Sucked.
But at least you laughed. (i.e. i made you laugh)
I honestly wish i knew how to take it and go.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
Overkill
"Its not just you. There are a lot of parameters involved. If you think about it, you'll figure it out."
Well i thought about it, n i have no idea what thats supposed to mean.
"Bottom line is, i don't mind.."
Yea well, not minding isn't the same.
But why so cryptic. Whats there to think about! :p
It came out wrong. Too whiny.
What I really wanted to know was, do i do it a lot more comparatively. N what do they Say when they talk to you, surely they don't waffle on like i do.
I didn't realise there could be too much of you.
Think we (i) overdid it on the calls yesterday.
Quality not quantity. It just wasn't right to ask at the end of the day.
Mind or not, i still felt draggy. Thats what i mean, not minding just isn't the same.
As
Hello Trouble, have you gotten over whatever was ailing you yesterday.
Ooo a gentleman.
You're funny, *the evil laugh*, thats why i like you.
I apologize.
Buy you coffee to make it up.
Thursday, May 24, 2012
< Private >
Because i wanna write it down.
Not that today was spectacularly amazing or anything, but theres all these things to work through and sort out.
Like when I called today, and it was Claire i spoke to. (last name found!)
n what i'd expected to be a simple 'this is low and this is low, we are giving such and such, is that ok?', turned out aLot more complicated than i imagined - something i normally look for, but no time to even feel that way today. so, second was that it was a long conversation, but it wasn't with you.
n next was expecting the call back from you as is always the (used to be unexpected) case, but the first one not being you again, with another long conversation about (added injury here) What You Said We Need. - this was ala Deirdre calling up to say You wanted to ask me if my topical route of adm was for eyes or nasal. (well then You ask then.)
n then thankful that it came to the end of the day because Where would i have had time for you.
except what an already shitty time it was with rushing to teaching feeling id left all the jobs behind, coming out early, just looking for handover but all being ambushed on ward for 2nd WR without break, without lunch, n w/o teaching for some.
but worse. not even being able to attend ambushed rounds, bear in mind feeling annoyed/stressed that i needed to know about but was missing the first 2 bays, having only done the 3rd myself in the morning, but doubly ambushed with discharge papers with ridiculous reasons for deadlines; can't believe how long they took me. including the decision to leave the 2nd letter, finally making it to last bay rounds, but then barely a few pts down being sent off to do 2nd letter because oh Now they'll take her if you do this in ten minutes. yea, fat hope.
needless to say, disgruntled. on 2nd paper. missing presenting all the patients i might Actually know a lil something about. finally reached the very last bit, very last, where i get help from 2465, (Mike, nice Mike, but which Mike? Mike i barely know? but how does Mike know me?) ("oh hi" "since its you, i'll just sort it out for you here if it needs it") (its times like these you ? if you really understand their accent) for help with Maths, because 60 by 60 (in numbers and words!) plus 60 by 10, is 70 BD, for 30 days, am i right or am i right?
AND THEN GUESS WHO DECIDES TO SHOW UP.
Right smack in the middle of me just trying to CHECK MY MATHS FOR A SECOND OH COME ON.
How're you doing, trouble. i think. you don't know how much that word aches me.
Have you recovered from whatever was ailing you yesterday. 'i don't know but whatever has happened today has definitely weighed me down proper.' - because all i wanna do is Tell it to you all. like when we said we'd timetable my rant because of the meeting you had to go to.
oh n apparently because someone finally caught me on my crazy rants while walking to and from work. someoneanditwasyou. who was it, the biker who beeped? yesterday.
n you went on about how i was stomping about, probably looking incredibly stupid. n there it was, all these conversations, but i had all these things piled up. (did i mention the many calls from Bereavement (yes dear, where you can deposit your grief dear) about 2 certs because they close at 4! I'm sorry i know i said 2.30 but i was ambushed n i HAVENT EVEN HAD FOOD YET!) but ignore all that because a short while of you is more than all of them. but all i needed to do was for you to hold on one second so i could do my maths. and send. and then all the conversation in the world (for a bit). but that was the break off for you to 'just go see this patient of yours'. 'and then go.'
and then actual whining. re why. can you believe it, actual outright whining. because theres just one of you.
and the back and forth re my 60 by 60. because you're right there, why would i not ask you. and because if i could just keep you there till i finish it. but you're so persuady. and i clicked, and it crashed. how funny. and you went in. and i did the same on a different comp and That blacked out. all i needed was that one line and it just won't let me hah! and then the third comp semi acted up, and by the end of that one line, i was sure you'd gone into the utility, right behind me. but you weren't. and thats one thing, that you didn't come over to see me have my paddy. like you did when we went into PIU because you said come in here with me and so of course i did. and you wanted to know if it was personal, etc etc environmental, and i picked environmental though it gave you a bad picture but really, isn't the underlying thing always personal, because its you? but you didn't anyways, n i still don't really know why you hadn't put down what to do, were you coming back? were you waiting for me to call, like you said you knew i would?
but anyways. then there was Nic about how she didn't know where you'd gone because she hadn't heard your laugh, and have i heard you laughed, and of course i have. the evil one.
Pto
Not that today was spectacularly amazing or anything, but theres all these things to work through and sort out.
Like when I called today, and it was Claire i spoke to. (last name found!)
n what i'd expected to be a simple 'this is low and this is low, we are giving such and such, is that ok?', turned out aLot more complicated than i imagined - something i normally look for, but no time to even feel that way today. so, second was that it was a long conversation, but it wasn't with you.
n next was expecting the call back from you as is always the (used to be unexpected) case, but the first one not being you again, with another long conversation about (added injury here) What You Said We Need. - this was ala Deirdre calling up to say You wanted to ask me if my topical route of adm was for eyes or nasal. (well then You ask then.)
n then thankful that it came to the end of the day because Where would i have had time for you.
except what an already shitty time it was with rushing to teaching feeling id left all the jobs behind, coming out early, just looking for handover but all being ambushed on ward for 2nd WR without break, without lunch, n w/o teaching for some.
but worse. not even being able to attend ambushed rounds, bear in mind feeling annoyed/stressed that i needed to know about but was missing the first 2 bays, having only done the 3rd myself in the morning, but doubly ambushed with discharge papers with ridiculous reasons for deadlines; can't believe how long they took me. including the decision to leave the 2nd letter, finally making it to last bay rounds, but then barely a few pts down being sent off to do 2nd letter because oh Now they'll take her if you do this in ten minutes. yea, fat hope.
needless to say, disgruntled. on 2nd paper. missing presenting all the patients i might Actually know a lil something about. finally reached the very last bit, very last, where i get help from 2465, (Mike, nice Mike, but which Mike? Mike i barely know? but how does Mike know me?) ("oh hi" "since its you, i'll just sort it out for you here if it needs it") (its times like these you ? if you really understand their accent) for help with Maths, because 60 by 60 (in numbers and words!) plus 60 by 10, is 70 BD, for 30 days, am i right or am i right?
AND THEN GUESS WHO DECIDES TO SHOW UP.
Right smack in the middle of me just trying to CHECK MY MATHS FOR A SECOND OH COME ON.
How're you doing, trouble. i think. you don't know how much that word aches me.
Have you recovered from whatever was ailing you yesterday. 'i don't know but whatever has happened today has definitely weighed me down proper.' - because all i wanna do is Tell it to you all. like when we said we'd timetable my rant because of the meeting you had to go to.
oh n apparently because someone finally caught me on my crazy rants while walking to and from work. someoneanditwasyou. who was it, the biker who beeped? yesterday.
n you went on about how i was stomping about, probably looking incredibly stupid. n there it was, all these conversations, but i had all these things piled up. (did i mention the many calls from Bereavement (yes dear, where you can deposit your grief dear) about 2 certs because they close at 4! I'm sorry i know i said 2.30 but i was ambushed n i HAVENT EVEN HAD FOOD YET!) but ignore all that because a short while of you is more than all of them. but all i needed to do was for you to hold on one second so i could do my maths. and send. and then all the conversation in the world (for a bit). but that was the break off for you to 'just go see this patient of yours'. 'and then go.'
and then actual whining. re why. can you believe it, actual outright whining. because theres just one of you.
and the back and forth re my 60 by 60. because you're right there, why would i not ask you. and because if i could just keep you there till i finish it. but you're so persuady. and i clicked, and it crashed. how funny. and you went in. and i did the same on a different comp and That blacked out. all i needed was that one line and it just won't let me hah! and then the third comp semi acted up, and by the end of that one line, i was sure you'd gone into the utility, right behind me. but you weren't. and thats one thing, that you didn't come over to see me have my paddy. like you did when we went into PIU because you said come in here with me and so of course i did. and you wanted to know if it was personal, etc etc environmental, and i picked environmental though it gave you a bad picture but really, isn't the underlying thing always personal, because its you? but you didn't anyways, n i still don't really know why you hadn't put down what to do, were you coming back? were you waiting for me to call, like you said you knew i would?
but anyways. then there was Nic about how she didn't know where you'd gone because she hadn't heard your laugh, and have i heard you laughed, and of course i have. the evil one.
Pto
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