special / special-er

Warning, emo post ahead.

I hate my own thoughts..
i hate whats on my mind, what goes through my head!

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Why bother.. when theres nothing there to find anyways.

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I know exactly the kinda guys i tend to love / fall for..
not that ive Never told you guys (oh one too many times..)

those wounded ones.. the injured souls..
all misunderstood n hurting inside!
(haha! it is so hilarious(ly lame) sayin it..)

those complicated ones that just need that special someone.

but they All deserve someone special.
theres a particular type, which is a one for each of em.
so special that special isnt enough to describe them..
haha..

But thats whats so sad
because i know i could never be good enough for them.
those kinda guys that i love?
i could never be good enough for them.
not even if you're special or special-er.


now how can that not make you sad.

hmm.

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maybe its just too boring n quiet in here.

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im just so pissed n disappointed in them all...

whens it ever gonna stop?

i need you my Darcy.

P.S. now why does everyone like him anyways? i know why I do. (see above) but that Cant be why everyone else does. is it that whole secret knight doing wonderful things behind ones back thing? coz thats Certainly not why I like him. i find that reason much of a disgrace. :p pah to the perfect gentleman. come ol' imperfect complicated one. hahahaa..