coz im leaving, on a jet plane

Missing everyone....

n i mean.. everyone.. hmmm..

(oh boy, you break my heart when you pretend to care..)

You know.. no matter how n in however many different ways i have said / told myself that ive to live for myself n no one else.. i still do alot of things in my life with other ppl in mind.
Even if i dont do things for them.. i work my life in certain ways because of them.. (even if it is actually For me, n that i make myself do all these silly things)

I wouldnt blog if i was living for me, for them

but i need to stop living my life, planning it around ppl.
(eventho i know i will continue to do so...)

sigh. so i blog. n u get to hear from me today.

but just a hi.

I wish i knew how to quit you..

.
N do you know her?
n does she know you?
n do you speak to her, like you used to speak to me..
thats what you do isnt it..?

why you had to change when he did, i dont know..

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n in my dream
i saw her,
n i saw him,
n i saw the children,
n i saw the parents..

n it was scary..

n i also saw my babys..
but that was scary too. hmm..

Happy Birthday darling..