your measure

You know you're a failure in life when

other people are getting nostalgic over leaving,
this place where we've been together for the past 2 years..
all the people that you've 'gotten close to' in that time..

but you realise that theres no one that you'll really miss.

I'll miss the friends i've had since college.
It's sad to know that you'll be parting, after 4 years of constant hanging out, bitching, sharing, crapping, n stuff
especially sad when you remember that in this real world.. how many friendships actually survive the space n the distance?
sad when you figure out that these will probably be the last good friends you have before you move into adulthood - the land of we're too old to have friends.
I mean, who else are you going to turn to just to sprout rubbish??

But other than those older friends,
there just isnt anyone that I'll truly miss.

Not because i dont want to.

Just because we never got to be that way.

Because you push away the people that might have tried to care..
N you tried to care for the people who just push you away..

Because you jump around from clique to clique, never really committing yourself, because you couldnt find that perfect match that you lost..
Because you turned to people who hardly give you the time of day.. probably because you just arent good enough.
Because the friends that you Have found... just dont fit. n you Know that all it needs is a little distance, to bring you apart. What would you have left to say?

This is why life sucks.
Why i hate growing up.
Why i dont even want to be alive long enough to see into my future.
Whats so great about the future anyways?

But i guess, you know you're a true failure when you realise,
not that there wont be anyone for you to miss,
but that there wont be anyone who misses you.


To my best friend, from long ago :
When i lost you, Darling, all those years ago.. I knew, even back then, that i would never be able to find another, that would be like you. We were already 'too old' by then. Our best years had gone..
You know how i hate growing up.
N you know, its me. Who else would, not just put up with me? ;)...