The devil in my head tells me to do things.
eviiiiil things.
Ok so i've been trying to be strong n abstain from certain things.
like, cleaning my ear.
I've Always.. i dunno.. enjoyed doing just that. n i mean, really really.
I clean my ear so often that most of the time the cotton bud comes out really clean.
which is rather disappointing.
coz y'noe, u like feeling like u've accomplish something.
Sometimes i do it for a few days in a row, resulting in a completely de-waxed ear,
n sometimes even until it bleeds or hurts when i shower.
But all along its been pretty ok..
never going over board (never reeeeaaallly that is.)
Recently however,
(dont ask me, i've no idea why)
i've had this obsession with it.
clean clean clean clean clean.
ALMOST EVERYDAY!
Everyday i get this urge to clean.
N my ear will start to itch. (which is either psychological, or due to my excessive cleaning)
n because its been going on for about a month or so
i MAKE myself hold out..
but most of the time i can only hold out for a day..
maybe two..
before i get suckered back into sticking a stick in my ear!
clean clean clean clean clean.
sighhh...
why must i be deprived of this pleasure?!
Anyways, its getting really bad..
i think ive bled some
n hurt alot
But i Just Cant seem to Stop!
Look!
It Itches!
Ze Devil is telling me to go swab me ears again!
Again!
Waxy waxy doooodle.
This is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.
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