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bloggin 3 times today

because 3 times i had to come down n say

i cant study.

sigh.

cant cant cant n i dont know why.

n you cant tell your friends bcoz
they either
dont care
are in the same boat
are doing much better than you but think theyre in the same boat
or really dont care.

but hes right.
if you dont study
theres really nothing anyone else can do about it.

ofcoz there exists in your imagination
a perfect mcdreamy who wud come down n make you study.
but such a someone needs to be drawn with a magic wand n den have life breathed into him.

so.

screwed.

sigh.

with all the slackin
from today on
20 notes need to be done in a day.

right.

n i cant even do 5.

...

this more than sucks.


P.S. i wish
i wish for many things right now
wishes that form in my head all night long
i wish i cud put them down
but i guess i shudnt.


For Gods sake WHY do i Not seem to Understand how ***d i am?
why do i 'know' n 'understand' n 'rationalise'
but am unable to just get it!

ugh
..

Now ty for listening.


P.P.S. i think part of me might be doing this post for a wrong reason. =/
but just maybe.