my loss

To Where You Are - Josh Groban

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are my
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

You cant do it better than he does.

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i find that when what i have on my mind is me
i like to talk about not me

or maybe its just the people
pretty much all of them though..
which brings us back to square one i guess.

i called someone for some company today
to ask..
was mediocre..
cant depend on people much these days
none to depend on that is
i make it turn out the same.

my heart cries. because its appropriate

talking to a friend
who used to help
now hes just mostly too distracted to see..
havnt talked about me much to that one for a long while too.
tho admittedly i talked about me enough to last a few years some time back
just cant do it.

day after day after day
i try to think of someone i can talk to
just the kinda talk that leaves you feeling less.. alone..
i go through the same names in my head
but always
leaving me with nothing

going back to the start.

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i need you. i'll need you from now.
if you're even out there..