i dont wanna know

Bloggin. because........

Have you ever heard the sound of a heart crying?

it goes like this
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There are somethings you dont need to know.

Somethings you dont Want to know.

dont go looking for things you dont want to see
Now doesnt this bring new meaning to Things you dont want to know?


Some things,
n you just want to put down your head and cry...

She told him the other day,
that she just didnt have any more tears to cry.
N he said that, even he did sometimes.
So she said that she Had been crying, for years now,
n there just wasnt anymore.
N still he said that she should..
that she would feel better.
But she has cried.
Only, there really isnt anything left inside to cry out.

Not over him anyways.

But that wasnt exactly true was it?

Apparently so.

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How many people are you hurting with this?...

i dont want to know i dont want to know

i want it to be me..

i dont want to know i dont want to know

hows it gonna be?
whats gonna happen to this?

where do we go from here?...

i dont want to be i dont want to be
i dont want it to be!

*cries..*

but it cud never work in my favour..
never again.
n i'll never ever have that place again.
any place.
no matter what happens...

n how many more?

a fling

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Sometimes when you hate someone
for your own personal reason..

you dont realise,
that maybe that person,
hates you back,
for their own personal (tho possibly similar) reasons...

Do i still have to put others before me?

Do i always have to pick this role
just so you are happy
just so the things that matter to you are right
just so you'll be in a good light..

Do i always have to pick to feel this cold...
just so you can be happy...
bcoz thats all that matters to me...

dont dont dont dont dont dont dont

i dont know what to say to you

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Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
.

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Not moody anymore.

but i wish i knew what to do.

Coz now even doing nothing seems to be the evil choice.

But its not my problem to worry about...........

n how do i even know......?

i wish i didnt let myself feel all these stupid feelings.
the need to ask all these stupid questions.

coz in the end it will all

never be.

n tomorrow i'll realise what a FOOL i am.

n just hurt.

all over again.

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for the past

n the letting go

n the once gone it'll never come back.

not hurting anymore

but i never never wanna know.

coz i'll never know how to be there for you.

P.S. You taught me too, to realise a situation in which i could forgive such an atrocity,
not because you taught me forgiveness, but because i found i could never live without you.

But i am..