fear

Look at my artwork!!

Heheheeeeee! =p
Isnt it pwettyyyy?? :ppp

Tat is what happened when i was at work with my dad.
With no internet n no email to entertain me in btwn work.
No msgr! N not even simple what is the name of that desktop game where u click on the dots... with the landmines!!! i forget... (oh SHIT! What is this! I just checked My comp! It doesnt have it either! Oh what has become of our world!) i think it was called mines.. but i cant rmmbr.. =p

Anyways.. i tot id open paint (since there was nothing else)
n den i was at a lost as to what to draw!!!
But den after a hell lot of squiggly lines for the heck
i discovered the wonders of 'fill-in'!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

n That my dears is a fusion of abstract art, with.. erm.. non-abstract art.
haha..
ok..

OBviously some people are most right about my joblessness n all. =P

BUt but but Look! Is it not most pretty! It IS most pretty!!
Wheeeeeeeeee! :D

(yes yes. insane. devils playground n all. :p)

ahhh.. but i am only unappreciated in my own time.... haha.

Can you See the Birds?!??

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In other news.

Allyssa collected her blood test results this week.

n First, she finds out she has high cholesterol!
High cholesterol! Can you believe that!??!

B-A-H!

She always knew that at some point she might be at risk of high-cholesterol.. considering it kinda runs in the family.. n considering she is not very discriminating with her eating habits.. ahem.. (Allyssa likes her food!)
But certainly not at this age!
Control diet at 21! Oh how sad!!
Woe is she.

sigh.
Allyssa must give up on her much loved prawns n crabs..
SIGH.

haha. BUT she might Love em seafood, n eat em aLot n not very seldom..
but she does not exactly eat em all Too often... (she thinks..)
hmmm..
but there are other factors in her diet.. sigh..

AND also rather importantly.
Allyssa does not exercise.

Most unfit. most unfit.
she must certainly start some form of work out soon. motivation to start now. (ok not really.. haha) bcoz she has been thinkin of this (healthy lifestyle you know!) for Quite some time. tho ofcourse, nothing has materialised of it.. =p
Well..
Allyssa now has no friends to go at it with her..
but that is ok...
she has almost come to terms with this fact..

she shall hope to be able to do it on her own. :p

(oh.. n she also knows what she would like to do! wanted to for a long time now but now more settled on this idea! N she saw this really cute (in her opinion. which is the way she loves it.) guy in some place where she can carry out said plan!!! oh but sigh oh sigh... she doubts she will be going with that place. =p how sad.)

sigh.
Anyways..
CHOlesterol, BAD! =(

See! She Always said she was Fat! =p


Other complainable thing that Allyssa found out at the same time is that..
see, the reason she had to Do the blood test in the first place is bcoz she needs to test her Hepatitis B status.
N she has had all 3 jabs before so she was (Was!) un-worried about her HepB status...
But Lo n behold! SHocking results awaited her!
Her Antibodies were insufficient!!! (unless ofcoz the dr. was lying. sniff. have yet to confirm information.)

Oh how can that be! After all those Many jabs!
Sniff! (so drama! :p)
N now What will she do?!? Results to be sent to uni Asap!
n now uni will think she Never did her jabby jabs when we All know that not be true!
She Jabbebbedeh... (erm...... ok she is obviously confusing herself....)

oh sigh of sighs!
now she must be jabbedebah (watever) again!
sigh..

Allyssa be jabbed today.

:(


(On a happier note, Allyssa bought 2 turtlenecks that be Very Very nice! =D So she is most happy on that point. (she also wanted to buy more but ahh.. that is another story.) n yes many more stories where money n new clothes are concern... but we shall not get into that now.)

So now the confused Allyssa shall bid all good night. n sleep tight.

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Why do people get scared?
why are there occasions when the heart gets all.. squeezed in n pushed down..
n your heart rate increases.
theres a cold jolt in your heart, n an empty pit in your stomach..

why do humans feel fear.

why do i feel this way?

Gonna be Darcy for a day... sigh....

(arghh.........................................)