

that for the first time since a long long time
i felt like i'd found myself again..

It was a good day today.

So i thought i'd blog before i lose the feeling again. =)
as im sure its not gonna last too long.

but hey, every step right?

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oh look.
heres me being sad again..

:)

but its ok..

this friends back..
been back for a couple months now..
n its a little sad that he didnt think to let me know..
jus let me know
cause, nevermind the milo ais he owes me that we never get around to getting anyways
nevermind the meeting ups we've said we shud do countless times but never actually do
i dont mind all that but
its always been nice jus hearing from you that ure back..

in the times u spoke n the twice that u met up..
did it not come up?

jus bcoz hes moved on, you have to move along with him too?

yea, busy's the word for him huh?
hahaa..

its times like this...
that somehow make me wanna know..
if you still care..

but i wont stay weak for long. (right?)

oh, darn, what a taint on my healthy, happy post.
:)

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Since its past midnight, its my dads birthday today!

Happy birthday daddy!

hahaaa..


n my brothers flying off later this afternoon..

When he came back jus one month ago, i was thinking of blogging bout how sometimes i feel like i cant wait for the day when he goes back..
Not bcoz i hate my brother.
Not because of his sleeping on the floor in my room, tho it is a total pain n invasion of privacy, for an entire month!

but bcoz on the day he leaves
i get a hard-to-come-by, oni twice a year, hug from him.
(something that only started after he got himself a girlfren. haha)

which as a younger sister..
where u dun always get to bond when u want to..
n infact, hardly ever bond (n havin to shop for boxers for ur brother is not considered bonding. not if hes not there.)
is a pretty nice thing.


Anyways.
its time for bed now..
Spent the past few hours reading up on a couple strangers..

call me kepoh.

tho it was saddening stuff i was reading
took my mind off my sad stuff long enuff to allow me to get back to a healthier place.. =P

for now. :p