absentee vote

Heres a note
just to say

that me shall be gone for half a week.

shall not see u or be here how sad.

oh look.
they be calling
the peeps..

:p

Heres just a note
so that there will be more than one
from this week.
:)

=)

/

=(

---
leaves for a really confused child. =/

.

Tmr i go to meet 'important' ppl!

Most excited!

(tho as always, all this happiness/excitement, is only makin me wary that Bad things are about to happen. :p)

but anewhees.

Tmr i will gain new knowledge
n important information!

haha.

Im just tired of being stuck n stagnant n everything in the past week has just been building up but waiting for tmr to come so that I can
Finally
get some answers.

n den we can get a move on things.

:p

wheeeeeeeeee..

(haha. overdramatizing things that arent actually that dramatic. :p
but drama is fun. :p)


I can not wait for exciting things to come!

(*wary wary*)

Sleepy as hell now.
nitey nite.

*cake!*

never never land

Skyped for 54 minutes n 22 seconds.

:)

How fun when the world you live in allows you to make calls for free! :D
Even more amazing when the ppl you talk to are across oceans from you.

(Altho, if we all skyped at home, we could save on local calls as well! haha.. Hey! Why have i nvr thought of that. Considering i/we spent most of our time in front of the computers anyways. N many of the calls i used to be on with my friends (before they up n left me!!) were done while we were in front of the comps too. hah.)


Applying for visa online.

n on Section 5 - Immigration History

"Do you have any criminal convictions in any country
(including traffic offences)?"

oh. ****.

:p


"Have you ever‚ by any means or medium‚ expressed views that justify or glorify terrorist violence or that may encourage others to terrorist acts or other serious criminal acts?"

right. *looks around* must watch what i say from now on...


"Have you engaged in any other activities that might indicate that you may not be considered a person of good character?"

bwahahhahahahaaa! How do i even Answer this question!?

after darkness, comes dawn

When the choice is between doing something,
n not doing something,
the thing is, not doing something only lasts until you do do something.

while once you do something,
its done.

not doing something,
is always at a greater disadvantage.
-

i watched the Dark Knight tonight

(i cried when they said silent guardian)

n i missed you.


Theres not a show i can watch

(not once can i sit there)

without missing you.

but you dont miss me. (like i do)


I want you to, but

Dont ask me,
if im free to catch a rat.

Dont tell me,
that my facts are right.

Pick up the phone
say,
Fleur, i'm sorry.

say it.

dont say it.

dont say it because you're not ready to do it all.

dont say it unless
(no buts, ifs, or maybes.
no unless.)
dont say it because you need to want to trudge thru all the sludge in the moat,
that which stinks n smells n will burden you n pull you down.
to want to go thru it all to reach the gates.
the gates the gates.

oh
dont let me open it up if you're not ready to do it.

"i want you to want to do the dishes"

or dont
because as always,
n den what?

dont
because,

i dont want to be 2nd class.
or 3rd or 4th or 5th..

i cant.


oh
so many negatives,
so familiar.

do it
because you should...
because i need you to.

n den what?

( if you do it...
oh, please dont let me go....
... )
(but i guess the thing is,
i know that you cant not let me go.)

do it
dont do it

i cant say.

-
time has passed.
i dont need to anymore.
but im doing it all the same.

because im weak that way.


All i can think of is you

but d'you know what im afraid of?
im afraid you'll tell me that you need to go to bed.

i'm afraid you'll tell me, 'sorry, i forgot.'

if not today,
den the next.

I'm sorry.
for the things I can not do.

for missing you.

P.S. i was yelling for reasons, 'why not?'.
n then i remembered why.
because i'd have to spend my days feeling like this.
hope. expectation. where they've no place being.

so i remembered.
so, no.

dont.

because hate is safer than love

4 days later, let see what actually happened to the plans.

s'funny how time changes things?

after all the long nagging n yelling n making me decide on everything n set what day to see who, where, when, how n everything,
after what i said Should be, this is what was. :p

Wednesday, instead of lunch, the guy says we're meeting at 2, after he has this huge brunch. so, non-existent lunch den. :p but we had cake, several, and a movie.
Thursday, instead of outing n dinner, my friend calls in the morning n says we're changing to Lunch instead! or well.. not really lunch (there was no food involved) but an afternoon outing, no dinner. And another movie. :p Also, oh yea i forgot, breakfast in the morning got cancelled. :p
Friday, not too drastic changes but 12.30pm (after all the asking n asking n everyone waiting for me to Set a time! Hmff!) becomes past 1pm? Movie time changes. Oh n going back at 6pm becomes 7.30pm, where i den had family dinner outside pop up. :p
Saturday, lunch plans got pushed to Sunday, so i gotta rest before buffet dinner. (which had excellent cheese lobster btw..)

hah!
how amusing. :)

not that i mind all the changing though. coz hopefully after everyone changed everything, nex time they'd be more accepting with my fickleness. =P

Anyways, since lunch on Sat got pushed to Sun, n i have an appointment with mum on Mon, And Dear Pah wants to go out on Tues!
That wud mean that I wud be out one straight week! Weds to Tues. haha.

tiring tho.

Oh, n to add to my already long list of movies watched recently,
this week I watched, in chronological order,
Amazing Grace - which was really rather great! walked into the theatre with zero idea of what itd be about, because at that point, id watched every other decent movie, n we just picked one randomly. N it was cool on so many levels. In itself a great show, it was also fitting for both of us, for differing reasong :p, n also, it turned out that the day we watched it, was the last day it was screened. :) How great.
Journey to the Centre of the Earth - was actually a pretty Great show! Me Must watched 3d version!! *bawls* which there was a motion master! :p
Hancock - pretty great as well. :)

Seriously, i have pretty much exhausted all the movies showing!
before this was Incredible Hulk, Made of Honour, Get Smart, Nanny Diaries (which sucked!), Kungfu Panda, Wanted, Narnia..
really. all the decent shows gone. :D n journey n hancock, good new ones only just out, but accounted for edi. :p only things left that are watchable, if i have to force it wud be, war of the dragons, n hellboy, n only bcoz theyve only just come out.
but i dont think i will bcoz ive had too much movies la.. n there are a few more im looking forward to that shud be out in a bit. :)

Cake plans changed too.
didnt have excellent cake.
Weds - wasnt available. made up with Secret Recipe.
Thurs - didnt bother.
Fri - wasnt available again. made up with Secret Recipe. again. :p


---

finally? emo-ed today.

dont know why.

maybe its about time. theres been several weeks of up, bout time the cycle turned down?
or maybe its about the time of the month. not sure bout that yet.

but anyways.
emo-ed.

not a good feeling.

keep looking for ppl to talk to these days.

like, pick up n talk.

but anyways.

i got Breakfast at Tiffanys for him today, because you liked it,
..trying to remember which others i got for you from my head because i knew you'd like them.

accidentally found that Todays one said, hate is safer than love.

.
gonna go.

headache now.

gotta up tmr.
sigh.

thats where im going

So.

I need you~
whos 'you'?
Yea.. thats the part i havent figured out yet.

[heres where i fell asleep again.. not a new thing that. :p]

i watched Narnia online today.
so yea, that means i shud show you guys this link, movierumor
spelt without an o bcoz its an american site. them n their lousy spelling. :p
it lets you stream (or watever the word is) movies online directly.
pretty cool u know..
dont expect the best quality la. but still, can save you the trouble of downloading. :p
(which is Also a newly acquired skill on my end! Yay! *feels so smart now*) :p
:)

oh yea anyways, like i was sayin.
watched narnia online today.
n den i was emo after it ended.
blehh.
haha..
coz its all like 'why cudnt it be like this?' 'why does it have to be this way?' kinda thing you know?
haha.
n some 'poor baby' moments too. which u all Know i just love. :p

Neways, den i moved on to continuing me Westwing again!
N i'll say now, I'll totally do Josh man. ahem.
coz, Sams cute n all but thats so bandwagony (n boring). which i hate.
n anyways Josh is my kinda cute ie. not Sam.
n Also he is all complicated n injured inside.
which, as i have said countless times before, is totally wat i dig so yea.
I'd do Josh man.

ahem.
(ok that totally sounds less weird in my head. :p:p)

[n here ones again ladies and gentleman, is where i fell asleep Yet again. :p Now if my blogging puts Myself to sleep.. It must be really exciting for all of you! :p which is good coz i intend to go on n on. (if, hopefully, i dont fall asleep again.)]

Anyways, as i was saying before getting cut off by falling asleep (several days have past now.. :p),
In the last episode i watched yesterday (yes its yesterday by now..), n i watched several one after another without even pausing bcoz the last few were pretty exciting. ahem. :p
anyways, in the last episode somebody died.
Boohoo sadsad.
His name was Simon (ohhoho! Lookie! i didnt realise his name was 'simon simon' u know. :p) n he was Hot. (ahaha! Maybe its something about that name.. maybe all Simons are hot.. infact, my first ever crush (when i was 9), was a Simon himself. n he was pretty cute back den. (or so i thought. now hes just like, normal.) :p)
Anyways, This Simon, was Hot. In My kinda way yum.
N he was a secret service agent. the nice n cute n cool kind.
n ofcourse he had just fallen in like with his charge, n as his charge was just discharged (haha) from under his charge (still with me here?) they had just shared a nice kiss with promise of more to come. hoho.
N den i was like, oh shit, hes gonna die. :p
n he did.
very sad u know very sad tsktsk.

Anewhees, enough of that nonsense.
I shall move on to more important things, so i can go back to watch the Next season of westwing. (i know its finished at 7, but im just at 4 now. :p)

Some weeks theres pretty much nothing.
n den we get this week where things suddenly go crazy.

Tmr is Wednesday n I have plans for lunch.
n on Thurs its Breakfast and dinner. (separate appointments)
n den Fri we have.. probably lunch and dinner, still under negotiations.
n lastly on Sat i have another lunch appoinment, before heading for my nephews bday at a certain hotels buffet. (hmmmmmmmm)

so. in 4 days i have to meet with
1 from up North
1 who came back from Aus
1 back from UK
1 from down South
and another 1 from well.. somewhere South but not quite as far down. =P
chronologically.

and initially the way things were going, i was to meet everyone, though separately, in the same place! Hah!
(just because its in the middle of the valley n is so convenient for everyone. ;))
but since the last ammendments of the plans, it seems, Thurs will take place in 2 other places (and not the middle of the valley) n possibly Fri as well.
N yet!
Tmr is a date to have cake/s (i think we're skipping lunch to binge on cakes :p), n since
Thurs we is going to the Other Awesome Cake place, we shall have that!, n if
Fri guy decides to have the Great Choc Cakes as well we shall be doing that, n on
Sat, since its a birthday, i wanted to have them try my special choc cake that i rave so much about but cant have everyone eat the same thing so we'll probably end up in secret recipe (i'll probably get the cakes from there that is) so once again! More cake!
And at night, as ive said since its the nephew bday!

MORE CAKE!

great.
unsarcastically.
I shall be a huge balloon, or maybe even get a coronary straight.
But pls may it be at the end of the week so i atleast get to enjoy 4 days of awesome cakes.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

diediediediediewithabiggrinonmyface.
:D

s'funny the way things work. :p

oh n i havent got any presents for the birthday people yet. damm.
Deathly Hallows paperback isnt out yet.
i was thinking of getting that for my friend since shes been hogging my Deathly Hallows for the past year n i havent gotten to read it a 2nd time yet! Arghhhhh! (hahahaha)


Btw, before i end i must say,
Manchester (the Uni) sucks goddammit.
ive just sent the same email to bout.. 5 different emails.
they pushed me to this!!! (:p)
i hope they dont blacklist me man.

Dam!

i also have a story bout me and commitment but its late (4.15am) n ive to get up not too late lunchdate, n also i wud like to get some westwing in before bed So!

heres gdnight n enjoy all your cakes!
:)

P.S. oh btw, my speakers have gone n fixed themselves (:p), tho it is possible that my bro did something that worked without knowin it. :p
neways been biding my time to see if it stays permanent, but anyways, have finally transfered all my songs (but ahhhhh wait. i have not told you yet! :p well.. basically.. lets just say) from over there to over here la. =P so now i have All me songs with me.
which is a cause to celebrate except having All of them, means if i really play All of them randomly.. i will at some point (n it wont take too long) end up with some song that i probably do like, but pisses me off too. :p Im very picky bout my music. :p (as well as everything else =p)

P.P.S. I am having a cold ie running nose, so i hope all the cake n choc wont turn my cold into a flu (ahem bwahaha) by like adding a sorethroat n idunnowhatelse la. =Ppp tho that Is scientifically/medically improbably la right. =Pppp

there is a reason why i wanna date someone else in the medical field la! =P Only us med students are crazy in our crazy way!!! =P

no no it isnt just me! :D

There’s a place I go
When I’m alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I’m fallin
That’s where I’m goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won’t let this go

Dream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won’t come back at all

P.P.P.S. ok i didnt mean for it to get this far but well, the cd im trying to play is not working for some reason. (dammit!) so i guess its as good a time as any to head to bed! (4.51am!) :p

also, i should note that, 3 of the 5 ppl i emailed are on leave. goddangdammit. pffft.
see someone already told me that the person i usually write to is on leave, but i sent anyways coz i heard theres someone there to take over. also, i found the alternative email which the take-over guy probably uses.
n den i send to 'someones' boss. which is when i get an automated reply to say 'boss' is not in please contact 'assistant' n so i send again to 'assistant' n den, guess what, i get an Automated reply from 'Assistant'! which says 'Assistant' is out n please contact 'assistants assistant'.
Wtf is the word man, Wtf.
hmm.

Pon and Zi

Whats been going on?
...


Hey, look what i found.
Pon and Zi.
theyre a couple of emo cartoon characters and theyre cute as hell.
You really must go n have a look!

Effects best with emo personality.
(like me)
But semi emo ppl are able to appreciate it too. :)..

oni if you're all happy happy airy like some ppl i know (who are not here), then it wud be much harder to see whats so special bout this two fellas (apparently they're asexual hmm), n ud look at me all funny like i was weird or something.
Tho ofcourse some would argue that you dont have to be happy happy airy to look at me like i was weird.
some.
But, that aside, I think theyre awesome n beautiful so have a look n hopefully you can see the beauty in it too.
Do you go 'aww'?

Youtube over here for a quicker view.
tho i wud argue that for some of them you might need to look at them for a while before really getting it.
:)


This are a couple of my favourites..!! :)..

Pon is the yellow one n Zi is blue. (so you know atleast One reason why i love Pon. =) )
i thought Pon was the male n Zi the female but apparently theyre asexual. :p
no wonder it was hard to tell at some points.. :)



I Love this obviously, because Thats Me!
I'm Emo!
(just made it my desktop pic but doesnt look all that great back there.. :) )
n wont it be nice if someone would think that? (im interpreting it as a nice thing Zi is saying..)
(i have always been one to say that its awesome when ppl love someone for their apparent 'shortcomings')

poor Pons so sad... Thats me! the emo! :)
i also love that its 'ello'.. :)




This ones Awesome.. haha.. :)
Pon rocks!

n there're quite a few pretty cool lines that i can see some people i know turn around n use...




this one kinda tingled a nerve somewhere in me.. but didnt quite jar anything..
probably because while it is something that probably means alot to me in some way.. i couldnt immediately figure out how..
but then i figured its how this was something that was very important to me at one point, n i think i would have liked it more (not that i dont already) if it was an offer, as opposed to a request, to keep someone safe; 'i'll keep you safe while you sleep'.
But then, that it was Zi (who i thought was the girl) keeping Pon (the (not really) guy) safe.. that part was right..

n then i remembered how Ryan had said "stay in? so i know you're safe?".. n the way he said it too.. n how that was one of my favourite parts of the show. (OC)
tho the reason stems from above.

N thus, (because 4 is really too many n if i dont stop, the whole collection would be here..), we shall end with..



:)..

Oh yes. There really are alot of lines there you could learn..

many times before

I am thinking... =/..

:(

sigh..


Somethings wrong with my speakers.
They suddenly stopped working without headphones.
Wtf.
One minute they were working n the next...
Argh.


I f*cking love my music man.
sry bout the swearing but i really love it that damn much right now.
n i think in the quest for figuring out wats wrong with my speakers,
i might have inadvertently turned up my bass.
n its pretty dam awesome now.
(either that or bcoz this is probably the first time ive started listening to this list with earphones n therefore am only just able to appreciate the finer nuances. :p..)


Im thinking... :(
i really.. dont really know.. :(

i wanna be casual n ask you about Jordan.

but, really, can I?

.......

(n den what?....)


Watching Wanted tomorrow.
but.. :(...

sigh..

i told him that i wasnt too comfortable with things because of you.

but inside i was thinking that it was actually because of him.

n den now ive realised..
in a way.. maybe it is about you.

can you believe that you still own it?

that i still let you own it.


=(...

four or five options.

the one i really want, is the one i dont want.

i dont know how or why or what.

its not because you did anything wrong.
not in the last round atleast...

its the whole story.
the old story.
the big picture....

(n the big question (n then what?..),
n the old question,
n all the questions.....)


sigh...

i wish you could hear my songs..
n my heart.


(theres something wrong with my speakers. :( )