white knight

no where to run
no where to hide

i cud write a song!

hi guys.

i've realised that there are alot of people in this world

happy chinese new year!

5 days of new year.
slept in living room
shared mattress with brother (ew, i know..)

atleast, theres the air-con n all..
n the living room is the Best room in the house!
so big n spacious! n comfy! haha!
n the red curtains jus block all the light out!

prob was..
there was no room for me to go
no room to be alone in..
no room to cry in..

i love my ol' house
its.. comfortable..
n at nights..
its beautiful..
u know how i love the night..
the dark..
to be alone in..
here in this house.. my room in dirty old kl?
theres nothin to look out at..
the comfort is in the room itself.. at night..
but back in my old house..
the comfort is everywhere..
u can look out n see the garden.. the trees.. the sky.. the houses..
the stars..
the night.
..
if only there werent all that people in the house..
hmm..
i cud jus cry every night..
(even the living room had my brother in it! so i cudnt even be alone there! dam..)

some are like u,
some are not..

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i cant stand people..
i cant stand them..
my life..
what my life is supposed to be about..
surrounded by all of them..
i cant be around them anymore..
cant be one of them..
but if i run away..
i am nothing.
it is not my life..
it is theirs..
i cant live their life..
leeching..
the expectations..
the norm..
the strive..
i am me.. n i am nothing now..
i cant be a part of them..
i will run away
n be nothing away from them..
but still..
a nothing..