going nowhere

I was doing ok..

until i heard wat you did.
n that broke my heart.

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i have been tryin to blog bout too much,
so i end up not bloggin at all. hmm.
makes alot of sense to me.

eventho mostly i tend to hide n stay away from the comp.
it is evil you see.

n oso der are alot of ppl about during normal hours. (which seems to extend to my abnormal hrs as well.. pfft..)

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anyways its about time i wrote something here.
n so i shall take baby steps if i can.

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n my dear friend woke me up (from a half slp. :p) n kept me up ;)
n also, put me in rather a good mood!
so ive stayed up longer! (its 8.40am! Gasp now!)

(oh crap.. someones woken up.. now ive to account for me being awake.. -_-")

anyways yes, good mood..
n den Friends came on!
which is whee! n funny!

n den when it was over it was time for the OC!
which is more wheee ofcourse!

for, eventho alot of ppl complain that after the 1st season, its not that worth watching (tho thats definitely not what they said when the show was Showing. :p)
atleast from the 2nd season n on, they have Amazing beginings. Hilarious stuff Right before the music comes on.
hehe.

but den ofcourse the maid has to come clean with the vacuum.
n den i cant hear a thing.
which Miight be ok when Ryan is struting around Half naked n stuff.. (oh so SO yummy..)
coz even if you cant hear him, all you need to do is admire all that sexiness.. ahem..
but y'noe.. with his Shirt on.. you Juust cant drool for all that long
n den its no fun when you cant hear all the funny things being said..

oh well..

n now im about to go i think. bcoz its no longer fun when ppl are about.

n look! I see Ashwin snooping around! *waves* hi Ashwin!

haha..

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what more can i ask for?..

when i know i cant get any of it..

you can do what you want...
tho it hurts...

i cant do anything about it..

n neither can you..


You're not the only one.

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she says its the destination shes worried about..
but i tell her that thats not the problem..

that in truth..
its the passenger, the boatman, and the boat..
that will determine anything..

coz in the end..
its always up to you.
how much you want
n what youre willing to do about it..

if not in one way,
to save what it is you think you want..
then atleast in the other..
to save whatever can be had..


i do what i do with hope ok..
dont cut it out..

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Do you know how much i love you?
get it? do you get it??...

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n then there are those times..
when you feel sad for what you are leaving behind..

which if you know me well enough..
isnt the family.. not yet, not right now.
isnt the friends, who will be there, or have already left here, or if they are here, have that bond that probably cant be broken, who know how to keep it alive..
not those with the promise of tomorrow..

but that which you dont know..
which you cant hold on to..
the ones without the promise of tomorrow.