a place for my head

Hm.

I thought i was doing
not great,
but OK.

Until i counted n realised that
i've been studying for one week,
n ders two days left,
n I still have Half my lectures to cover.

Wow.

Nvm that i have things Other than lectures to cover,
n oso Need time to run through everything.

Hmmmm indeed.

n Still im not studying. =/

-----

I'm wondering...

.

N since when did i start
missing something.

-

Studying is really boring.

So much fun.

N so boring.

N how are you doing?

hmmmm.

-

N what exactly went wrong?

N a voice to say : It's okay.

-

N i also just realised that there will be a Long holiday too.

But. Thats. Still. O.K. Bcoz. Im. Banking. On. The. Holidays.

n its evil
sigh...

But i am not knowing what to do now.
N i wont know what to do then.

n i dont want it i dont want it.
but i dont want the other.

Will God forgive me?

I dont know what is wanted of me.
I dont know how to give you anything.

---

Seeing your name reminds me to study..

*laughs*..

n suddenly maybe i know what im missing.

maybe.

I'm sorry you think im not good enough.
Thats ok.

I'll miss you.
Along with the rest of them.

I'm sorry im not as nice as you would like a person to be.

N its just too bad that i Know, there wont be any more.

-----

I'm sorry i was not as old as I am now.

I'm sorry for the things i did not know.

I'm sorry i was not grown up enough.

But all you had to do was ask.

TRY.

All you ever had to do was ask.

but i guess why bother, when you can just start over again..

-----

I'm not saying i have the answers.

I Know. That i Wouldnt know what to do.

But i cant just pretend like nothings happened.

When too many things have.

Now, stop listening.

I'll shudup now.