idiot

Angry.

Bcoz i spent most of the day doing crap that ppl asked.

N i come back home late at night, having Not studied,
n still i have to do work for you.

N there i sit for OVER AN HOUR, writing a darn email for you,
and even then im not even angry.

F-ing late, but i go up to de-stress.
N the Moment i come down, you want me to do More work for you.

W-T-F!

DO I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO THAT I HAVE TO SPEND THE LAST FEW PRECIOUS HOURS OF MY fckd-up STUDY TIME TO DO MINDLESS CRAPPY WORK FOR YOU!

OVER n Over.

IS IT SO HARD TO SEE THAT IVE AN EFFING EXAM THAT IM ABOUT TO FAIL N I NEED EVERY SECOND I HAVE TO WASTE!??

Said hours are very imporant for procrastination ok.

sigh.......................

guessed im stucked at my cursed 2 lectures a day........

is there a politer way to say f-cked?

sighhh..................................


Also,

why do they get such promises and not me?...............

or is it bcoz if they were made to me, you would have broken them anyways, and i wouldnt have believed them either..............

*promises are made to be broken. i figured that out way way long time ago.. dont think ive ever believed in them.*
*the things you want to keep... you'd do it regardless of promises made, or lack thereof.*

*n im always wary of promises made to me... (i watched as you made yours...) they have a habit of breaking around me..*

forever n ever~

what were we missing?

i believe we thought it was all good...

or were we kidding ourselves.

was i?

n you lied just like you know how to. n like they always do.

were you really hiding your 'true self' all those years, only showing a part, n taking a part...

how was it so easy to let go??.....

WHat was I missing??!
(i was always this crazy with you. n all our time.. n all our words.. n our special couch.)
(i know you were crazy bout me too. n all that changed in one night..)

Well, you sure had me fooled.

Yes darling,
Idiot will always be my term of endearment for you..

Yes, n he is rather hot.
n yes of course hes nice.
They always are.
at the begining.
for you..

But you'll be fine.

coz just like the other.

"what u two??"

HOW do you ppl Do it?!

(Oh Shit wow! They're Both hot! Now Seriously!?)


In the end,

I dont think ive said a real 'I miss you' in years n years... (particular exception aside)

since you.

n i dont think i ever will again.


Now seriously,

How do you people Do it??