never went away

I was away longer than i expected.

but i am back n it hasnt been forever.


There isnt just, not even just two sides in my head.

there are, i dunno, four parties arguing.


Can you believe it?

that i remember your dates, but i didnt remember mine.

When was mine? There was one last Sunday. I didnt realise it.
there was one, the past Wednesday. but i didnt think about it.
There'll probably be one.. sometime maybe next Tuesday or Wednesday? would you like me to check?
but that doesnt come before yours does it. No.

So can you believe it?

It wasnt even something i carved into my mind.
But i realised ive always known it.
Ive had it, all the time, floating around my head, for the past year.
Ive always had it.

Long enough dyu think?
Since our day is over.

Isit over though?

So, of the many sides that could be said.
maybe one of them would be that, maybe my last round was.. too much in a way.
in a way.
but it was a weak moment,
n i meant it.
n whatever it was
atleast it set me free.
for this cycle.

once i drop the ball. n left it for you.
i was set free.
even if it were just for this months cycle.
even if im about due for a down cycle.
atleast i have been doing good.

coz there we have you failing again.

thats what i say.


i know what you want. you want what we have.

Well, what happened there 'Best friend'?

what happened indeed.

today is another day she says she loves you.

maybe im glad i spent the week away.


what if?

but yours went away didnt it.

lost behind
words you could never find.

i have mine right with me.


today is another day she loves you.

baby.