proprietary

It was at 14 when she left the school one afternoon to make a call.
n on her return i questioned her on who it had been.
She said, "Boyfriend!" Followed by a quick denial of "Nah.. hehe.."

N from it i did infact conclude that it was probably her boyfriend, previously unmentioned.
but i didnt push it.
Years later, after we had grown much closer, i checked back on it and received an affirmative on my suspicions.

.

He made a reply to my question of why he had been quiet of late, at that time,
with a "Coz found new gurl gurl in campus ma!" Again with a quick "No la, haha.."

N again it seemed just obvious that is was in fact the truth, n the reason for his distance.

2 years later, they are currently seeing each other.

.

In his car, the other day, when in answer to my question on his days activities, he had claimed to have been moody in the morning,
i followed with a 'why'.
N he answered "Coz she bully me." "no la.."

Same conclusion. n so i changed the subject.

.
All this,
n maybe all the same with
(tho it is not registered in my head as the same category.. but maybe i have a different box for him.)

When his "what Have you done?", implying that i had in fact done nothing, was said quickly, with an accusatory tone.
n following my shocked silence, covered with another denial.

how could i not know that he had meant what he said?

oh normally i would have ended this at that.
to convey the feelings that id feel that would convey.
but i guess those feelings are not what i want to stress on right now..

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Lookin at some things earlier i found myself remembering
some of the dumb-er things i used to get upset over in my last relationship.

I wonder if id still do the same now.

many things, on the way i would feel,
i know would remain the same..

but for some, i guess i hope not.

tho that they do show me how he feels
still remains true to me..

hmm.

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he's got me thinking, that i love you.