aside

need to talk to someone ok.

but nothing to say.

so much n nothing
n no one.

too tired of all this

i just cant deal with it ok.

i know im ending it

but i cant deal.

too tired of all the in betweens.
been stuck.
delegated.

too tired of the missing, again.

too tired of doing it coz its way too draining
being the one.
the stupid one.
n havin to listen to things that arent true
arent real
or being able to see n tell the difference.

not a game.
not to me.

tired of being made to deal with things
i ran away from
bcoz i knew i cant.

you dont get to put strings on me..


why is it so hard for you to see that its not so easy
not so simple
not so trivial
not just a game a toy a temporary plaything.

or come right out n say it.


n that you dont have too many choices.
just two.
or none.


ive got my answer.
*guess the novelty's worn off.
lucky, lucky you...*


too dam long.
*n to think that you were the one who asked me to go away
all those times
n now.......... ?*

(...)

i think ive changed roles with too many ppl in my life.
now im the nociphiliac

if you're tired
maybe you should have figured it out.
this is why.
that is why.
u'll see.
soon n n den some.

always always some.

coz this is what its like.

have you figured That out?..


P.S.
fooking stupid.
fooked the exam.
dun giv a dam / (give alot of dams)
probably fook the next few seeing as how im not studying.

P.P.S
fooking throat.

gonna do what you make me do


P.P.P.S.
remember the 'incase i dont see you before's..?
ive figured it out.