" whoever said winning doesnt matter, never held a scalpel in his hand."
- Grey's Anatomy
that is just so totally cool..
Thursday, April 20, 2006
a surgeons morale
" whoever said winning doesnt matter, never held a scalpel in his hand."
- Grey's Anatomy
that is just so totally cool..
Saturday, April 15, 2006
go fug urself
...
sad
very. sad.
ive been lied to.
more then i knew.
even after the approach
n the chance to be truthful.
i've been lied to.
i hate you.
n i hate You.
hate all of you.
go stick your head up your stupid ass n keep it there.
like it is anyways.
where you cant see the real world.
where you cant see
me.
will u ever.. see..
i hate you.
STOP LYING TO ME !!
the bitch.
she lies.
she pretends.
you think she cares.
you think shes such a great
'friend'.
THEN SHE SHOVES IT ALL IN YOUR FACE
i really
really hate you
go fug urself.
sad
very. sad.
ive been lied to.
more then i knew.
even after the approach
n the chance to be truthful.
i've been lied to.
i hate you.
n i hate You.
hate all of you.
go stick your head up your stupid ass n keep it there.
like it is anyways.
where you cant see the real world.
where you cant see
me.
will u ever.. see..
i hate you.
STOP LYING TO ME !!
the bitch.
she lies.
she pretends.
you think she cares.
you think shes such a great
'friend'.
THEN SHE SHOVES IT ALL IN YOUR FACE
i really
really hate you
go fug urself.
i'm pretty stupid myself
The problem with sitting and thinking and being sad
is that it takes up aLot of your time
and energy.
by the time you're about done being sad for that time period
alot of time has passed
n its likely that you'll be too tired for anything else
not to mention you'll hardly be in the mood.
n seeing as to how we dont have that many hours in our day
taking that time for said cognitive behaviour
can really screw up your schedule
or your half baked plans atleast.
i guess some of us cant afford this luxury.
what do you do, when it isn't you..
when you look, and you see, and you know..
but it isn't you.
n that makes it all the worse.
what do you do,
when theres nothing you can do.
why do we care so much about someone,
who cares so little about us.
why do we care so little about someone,
who cares so much about us.
why do people die, and leave the world
leaving behind people who love them, who need them.
how are we supposed to live on..
when the ones we live for, leave.
tired as hell.
probably wont be able to get work done.
that is. probably wont move to get work done.
which is bad.
exams in one week. havnt touched notes as yet.
quite surprised.
but dont ask me. i dont know why either.
is that it takes up aLot of your time
and energy.
by the time you're about done being sad for that time period
alot of time has passed
n its likely that you'll be too tired for anything else
not to mention you'll hardly be in the mood.
n seeing as to how we dont have that many hours in our day
taking that time for said cognitive behaviour
can really screw up your schedule
or your half baked plans atleast.
i guess some of us cant afford this luxury.
what do you do, when it isn't you..
when you look, and you see, and you know..
but it isn't you.
n that makes it all the worse.
what do you do,
when theres nothing you can do.
why do we care so much about someone,
who cares so little about us.
why do we care so little about someone,
who cares so much about us.
why do people die, and leave the world
leaving behind people who love them, who need them.
how are we supposed to live on..
when the ones we live for, leave.
tired as hell.
probably wont be able to get work done.
that is. probably wont move to get work done.
which is bad.
exams in one week. havnt touched notes as yet.
quite surprised.
but dont ask me. i dont know why either.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
i still promise
Random.
its been a really long time that ive written a random post i think.
as in.
open n type.
n see wat comes out..
coz for the longest longest of times.
ive had so much that i keep thinking i might blog about.
but never do.
Sadness.
there seems to be so much sadness around me.
its horribly depressing.
i'm personally sad enough as it is.
turn left see sad
turn right see sad
how not to feel worse right.
smile for me, my baby.
Sight.
n theres somuch many things that i keep seeing!
so easy to find...
that bug me.
they hurt.
bah.
some even come looking for me.
it really isn't very fair.
it isn't.
it isn't.
i wont look.
no.
but some things are engraved in my memory..
they haunt me.
i push them away.
they keep coming back..
maybe it'll get better.
maybe.
but it still isn't fair...
treat me better, my love?
Drama.
theres a song playing in my head.
no i cant tell you wat song.
i dont know.
its korean.
one of the reasons why i dont watch these shows.
chinese shows.
i've stopped since i was like.. 12..
they're stupid.
almost all of em.
fake. pathetic. unrealistic. annoying.
korean shows.
n by this i basically mean the one tats bugging me..
well i cant understand korean so its played in chinese.
this ones... sad...
they always are.
love stories..
if they were all happy there'd be no story.
unrealistic.
like, yea right.
thats not gonna happen in real life.
no ones that! stupid.
but i see him cry all the time
n god! it hurts.
i love him. she loves him.
why cant she just be with him, right?
so shes there touching him..
crying..
telling him not to cry..
whats the fcking point.
just be with him n you both wont have to cry!
sigh..
n there was this time he held her..
held her n cried
because he loved her
but she didnt know who he was..
so stupid...
i love you but i cant be with you.
lets just be friends.
that way, we'll always have each other.
right?
n the songs.
n the bloody songs.
thats why i dont listen to chinese songs either.
they're all so sad...
so stupid.
the ones from the show.
i love the songs.. theyre so sad..
u cant understand them
but u just love them.
n hate em too i guess.
i still see him cry..
if i was her
i'd let go of his hand.
go over to him
wipe away his tears
kiss him tell him that everything is alright.
hold him
n let him hold me.
so that he knows
everything is alright.
thats why i wont read those chinese stories anymore either.
they're all full of bull.
this is the real world baby.
Gubra.
i have to watch Gubra.
sigh.
i missed Sepet when it was playing.
i missed it when it was on tv.
n i cant get the DVD
unless i pay 20, 30 bucks for it i guess.
maybe i will.
so if i miss Gubra i probably wont get to watch it.
(tho i havent seen sepet.)
but my friend blew me off. hmm.
n it'll be over before i get a chance i guess.
because i blew someone off too.
but no. tats was a no deal anyways.
there was something else but nevermind.
Work.
theres work outside waiting for me.
theres work inside waiting for me.
die.
i cant do the outside work. not properly.
but i shud. die.
the inside work..
i have twice as much as i shud.
dammit.
n i smell.
my life stinks right now.
heh.
Misc.
i dont want the rest of my life to be like this.
the rest of our lives.
right now the future seems so...
dim.
n i promised.
i wished you'd keep your promises too
right now. shows i have to watch.
house. thats for sure. best ever.
grey's anatomy. this i wanna watch. seemed so cool.
n yes. he is hot. =p
i want my mum to be around when im watching.
coz shes the only one who nags me when im in front of the tv.
n i want her to nag.
so i can tell her.
i Am studying! =P
dont tell me sweet nothings if they're just that.
nothings.
i didnt ask for anything (i think)
so dont offer pls..
unless you mean it.
then, pls mean it.
Someone once asked me, didn't i agree that a guy shudn't cry in front of a girl.
i said, no.
i think its sweet..
if a guy would trust his girl enough
to open up to her
show her his true feelings.
not a weeping boy all the time everytime.
but if it need be.
if he needed to.
i think its sweet that he'd love her enough to trust her with his innermost self.
but then, every girl wants the guy to show her what only she can see.
if you dont remember, that someone was you.
i've never really seen you cry..
just once, but not really.
i've never really heard you cry..
just once, but that too, not really.
i'd like to see you cry.
not in the sense that.
i want someone to hurt you. i want you to cry.
no.
but, in the sense that,
if ever there was a time
that you needed to cry...
n if ever in that time, you wanted someone to be der with you when you cry.
n if ever, you wouldn't mind that that someone was me.
i'd like to be there when you cry.
tho i was never the one who knew what to say
n what to do.
n eventho im not the one that can make you cry.
or the one you'd like to have with you if you cry.
nor am i asking.
i just thought so.
its ok that you're not heartbroken over this.
you were always too sensible to be..
i love you.
whatever that means.
its been a really long time that ive written a random post i think.
as in.
open n type.
n see wat comes out..
coz for the longest longest of times.
ive had so much that i keep thinking i might blog about.
but never do.
Sadness.
there seems to be so much sadness around me.
its horribly depressing.
i'm personally sad enough as it is.
turn left see sad
turn right see sad
how not to feel worse right.
smile for me, my baby.
Sight.
n theres so
so easy to find...
that bug me.
they hurt.
bah.
some even come looking for me.
it really isn't very fair.
it isn't.
it isn't.
i wont look.
no.
but some things are engraved in my memory..
they haunt me.
i push them away.
they keep coming back..
maybe it'll get better.
maybe.
but it still isn't fair...
treat me better, my love?
Drama.
theres a song playing in my head.
no i cant tell you wat song.
i dont know.
its korean.
one of the reasons why i dont watch these shows.
chinese shows.
i've stopped since i was like.. 12..
they're stupid.
almost all of em.
fake. pathetic. unrealistic. annoying.
korean shows.
n by this i basically mean the one tats bugging me..
well i cant understand korean so its played in chinese.
this ones... sad...
they always are.
love stories..
if they were all happy there'd be no story.
unrealistic.
like, yea right.
thats not gonna happen in real life.
no ones that! stupid.
but i see him cry all the time
n god! it hurts.
i love him. she loves him.
why cant she just be with him, right?
so shes there touching him..
crying..
telling him not to cry..
whats the fcking point.
just be with him n you both wont have to cry!
sigh..
n there was this time he held her..
held her n cried
because he loved her
but she didnt know who he was..
so stupid...
i love you but i cant be with you.
lets just be friends.
that way, we'll always have each other.
right?
n the songs.
n the bloody songs.
thats why i dont listen to chinese songs either.
they're all so sad...
so stupid.
the ones from the show.
i love the songs.. theyre so sad..
u cant understand them
but u just love them.
n hate em too i guess.
i still see him cry..
if i was her
i'd let go of his hand.
go over to him
wipe away his tears
kiss him tell him that everything is alright.
hold him
n let him hold me.
so that he knows
everything is alright.
thats why i wont read those chinese stories anymore either.
they're all full of bull.
this is the real world baby.
Gubra.
i have to watch Gubra.
sigh.
i missed Sepet when it was playing.
i missed it when it was on tv.
n i cant get the DVD
unless i pay 20, 30 bucks for it i guess.
maybe i will.
so if i miss Gubra i probably wont get to watch it.
(tho i havent seen sepet.)
but my friend blew me off. hmm.
n it'll be over before i get a chance i guess.
because i blew someone off too.
but no. tats was a no deal anyways.
there was something else but nevermind.
Work.
theres work outside waiting for me.
theres work inside waiting for me.
die.
i cant do the outside work. not properly.
but i shud. die.
the inside work..
i have twice as much as i shud.
dammit.
n i smell.
my life stinks right now.
heh.
Misc.
i dont want the rest of my life to be like this.
the rest of our lives.
right now the future seems so...
dim.
n i promised.
i wished you'd keep your promises too
right now. shows i have to watch.
house. thats for sure. best ever.
grey's anatomy. this i wanna watch. seemed so cool.
n yes. he is hot. =p
i want my mum to be around when im watching.
coz shes the only one who nags me when im in front of the tv.
n i want her to nag.
so i can tell her.
i Am studying! =P
dont tell me sweet nothings if they're just that.
nothings.
i didnt ask for anything (i think)
so dont offer pls..
unless you mean it.
then, pls mean it.
Someone once asked me, didn't i agree that a guy shudn't cry in front of a girl.
i said, no.
i think its sweet..
if a guy would trust his girl enough
to open up to her
show her his true feelings.
not a weeping boy all the time everytime.
but if it need be.
if he needed to.
i think its sweet that he'd love her enough to trust her with his innermost self.
but then, every girl wants the guy to show her what only she can see.
if you dont remember, that someone was you.
i've never really seen you cry..
just once, but not really.
i've never really heard you cry..
just once, but that too, not really.
i'd like to see you cry.
not in the sense that.
i want someone to hurt you. i want you to cry.
no.
but, in the sense that,
if ever there was a time
that you needed to cry...
n if ever in that time, you wanted someone to be der with you when you cry.
n if ever, you wouldn't mind that that someone was me.
i'd like to be there when you cry.
tho i was never the one who knew what to say
n what to do.
n eventho im not the one that can make you cry.
or the one you'd like to have with you if you cry.
nor am i asking.
i just thought so.
its ok that you're not heartbroken over this.
you were always too sensible to be..
i love you.
whatever that means.
Thursday, April 6, 2006
Cold hearted bitch
from hell.
i know you're thinking it.
its ok.
never was an angel.
wudn't make much difference anyways.
there is a line
there is always a line.
sometimes ppl cross this line.
sigh..
i know i do all the time.
n im tired of worrying.
tired of thinking.
what am i supposed to do?
n what difference would it make anyways.
is everything a lie or are they just
misconceptions?..
why are you always right.
n i, always wrong.
I am always right.
but u've never believed me.
n you never will.
it ain't right..
i know..
you've done too much...
(n so have i..)
will you stop.
or will you go on hating me?
you wont.
but i have to stop you..
why does it always fall on me.
i'm sorry..
i always will be.
she's not the only one.
Reading : Veronika decides to die
why do people like to make you think that you're more important than you really are
before letting reality slap you in the face
i know you're thinking it.
its ok.
never was an angel.
wudn't make much difference anyways.
there is a line
there is always a line.
sometimes ppl cross this line.
sigh..
i know i do all the time.
n im tired of worrying.
tired of thinking.
what am i supposed to do?
n what difference would it make anyways.
is everything a lie or are they just
misconceptions?..
why are you always right.
n i, always wrong.
I am always right.
but u've never believed me.
n you never will.
it ain't right..
i know..
you've done too much...
(n so have i..)
will you stop.
or will you go on hating me?
you wont.
but i have to stop you..
why does it always fall on me.
i'm sorry..
i always will be.
she's not the only one.
Reading : Veronika decides to die
why do people like to make you think that you're more important than you really are
before letting reality slap you in the face
Sunday, April 2, 2006
all i ever wanted
Today! I showed my brother the book i've been reading!
The Man of Property - John Galsworthy. First book of the Forsyte chronicles.
so proud!
Then we went over to MPH and Guess wat?!
I see The Forsyte Saga! Staring at me! New pretty package n all!
first 3 books plus 2 interludes i think. but ive got the 3 books..
he said buy la. (it wud be so totally cool!)
but nvm lo.. i already have the books.. n they arent exactly reeling me in right now..
So. Cool. tho.
n me just wanted me tell everyone walking by to GO BUY THE BOOK!
(it has me in it!!!)
Aahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
So anyways. here i am telling u guys.
GO BUY THE BOOK!!!
It has ME in it!!
ME!!!
=D
Oh Look!
I'm so pretty!
yay! ;)
Apparently the shows really good.
n the girls all pretty n stuff.
=D
the movies on sale at www.acornonline.com
at $ 39.99 n $ 41.97
=/
soo........
when I'm 24.
I'll marry the guy who buys me that!
hmmm...
or maybe just get engage la..
hehehee.. =P
You know. 3 years ago.
I said that I'd marry the guy who bought me this dog.
n i told this thing to this guy
who happened to want to marry me.
ack.
fortunately it was the dog that I bought for a friend of mine. so, no one cud actually buy it for me.
in the end to get away.
i got him to propose to my best friend. the one i gave the dog too.
and They got married.
wow.
;)
I'll remember.
I have to remember.
It's what keeps me alive..
i'll remember to remember.
remind me to remember?
...
The Man of Property - John Galsworthy. First book of the Forsyte chronicles.
so proud!
Then we went over to MPH and Guess wat?!
I see The Forsyte Saga! Staring at me! New pretty package n all!
first 3 books plus 2 interludes i think. but ive got the 3 books..
he said buy la. (it wud be so totally cool!)
but nvm lo.. i already have the books.. n they arent exactly reeling me in right now..
So. Cool. tho.
n me just wanted me tell everyone walking by to GO BUY THE BOOK!
(it has me in it!!!)
Aahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
So anyways. here i am telling u guys.
GO BUY THE BOOK!!!
It has ME in it!!
ME!!!
=D
Oh Look!
I'm so pretty!
yay! ;)
Apparently the shows really good.
n the girls all pretty n stuff.
=D
the movies on sale at www.acornonline.com
at $ 39.99 n $ 41.97
=/
soo........
when I'm 24.
I'll marry the guy who buys me that!
hmmm...
or maybe just get engage la..
hehehee.. =P
You know. 3 years ago.
I said that I'd marry the guy who bought me this dog.
n i told this thing to this guy
who happened to want to marry me.
ack.
fortunately it was the dog that I bought for a friend of mine. so, no one cud actually buy it for me.
in the end to get away.
i got him to propose to my best friend. the one i gave the dog too.
and They got married.
wow.
;)
I'll remember.
I have to remember.
It's what keeps me alive..
i'll remember to remember.
remind me to remember?
...
Saturday, April 1, 2006
sweetheart
Happy Birthday to my darling,
my longest and oldest love.
You'll always be gorgeous to me babe.
n I believe I'll always love you. :)
(atleast.. i think your birthdays today... :p )
I'll marry a guy called Michael.
and have a son called Christopher.
but apparently I'll first be utterly in love with Jon!
ooooo... Hot!
(tho his father n my father are cousins.. )
my longest and oldest love.
You'll always be gorgeous to me babe.
n I believe I'll always love you. :)
(atleast.. i think your birthdays today... :p )
I'll marry a guy called Michael.
and have a son called Christopher.
but apparently I'll first be utterly in love with Jon!
ooooo... Hot!
(tho his father n my father are cousins.. )
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