everything to lose

A note

that night,

Things i could have held on a little longer..

n then

things i did, and im glad i did.

-

I dreamt of someone else this morning.

not that i am particularly fond of him..

but it was refreshing,
n a relief..

n then i fell asleep
n dreamt of you again.


n it wasnt pretty.

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so is holding on good?

everytime after it passes
n i feel better about myself..

but everyday is a struggle.


what am i supposed to do when no path is right?

its easy for you to say.
but do you really know how much both ways suck.

n nothing gets better.

n all the pointless words


*i wish you would make it better*
or leave me to it

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i doubt you noticed.
but i moved stuff.
n hence read.

n i decided that
im stupid.
n i hate you.

sigh.

I've done zero studying.

zero.

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