wanderer

Private thoughts that wont make any sense to you.
Pls bear with me..


sigh..

I was gonna ask you to keep an eye out for him...
But i thought i might have my selfish reasons for doing so..
n so i didnt..
(i guess looking back.. there wasnt much u Cud have done.. n it wud have been selfish of me to ask on your side, even if not on mine...)
sigh..

Shudve stepped up.
Shudve tried harder.
Shudve pushed pass all nagging doubts n just gone ahead.

I owed you that much atleast.

I owed you being there.

Now do I lie or tell the truth?
Whats my best shot?

I cant help you if you wont let me in..

How many ppl have you 'helped' in the past few weeks?
How many have you bitten back the words for, just to try n hope for good things?
How many have you let down?..

sigh..

What fate was it that led me Not to be there all those times?
N then the rest is my fault for not trying hard enough..

What do I do now?

Of all the people I prayed for..
why didnt I pray for you?..

Im sorry I let you down..

Please let me help you now..

N please, God, let me be able / know how to..


When all things work out well in the end..

How do we know which road we're supposed to take?

P.S. How can you be such a Bitch?!
At times like this!
I knew u have always been selfish n self absorbed
but at times like this?
A little compassion would do nice.
Even if all you had to do was shut up.
Other people have problems bigger than yours so just stop beings such a f-ing princess n..
sigh wont ask you to be a bigger person.. i dont think ure capable of that..
This is someones Life we're talking about dammit!

Makes me feel so much worse that that was all he was left with.