Byebye bloggy.... :'(

hey guys.

No im not dying.....nor m i deleting this blog...yet... :p

College has started....as u might have guess....
which means...

NO MORE BLOGGIN!!! :'(

sadly sadly....

2 n 1/2 weeks to AS exams!
BIG FRIKIN DEAL!!!

n have i studied???
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I am so so so so dead!
So dead!
So dead!

n i cant even type more here coz my idiot brother is buggin me!
being the youngest naturally means being the object of all the bullying..!
Ive received orders to vacate the comp, n vacate the comp is wat i have to do...

as u can c i m full of crap...

=)

Note on my crush: (hahahaha) He came up to me, THRICE, surpirsingly.....especially after wat i tot was ignoring/avoiding me....anyways, wat i wanna say is tat, ive jus realised why it is tat i never felt tat i actually 'wanted' him.....
Theres No CHEMISTRY! :/
Sadly..... :) yeah..... i dun think theres any sparks there....
Eventhough the lovecalculator says our relationship has a 99% probability of working out!
WOOHOOO!!!! hahahaha
check out d calculator.....dun believe it too much of course...but i think its quite accurate.....
stilll, SERIOUSLY, dun go putting too much on it....
things like this, u usually end up MAKING it the way its 'predicted'....get me?

anyways.....

gtg....

Wish me luck! (for my exam doofusses! Not my crush!) :D

cheapskate

U guys are TOO pampered! :p (namely tat crazy fella)
Just coz i blogged almost all week last week! Almost everyday tis hols!!! ALMOST!
Expect me to B-L-O-G All day Everyday ah?!?!
I have a life u noe!!! hehe well actually i dunt...

College starting mahhh
But actually more because of the dumb UCAS form la.....
hai......
blur, tension, sad, depressed, worried, AIKZ!!! (This word is a new fetish wit me! But i WONT tell u Why!!!) ;)

lalala....wat shud i start wit...

Aikzzzz (c!? Told ya!)
I stopped there at first...not knowing wat to blog about (though theres like a million things running through my head, most i think wont garner any response...:( )
I was in fact sleeping on the couch! (Which REMINded me Very clearly of the blog-that-i-lost, as I was doin eXactly tat (sleepin on couch), b4 'saving' my blog, which didnt actually get saved....)
Den i closed this window......and started on my UCAS again.....

and den i found something i could blog about...

---

A typical medical degree would take 5 yrs to complete.
2 yrs of pre-clinical n 3 yrs of clinical...i think. (if my personal statement assessors could c how little i noe, Id have to go do engineering!!! :'( )
Pre-clinical studies r about $10 500 a yr.
Clinical studies, $19 300 a yr.

So, 2 x 10 500 = $21 000
3 x 19 300 = $57 900
$71 900

lets say $72 000 la ok?

OK now, living expenses.
Generally, if u dun take escargot n chocholate eclairs everyday, $500 a month shud work...

So, 12 x $500 = $6 000
5 x $6 000 = $30 000

And SO, $ 72 000
+ $ 30 000
$102 000 for 5 yrs.

BUT!!! People, lets not forget. $ was standing for pounds......aaaaahhhhhhh

SO (again) we have: 7 x $102 000 = RM 714 000

PLUS book + flights + clothes + misc...= RM 800 000 !!!!!!!!!

Why?! Does that seem like a small amount to u?!?! Fine, i noe Quite a number of people are able to afford Dat amount, (by quite i mean atleast 4 outta 5 of Taylors students), but I CANT!
Even if by some wild twist of fate, im able get half of it on loan,.......wat about the rest of the money?
Sell my house n my brothers house, let my whole family sleep in a cardboard box by the road side, while i enjoy a dam cool campus in UK? ;) Hehehe!!!
Is it right that my parents scrape out all their hard earned money, all the money that they spend SO many years saving, just on one dumb degree course???
Its THEIR money, they shud be spending it enjoying themselves...trip around the world or watever! ;)
[Actually u noe? It Might not be TAT bad if they sell of all properties, cars, furniture, clothes, everything...maybe get 800 000, and go buy a merc!!! Yey!!! They could Sleep in it ya noe!!! ;)]

But, dont u think its true?
Why shud they spend their savings on me?
yes....parents are sorta responsible for their childrens education, but well....not if it takes out their lives savings!!! That jus aint fair!
Wat are they gonna do after that?! Wait for me to earn loads n DEN enjoy?!?
It Doesnt work tat way anymore....
Parents these days have children much later in life...by the time their children get settled down in their jobs n start making a reasonable income, they wud hardly be left with much life/strength to enjoy!
ESPECIALLY if its medicine!!!
Come oN! Im 18 now k...so I'll complete my A Levels in my 19th yr. My med degree will go until my 24th yr.
25th yr for housemanship...den 5 yrs of work experience, 30yrs old.
U Think u cud start earning den?!?! no WAY!
Specialising, 5 yrs: 35yrs old...
I'LL BE OLD!!!! NOOOOOOO!!!! OLLLLDDDDDDDD!!! :'(
N tats not even IT yet....Thered still be a few more years before the income starts being reasonable, i think...or at least comfortable....

But, well, Humans are as always, greedy.
Buy new house, new car, new clothes, new shoes (tis is for a certain Someone as I only own 1 pair of shoes! *wink*), etc. etc. etc.
Ur marriage? (hmmm wen did it become 'Urs'...? Shudnt it me 'My' ??? ;) )
U noe HOW expensive Rings, Gown, Photos, HONEYMOON, can be?!?!?!

WEN will u (or I..) be able to provide for (ermmm) our parents?! =)
to give them a nice relaxing holiday......
the peace n comfort tat they deserve...

I ofcourse dun Expect them to turn beggars for me...

And so...the mind wanders back to Indonesia (hehe. Must put new skills to use ya noe...! ;) )

ITS 100% FREE!!!!!!
Shudnt it be give MUCH thought?!?
Lots n LOTS of it?
aih....

Sometimes...i dunno...
i changed my mind a million times...
First it was 'HELL no! NO WAY!'.
Den there was 'I dunno...maybe?'
And also alot of 'India','Russia', 'India', 'Russia'......
Some "Indo" again....n somemore "no..."

hai....I dunno!!!

I mean, well, India shud be fine...But den well, i might as well go Indo den, its Free!
India's dam fine, but the living conditions r Waaaaayyy Bad! (ppls advice...)

aikzzzz, I DunNoe!!!
Do U noe?! Do U CARE?!?!?! *grrr*

i dun......

Oh wel...Ive crapped too much talk aldy...

I SO shud not be doin this now! ;) (Its 5.30 am btw, usually id be readin LOTR...)
I Shud inStead atLEAst be doin my UCAS...hah! :p

Blogging is evil and addictive! *grins*
If I FAIL with my application, we ALL noe who to blame!!! *cough*crazyMsian*cough*

well, niterz...

p.s. hoping tat maybe some sesat doctor will stumble here and give some valuable advice! If not about where to go, atleast about how to get IN (uk) ;)
DAT, or a rich, handsome, prince or something, who has to be a nice person ofcourse (hehheh), stumbles here, falls in love with my blog n me, marries me, and pays for my education!
(Harhahahahahahahahaaha...................)
It wud ALL b worth it den... =)
hmmmm yeah.....I think Id prefer the 2nd choice....wudnt u?! =)

P.p.S MUCH LUCK TO LIYANA OUT THERE IN RUSSIA! ;) (do u even read my blog anymore?!) WE ALLLL NOE HE-WHO-I-SHALL-NOT-NAME LOVES U LOADS! CAN U GET HIM TO SHUT UP ABOUT IT ALREADY?!?! =) (*grins* totally kiddin ;) )

I had too much to drink... ;)

I didnt write for d 14th!
Aikz!!!
I still havent told u guys my Lagoon story....(Coz the dumb comp screwed up on me n refused to Give me Back my ENTRY!!! *Huge Sob* )
Aih....i think ive come to terms with my loss... *sob*

But i shudnt be here now...
Hai....worrying bout the UCAS form!!!
SO last minute! SO SO Dead!
Theres a Million things I havent done!!!
Shitty results! No attachment!! No DOE!!!! No nothin!
Wat in the World am I thinking?!?!?!
Medicine........*huge sigh!*

Obligations obligations obligations!

Well i cant do much for u guys today...

Except, I Cant BELIEVE i Forgot about Boston Public yesterday!!!
Wow!!! The Whole Day i was thinking "Monday, got show! Monday got Show!"
But i Totally forgot that BP was ON Monday!!!
Until it came on n i was like "AAAAAHHhhhhh! Boston Public is on MONDAY?!?!!? No its NOT!!! YES IT IS!!!!"

*sheepish grin*

hai...'Somebody' 'lied' to me today! ;) (3 guesses who. ;) ) (btw, dat was rhetorical...i dun really expect u to guess...=) )
Hey! 2 ppl Lied to me today! (or rather didnt keep their promises!)
Hmm....Dat Somebody 'Lied' to me Yesterday as well!!! {Maybe i need to take the hint? *grins*}
HEY!!! Wats going ON?!?! ITS A CONSPIRACY!!! :p

Ugh! I HATE ppl who Say they're gonna do one thing, n den Dun do it at all, or even let me noe tat they're not gonna do watever it is... :)
Fortunately, these particular ppl dun owe me anything. As in, i dun have any right to expect anything from them, so its ok. ;)
Hrmp! Except my ex! He is So gonna die! He SAID hed be Back!!! I TOLD him id wait for him!!!
GGGRRRRRRrrrrr!!!!
(ps, by being back i meant on msn. same goes for 'waiting'. Hope u guys didnt Think TOo Far!!!)

hahaha.....watever.....

nite guys....need to go clear the mess in my room....n check out the UCAS form......!
*Huge mother of all Sighs!*
(ps, again, wen ppl write 'mother of', my mind tends to register it as an obscene phrase...sounds crude to me...;) maybe u noe why....Hell, u probably do! *wink* my apologies... ;) )

so, nitez all...
sweet dreams...

(wait a minute, Im the one goin to bed now...I doubt any of u guys will see this just b4 goin to bed......(since its already 3am!), so me wishing u guys sweet dreams doesnt really make sense does it...?!...)

Man i talk too much......

Oh my GOD!!! I think i jus discovered how to place a Link!!!
here

YES!!!!!!
I AM A GENIUS!!!!!
Wahahahahahahaha........(maniacle laughter) (grammar?)

Invitation to dinner

Hello.

Im bored.

hai...

ok, let me see if i can tell u a short story...
it was supposed to be my blog for sat (or sun morn...wateva)

ok anyway, i went out wit a frend dat day, to pyramid.
My frend left b4 me n told me to be careful n all, to call her if there was anything. (yea rite, if anything Did happen, i dun think id be able to call anybody, wud i?!?!)
I Obviously did not expect Anything to happen at all, as usual...
But on my way out of pyramid, to the nearby shopblocks, to wait for my bro, some guy came up the stairs...
He sed something, dat i didnt quite get, so i asked him...
he sed again "wats the time?"
..."The time?"
I was a little apprehensive coz i didnt have a watch, n the oni way i cud tell the time wud be to look at my phone...
I reached into my pocket but was unsure as to whether or not i shud take my phone out...
Den the guy asked me "Where r u goin?"
...
I was stunned! I stared at him quizzically...
Wat the hell was he doin askin me where I was goin...???
"wat?"
"Where r u goin?...Do u understand English?"
"Yes, i understand English...but y r U askin me where im goin??"
"well, i was wondering whether u cud have a meal with me..."

(AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Bad guy alert! BAD GUY ALERT!!!)

Wat in the World?!
Den i tried to get away, sayin i was goin back (y in the world did i need to tell him so much anyways?! stupid...)
He started askin even more question, like where i was goin back to..cudnt i jus have a meal wit him...bcoz he was a student from Sunway College, he was a foreigner from Pakistan...!
Yeah rite! If he Was a foreigner from Pakistan i doubt his English wud be dat good...
[Edit (14/10/07) : I wud like apologize here, bcoz i realize that i was rather immature to say this. But i was alot younger n more naive back then, n i have since grown, n seen more of the world. (or so i wud hope. :p) ]
or if im wrong n bias den at least if he was from Sunway College den hed probably have a million friends dat he cud asked out....Whyd he need me rite?!?!?!

N the thing was, just as he was sayin that he was from Pakistan...Id made up my mind to jus go, N I APOLOGISED TO HIM!?!?!?!
I have No idea WHY!
In fact! I felt bad as i realised i said 'i gotta go' just After he told me he was from Pakistan...
I didnt want him thinking That was the reason i was leaving...
OMG, wat am i sayin!?!?!

Here i am feeling bad about saving my ass from a guy who was probably planning on kidnapping me or something! (yea rite. i dun believe dat either.. ;) )
Weird huh!?
Can someone tell me y?! ;)

The guy was plain Nuts to think that id go out with a total stranger...
but den...some girls do...

Im wondering wat in the world he was thinking..
Wat was it dat he actually wanted to do?
A dinner?
Wat decent guy wud ask out a total stranger for dinner?
Without even a conversation...(asking for the time is Not considered conversatioN! ;) Not that id go even if der was conversation though..hehe)
Lifes little mysteries huh?
just like those dumb prank calls dat u get...
those wer the caller actually sorta knows u...ur name...ur favourite band! (happened to me! ;) )

Go figure.

UGH!

I lost a blog entry. AGAIN!

UGH!!!

I typed it yesterday, it was Really long, n Really late!
I fell asleep!
So i decided to Save it n continue today!

BUT NOW, ITS GONE!!!

I was probably only 1 third through but IT WAS ALREADY VERY LONG!!!

I LOVED DAT ENTRY!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Ugh!~
Im so pissed!
Getting off to watch Shrek2 (again!)
MAYbe i'll be back later! :p (dats not a cute smiley face BTW! IM STICKING OUT MY TONGUE AT U!!!)

UGH!

I'm blind.

Today was a good day! ;)
Or rather, it ended well... ;)
(note: whenever i say 'today' tis days, i usually mean yesterday, as i always type pass midnite.)

Went out wit my frenz! ;)
Had a hell of a blast!
Except for 1 friend who was kinda down....made me feel bad coz i cudnt cheer him up... :(

I had a great time. ;)
Though, both His absence n presence bugged me! :)
Wen we finally saw Him, it was really funny wen my friends teased me about it!
N really embarrassing how schoolgirly i was! :$ hehehe
AND, n idiot fren of mine almost got killed by me for callin out his name!~! (he looked! :o)

ANyways.....

u noe...i think i'll stick to emotional stuff for a while....
my specialties... ;)

U realise how to best part of relationships (ok ok, sOme relationships..) is rite at the begining!
Wen he's smitten with her n she is infatuated wit him! ;)
Both think the world of each other n try their hardest to make the other happy... ;)
Enjoyin every moment...sweet missing...
The smallest things: waking up n thinkin bout her, msgin him a simple hi, miscalls that say 'i love u', blahblahblahblahblaa... ;)

Remember the 3 couples i blogged about?
Remember the one wit the said 'mature' relationship?!
Well, that really Was coz i didnt see them together...
apparently, it aint so mature after all....
they do do those childish 'lovers' games! *sigh* (theres no hope in this world!)
~merajuking...querellin over small matters...worryin about 3rd parties.......

well...its kinda sad...
Dat when 2 people who love each other get together (which wud seem the must Duh! thing to happen), they get upset over petty fights!
Is there a point to this?! I dun get it...

I use to care about this things...i think...
Use to play stupid irritating immature games....
Den i got tired of it.
I realised how stupid n pointless the games were...
(One of my exes ones 'broke up' wit me jus for fun, to see whether i cared about him enuff to beg him not to leave, or watever....WTH?!?!)
N resolved not to start a relationship unless it was serious n we really were in love... ;)
I hate games, i do....
But i cant swear that it wont happen in any of my future relationships...
i dunno....
i still wud want him to show that he cares...(ie: call me...often, somthing lidat...)
A million things.....
wat do i do then?!
I'd say that, b4 we started a bf-gf relationship, that he'd already be doing these things bcoz he cares...n that he'd love me enuff to continue them....n if he didnt, which wud mean he didnt love me, to dump him!
*grins* but Thats not right...
no, coz these things arent the most important things in a relationship...itd be nuts to break up for something like dat...maybe...
AND sometimes, ud love to person so much, n the person'd love u back too...but didnt 'fulfil' the sed requirements (im not even sure wat they are!....r u confused yet?!)
so not starting a relationship.....that wudnt be right...?

BLUR

=) Heh! Yes, I am here to confuse us all...

Thats it la...3am...have to wake up for drivin tmr...(hopefully!)

Aikz...(private grin!)

Nitez

P.S. Love is blind...(I'll let u guys noe who blind I was wen i get over my crush, k?! ;) )

Titanic Crush

well....that last entry wud have fit better in my diary eh?
:/

feel real confused n weird today...
happy...n sad...

its somebody's birthday today!
Hey Happy Birthday! ;)
Boy i hope he doesnt see this.....haha

1st it was my frend who made me so confused n sad yesterday....but today was ok....jus ignored the previous day.

But my crush.......

You know? (God, sayin this, if certain ppl stumble on this site, theyd noe who i am aldy....hai....)
Honestly, (lets just see how many people will believe this!) i only want him as a friend.
From the begining, the first time i saw him, was introduced to him, I was immediately attracted!
Not sure wat it was. I dun think its was bcoz hes cute. At first i tot, only i tot he was cute, but dat wasnt true...lots of peeps think so. ;)
Maybe it was his smile! His handshake!
I noticed that he had a nice firm grip!
I dun get that alot...even from guys. Sometimes i feel i grip harder then the guys....n have to let go some.. ;)
Hes smile is just Amazing, ya noe!
The sweetest ever!
N the BEST thing about him is dat, He ALWAYS smiles!
A-L-W-A-Y-S
Its amazing! How can u not admire him!
He has The Most Amazing smile! ;)
cant help melting... ;)

N yet, from the begining i knew i dint want him in the special way.
Especially since i dun really noe him n he doesnt really noe me...
Maybe if i got to noe him better.....but i havent yet, so i dun n cant want him dat way.
N i really dun!
He has a crush y'noe...
N i swear i have no problem with dat...
Wen he told me, i just laughed (it was online, so it wasnt as if i was acting)
N wen he talks about it, i just wanna help him...I dun mind at all!

N yet, im getting more n more desperate!
hahaha...
The more time i spend chatting wit him...the more i miss him n get sad...
The more i want to be friends, better friends...closer...
i wanna help him...
i wan him to open up to me...come to me...
MWahaha! But wat can i expect?! He hardly noes me...

I keep pushin my luck...askin him out n all...
hai....haha pity the poor fella...wanna reject oso susah! haha
but girls can tell. ;)
Poor fella. Hahaha!

He's not my type! ;)
Atleast i dun think so.
Well 1st of, he doesnt look my type! *grins*
N well, ya the things id like to do with my boyfren.. (hooi dun think so far! ;) )
lean on him...emotinally n physically...
well...he doesnt seem like that~! hehehe...

Hes real sweet n friendly n caring!
His friends just have to most fantastic things to say about him!;)
He msged me for 4 hrs that day! Poor fella! ;)
I think he was too sweet to get rid of me...
i think after that he tried to avoid me online though! Mwahaha.
i think la....im sensitive...
There was this once, just a few weeks after meetin him, our coll had tis special occasion, so we had like 1 cls for the day.
after class i wasnt sure wat i was goin to do...
A couple of my classmates were goin to the movies wit their friends. I was just askin them about it.
They probably felt obligated to ask me, ya know? N they were like, "wanna come ah?"
The prob was, it was kinda obvious how insincere they were! hahaha. :)
No qualms though. ;) we werent really close, n they prob jus wantd to hang out wit their friends...
So i declined. ;)

But den, i met wit downstairs, n he was tellin me of goin to the movies wit His friends!
N he asked "Wanna come?!"!!! He asked me with the sweetest smile! That cheeky wide friendly grin!
(GOd, i can still picture it! ;) )
He was so friendly, SO sincere! I was TOtally taken aback!
Hmpff!
=)
Unfortunately though....i cudnt really say yes as he was goin wit his friends that i didnt noe, n it wud have been a little awkward...Outsider ya noe... :)
unless it was me thinking too much n him being a great actor la! hahaha ;) but it seemed really sweet...

he was always real friendly to me...
chattin wit me wen we met....
his smile.....! =)

I THINK (or tot) he got umm scared after a while though...mwahahah
Seemed like he was avoidin me a little...
More recently, when i talked to him, hed talked for a while, den hed turn to his friend and start talkin to them...leavin me feelin awkward! ;)
sighs...

Even more recently, jus a few days ago...we were standing quite near each other after school, but he didnt greet me, until he walked pass me n i said hi...he replied with a really hurried weird hi!
*grins*
BUT, just a short while later, we bumped into each at a shoppin mall...
I jus said hi n was about to walk on wen He sorta initiated a conversation...short one...but he did start it. ;)
N again another while later, wen we bumped into each other again...

N den its been online...
Sometimes i think hes avoidin me...
or jus not talkin to me coz hes busy with other things (read: rather be doin other stuff or talkin to other people) ;)
But sometimes, again he initiates a conversation.... ;)

hahaha, I keep thinking of the poor fella being bombarded by my invitations!
hehehe...
well we're both goin to the same mall tomorrow, or rather today (its 2.40am)
I hope we will bump into each other...
but i doubt it...
n i did ask him to join us...but i just dun think he will.... :)

oh well...to tomorrow den! ;)

p.s. he's into the Coolest activities! N he's SO talented! ;) (hes perfect wei!)
Hobbies i wish I knew how to do...but theres nobody to teach me...n nobody to go with me to try things
out. ;/ N ofCourse i cant ask him! hahaha. Pity d fella!

oh well. toodeloo now. ;)

Cheers!

holes again...

Screw the world! Screw Life!
Its SO not worth it!!!

Why dun people LISTEN to me?!
When i say NO, i Mean NO!
Dam it!
I THINK BEFORE I SPEAK!
Theres a Reason i said No!
Im fighting So hard against myself NOT to bring up old milk, n wen i say NO, why cant people just Take it as that!!!

I had the greatest day today...
my crush, he was good to me (eventhough he might not have had much choice....)

Until i came online, n 'she' had to tempt me to talk about 'it'.
DIN I SAY NO?!?!

I held myself back for the longest time....n den i broke.
It was like talking to myself...
N i cried...
I said it was pointless, Dint I?!?! But NO, she Had to push me to it...
N who gets upset in the end?!?!
ME!
Me, thats bloody who!

in the end, it dint solve shit did it?
no....
eventhough for a few minutes after we stopped talkin bout my prob n went to a totally different one of hers...i felt ok, dat maybe i could forget...
but no, i cudnt have that...
Im sad again...

n my crush ignored me...hah! :/

the 2 people who could screw up my life....decided to do it at the same time! ;)

i feel better... ;)

I got mail, again.

THE DONKEY


One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.



He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.


As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of the
animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon,
everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of
the well and happily trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to
getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of
our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.





Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less

NOW --------

Enough of that crap . . .

The donkey later came back, and bit the shit out of the farmer who had
tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected, and the farmer
eventually died in agony from septic shock.

MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:

When you do something wrong, and try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.



Haha. That was cool eh? Liked the part bout life shoving dirt, n the ass. ;)

Huskys are SO CUTE! But lab/retrievers r still my faves!

Quite a while back, when i was still at that God-forsaken uni, i decided to go MidValley one Friday afternoon.
By my self.
Yes, by my self.
And every single person i knew whom i bumped into while on the way there n AT MidV, HAD to ask me "aLOnE?!"
No offence, but, Whats wrong with that?!

OK, ya. Lots of peeps say its dangerous. (Thnx alot for ur concern)
I dunno.....
For me its like, what could happen? Theres gonna be lots of other peeps with me on the bus...

Even with taxis its the same.
I noe that lots could happen....
Alot of people have been kidnaped or ahemahem by taxi drivers, or ppl who pose as taxi drivers....
But it never really sinks in for me.
My dad n bro Always make me msg them the taxi no. whenever i wanna take one home.
I once got scolded by my bro for not doin so.
Even though i took one of those taxis Pyramid assigns to the shoppers...
N my house is about 5 mins away...
I seldom worry or suspect any of the taxi drivers....(except one who got me worried after a well, he seemed like he was drooling and talked to me about wanting to sleep in a errr worrying way?....;) maybe i was over reacting)
Or well, i use not to....

And yet, everyday in the papers we see stuff like dat...
Rape, murder, rape, murder, murder, rape n murder,......
How sick has the world come to?
Just try one paper. Any one paper....the amount of sick news in Just ONE day is enough to scare the living daylights out of any parent with daughters...

My dad was just talkin to me today about how he used to hitch-hike in the UK....
A whole group of them would start from one point, and meet at the nex..
But they din do it together (ofcourse, wat car could take 60ppl?)
They'd maybe do it in pairs....
Even the girls...
But imagine hitch-hiking in these times...
Imagine a couple of girls back packing across Europe, or anywhere, in this, the 21st century...
Itd just be a bet between whether u meet a serial killer or a serial rapist first...

As time passes, countries develop, nations develop (i think they're the same thing), people climb to greater heights, olympic records are broken.
So i guess, humans great need to surpass themselves in everything includes the no. of people that can be raped in one night?

we never do expect bad things to happen to us rite?
Its always, some guy from subang, or my neighbour's wifes ( ;) ) 3rd cousin twice removes' kindergarten teachers childhood best friends ex lovers niece.... who got rolled over by a car after a small argument.
Its never ur kid sister who gets raped n murdered by a security guard...
But that was Someones mother n someones sister...

If u are a good person, bad things will happen to u.
Bad things happen to good people...

Confused? haha, i veered off course...

OK, back to goin MidValley alone.
Well (im sensitive ;) ) im guessin that most of them meant: "aLOnE?!?! Wat have u no Life? No friends?!"
;)
Eventhough that might be true, but its beside the point. =)
I go shopping alone (yes alone) because ITS SO MUCH EASIER THAT WAY!!!

I can go anywhere I want, try on anything, TAKE AS MUCH TIME AS I NEED, talk to myself, laugh at myself, spend half n hour in the changin room figuring out whether to get the pink or the yellow! (Ya rite! Yellow la! hehehe)

Its sad to go to the movies alone, yes. (well it is...if u r an insecure loser like me...)
But then, u get to pick ur Own movie, ur time, n u wont have anyone repeating the scenes to u that u cant say Shhhh to. (its so much harder when the disrupters are ur own friends!)

Like today. Was suppose to go shoppin with my bros gf, n movie was high on my itinary(sp?)!
But due to wat was considered time constraints, the much awaited chick-flick was cancelled...
If I had been there by myself, i wudnt have cared chocolatecake who wants to have dinner wen!
Id definitely have gone for my movie!!

But it still is kinda pathetic goin to the movies alone...
Thats why i asked my crush out! ;)
hahaha...dun think it'll happen though...

Oh well.
nitez all.

WHY r tis things compulsory?

My exams are over now...
N Im on hol...
;)

So no more excuses for not writing eh?

Well i din plan this so im just gonna talk crap.
Wat do i care, nobody sees this stuff anyways. ;)

So, well, at first i was gonna say that this blog isnt really serving its full purpose...
Cause i still have some probs writing stuff...

At one point i was just thinking,
this is MY blog! Why shud i care wat ppl think about it!
I shud just crap however i want!
N den, well, i changed my mind...
I forgot why...

I left my diary ya noe...
=) poor darling! ;)
I was havin exams the last time i wrote....
Den it was hols n i started d blog....
Neglected my beloved! hai....

Picked it up that day though, n flipped through it....
It was wonderful!
The things i wrote, probably stupid to share it here... ;)
But the things mean something to me, the memories....
So im gonna continue with my diary. ;)
Will still keep the blog...Both have their advantages n disadvantages...

hai...
its really late...
Im really hot!
havent bathed yet! ;) icky me!
Im dying to stripped!!!
I really need to pee too sooo.. hehe..

I promise i'll try to put up more interesting stuff? (or er more stuff that is interesting??)

*sigh*

Got some good advice for u peeps though.....'Breathe'

;) i noe ,i noe, i dunnoe wat in the world im sayin either! ;)

my titles dun really make sense do they? ;)

Now I don't
want to lose you
But I don't
want to use you
Just to have somebody
by my side
And I don't
want to hate you
I don't want
to take you
But I don't to
be the one to cry

And I don't really matter
To any one, any more
But like a fool
I keep losing my place
When I keep seeing you
walk through that door

But theres a danger in
loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know
its your heart you can't
trust
Theres a reason why
people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes
love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
But I don't want to blame you
Baby you don't have
to take the fall

Yes, I'd never hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all

It makes us sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
But like a fool who will
never see the truth
I keep thinking
somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in
loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know
its your heart you can't
trust
Theres a reason why people
don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes
love just ain't enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night
and you're all alone
Are there things that
you wanted to say?
And do you feel me
beside your bed
There beside you
where I use to lay?

And theres a danger in
loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know
its your heart they can't
touch
Theres a reason why people
don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love
just ain't enough

Baby sometimes love...
It just ain't...
...Enough...~

songs

There something wrong wit me...
There seriously is...
Atleast, thats what other people see...
I dun understand it...
Dun understand wats goin on...
What?
Why??

hai....