so she said, 'whats the problem, baby'

Seems alot harder for me to blog these days..

hmm.. i mean..
i really tend to just open the page (if i actually get to it..) n stare at it for hours..

not that theres nothing to say..
heh.

jus.. the getting it out part.
the how.

hmm.

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if you ask me why i was nice to a certain somebody..
haih..

it was just appearances la i guess..

what was i to do?

heh.

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Today we went to the Bangsar place again.

Yumm.

altho i have to say it wasnt as excellent as the first time..
probably the expectation y'noe..
but if you (i) think about it.. relatively, it is still frikin good la.
hah..

yum..

First thing i did,
dive into the crab!
n it was all soft n nice ahhhh..
But, but, eventho that is how i like it.. Dyu know it is actually a sign that the crab isnt all too fresh?
That the flesh is soft n mushy..
hahaha..
but yea.. that is kinda sorta how i like it.. the mushy bit not the unfresh bit sniff..
i know, im weird.

Den my mum was like.. "hmm.. the crabs not fresh."
n my response was? (somewhere along the lines of) "enjoy first, pay later."
=P hahaha..
n i tell you, i Am paying now man. haha..

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Yesterday
one of the most stressful/drama days of my life man.
hah..

well started off that way man..
full of trepidation n stress!....

but ah well.

at the end of the day, it ended with me watching 300 again
which was awesome n so much fun. (the watching i mean. the shows excellent we already know tat. :p)
n put me in an excellent mood.
hah.

but oh before that..
its funny how much drama stuff can happen in one day man.

one of them being
how i had initially planned to go out that day (aft work ofcoz =/) to run some personal errands n stuff..
n den coincidentally my dad suggested that we do go out.
great right?
except that had me waiting for them till 7pm..
till 8pm..
n den till 9pm. -_-"
n den too late.
Hah!

Boy was i stressed/pissed at that point!
mostly bcoz i had jus woken up from a nap (while waiting for them :p) n was still groggily annoyed. :p
but you know.. also bcoz they always do that!
'lie' to me y'noe!
haha.. i mean.. not do what they say we'll do..
when here i am desperate to get my butt out of the house. haha.

yea man.
Can you tell how Coop-ed up i am!
haish!
haha..

but oh well.
n den shortly after that fiasco.
i was asked to go out to the car to get something.
n man when i stepped out of the gate it was like..
(seriously, i kid you not)
Open space! Night sky! Fresh Air!!
Freeeeeeeeedom!!!

GodDam im deprived man.

hahaha

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Oh well.
today we did get to go out.

I went n got a bouquet for Mothers Day.
arranged for it to be delivered tomorrow.

probably got ripped off but ah..
watudo..
just hope its decent/nice.

haha..

also got my most excellent choc cake!
Which i jus ate some of!
yay!
most excellent!

den walked around
whiled time away
nothing much to see

felt lonely.

but ahh..
*shrugs*

atleast it needs to take its turn with feelings like this
where i guess i have to say
that im glad that i dont need any one right now..
its not a bad place to be..

n den dinner was out again.
at Bangsar like i said.

:p

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oh i had a bunch of emo stuff to say
but ive forgotten them by now..

bed soon.
work at 9 tmr.
haih..

Tummyache.

haha.
maybe i shudnt be pushing my stomach like this..
considering i have (forgotten if ive said this) been having sporadic diarrhoea for the past.. month or so, since ive been back from Perth. (yes, perth)

heh.

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I know i might rant / complain / lament / stress out over
some things

but i Do know that God has his plan.

i know we want good things but
good things tend to come attached with hope
n hope in such cases leads to disappointment.
because of this thing, expectation.

no expectations, no disappointment see?

haih.. yea..

it can be quite sad going into a situation without good things with you..
but if you hold back that expectation..
n trust in Gods plan..

it might work out for you.

might.

because we dont like to have expectations here.

:)...

Im sorry for the people i love..
who, are having things not work out for them right now..
but, tho, good things might bring with them disappointment..
they are still good things after all..
i hope you can hold on to that..

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sigh..

5am. off to bed.
work tmr.

sigh.

Shit on that front coz im up to the brim,
'bout had it with
i guess its the smothering i feel...

i think im at the edge..
which'is why i get stressed out so much..

oh haih..