everything

thinking bout

rings and chains
and prezzes
and ice cream and cake
and birthdays

thinking of doors
open or closed.
or locked.

of bed. just one.
lying down and guitar.

night time prowling
with stolen melted refrozen ice cream
untouched.
cake.

shirts.

thinking of opening prezzes.


thinking of you.


so,
cant study.

all the thought and time and energy
willingly
unconditionally
and yet that you couldnt spend.

thoughts that span months.
even now.
(7+ ?)

even the big little things
of decency
is too lazy an excuse to hurt?
not not please, actively leaving it out there to
hurt.

so,
doors open or closed.
or locked.

you have to decide.


(i do mean to be nice)

Also,
thinking of shopping.
must buy bodyglove tops 50% OFF!!! *sob*


in answer to your question,
intent isnt everything
because you inadvertently do it anyways
(to everyone)
tho you never admit intent to yourself or anyone around you.
but your choices and your refusal of choices
and the lies
(the lies of supposed good intent)
end up doing the same.

time for a review?
or not.


P.S.
when he writes everyday,
its like its often, and i can see it coming,

when he writes everyday,
its like an eternity in between.