psychosis

- You toyed with my heart, like a toy heart...

- Mr. Monk, Its a million dollars! You wont have to worry for the rest of your life!
*Monk stares*
Ok, ofcourse, You will worry, but not about money!

- Yea, I trusted you.
You always trust me. Big mistake.

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Its funny.. (atleast i tot it was), how light can really change your perspective..
(ok.. maybe not perpective per se...)
unfortunately, each has its own consequence.

darn light made me turn on tv.
darn light made me eat.
both of which can be therapeutic ofcourse. (or something like tat. having trouble speaking properly. hah)
so now! its time for House. n i cant call someone anymore.
bah.

(OO! Its the Sex one that i Missed! No wait its not! The guys turning down sex!)
if u watched it,
the girl was on top of the guy. (arent they always?)
n was persuading him to 'do it'.
oddly, (yea dont you think? guy turning down sex.. pffft.) he was reluctant.
finally! she convinces him! (with more seduction obviously. men.)
But wait! turns out.. she was convincing him to let her drive the Porche.
bah.
the turning down sex thing should have given you a clue. no?

odd.. i never realised i missed so many episodes of House the first time around.. doesnt make sense..
N i know the later parts, Chase is the one thats a jerk tho now its Foreman, while Chase is pretty much always on his side. heh.
guess tats why they dont kick Chase out.

n y'noe wat.
its getting Fcking annoying how Cameron 'cares' about House.
Fcking. annoying.

I was just saying how House deals with aLot of stuff we study. n sometimes, coincides with em too.
This time its SLE. (So Cool!) Unfortunately, we did it ages ago. Wish it was shown on House den.

Today, Wilson said something about how the brain having a gating pain mechanism, it focuses on one pain n blocks out the others.
House smashed his hand to take his mind off the pain in his leg.
heh.
now aint that interesting. explains alot.

- They let me do my job. They take away my pain!

it wasnt just his leg he was talking about.


He asked me before (no not House.), well, sort of asked.. why was i this certain way when all the time hes known me, i have always been the opposite.
N inside i thought, its because i dont show you what 'way' i really am.
or if its not the 'real' one,
its because, i dont show him, or most people for that matter, that me.
n because, when i do, you dont handle it very well. hmph.
(now my mood has change n i cant talk to you anymore. N, ure not picking up. grr.)

there seems to be an association between exam times n the lack of mood to study. (not that there is studying without exam times.... hmmm....)
shit.

n what is it with the bloody american kids n hickeys.
i mean. why is it such a big deal?
why is it always so obvious?
n why!? do they find it neccessary to give em to each other anyways?
it doesnt Have to be so big n red y'noe...
pfffft.
im pissed now.

oh another thing.
Im addicted to cleaning my ears.
i know tis not good but dammit i cant stop! (like something else i know. bah.)

n, bah, i'm hot right now.
shuddup dammit. i am.


stay away stay away stay away! arghhhhhhhh!

n yes. i'm still having them fcking bad dreams.