first words from Preston

Change of location.

Preston, Lancashire, United Kingdom.

I apologize for not saying Gd bye before i left. (=_=)
it was all most rush. *cough cough* (yea, 9 month long rush) :p

Have not slept in 3 days. I would count for you but finally (now that there are no in-flight movies to distract me!) feeling the effects of the lack of sleep!

My day today, 27th Aug, has lasted 28 hours.
And its only 9pm! (local time) :p

Shall (try to) update all soon.

Many bad news to tell. :p

Take care all.

*succumbs to calls of sleep

You're a FUCKING LUCKY Bastard.


appreciate it
................

oh f*ck... why isit like this..

Jo

It's hard to say goodbye

when its not yet your last second.


my niece today.

the boy tomorrow.


Not gonna say what i had to say,

except,

how do you say good bye
when you know you're gonna spend the next two or three days
within minutes of each other

but wont be seeing each other.


Anyways.


you're my last second.

you're my home.

how am i supposed to get over you?

Sometimes i dont do it, because i am hoping you will.

the countdown game

Being forced to leave the city!
*cough*

wahaha.. sounds so dramatic.

but yes. is true.

fortunately, should be back by thurs, or weds if im lucky.

after all, it Is my last week in the city n i had alot of plans!
(or even if not.. wud atleast like to Be here so when i remember all the things i Shud be doing.. atleast i can do em.. :p)

oh, lots of things to buy, lots of people to see..
lots of Food to eat! yes!

But ah well.
making the best of it.
Will do my best to enjoy food over der! (in the land famous for its food. except i dont like it very much. the place that is. :p)
But ah.. atleast i can have my fill of CharKuehTeow! (With Ducks egg!!!) n KuehTeowT'ng!
Mwahahahaha! stuff that i mostly only enjoy over there!
Ho ho!

n maybe. if im really really lucky.
use up my free time to go Buy the stuff that i actually do need!
=p

i think my biggest problem is shoes. :p
never had much affinity towards them.
(cept my gorgeous Victory Zoom, which ive come to terms that its probably not practicle.. sniff..)

ladida.

Been trial packing my things.
bcoz somebody thinks that my bag is too small.
hmpfff..

i think i cud squeeze pretty much most of the things i can bring inside..
shud be hampered only by weight...

but well. i guess i wudnt mind a bigger bag.
its the comfort/assurance that we Cud fit all my things inside, If the weight restriction allowed it. haha.
we found another decent one.
but somebody else was concern with the brand.
haha.

oh well. up to the powers that be to decide.
im fine with anything you leave me with.

ladidaaa

so many things! so little weight!
=p
more things to buy more things to buy~~

im sure by the last few days i wud have come up with even more! hah!

why is moving such a hassle anyways? =P
(n also, if only other ppl cud be aLot less naggy. naggynaggy. :p)

will be panicking about not having everything with me soon enough. :)

in the mean time.

off trying to do my best to think of all the necessities!
(n the cheapest way to get em!)

shall catch ya all in a few days time den!
lalala


Another completely useless post brought to you by
-Me.

just more

='(....


its not about understanding...


but about trying..

doing.


wanting.


...
Its alright..

it'll be alright.

---

It's starting..

whats starting?

a life without you...

....

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见..

never wanted to leave you..

fools in love

haha.. i was announcing at several places that i was going to watch the Dark Knight 2nd time around, at 11.30pm too! (time is important coz its not always i get to watch midnight shows ok! =p)

except..
False alarm!
due to several technicalities.. (haha)
watched the Mummy instead.

hehehe..
(forgot that maybe i was supposed to save that for somebody.. hehe.. but nvm.. :p)

Hollywood thinks its ok to make shows where the characters try to speak chinese.. and it all sounds really comedy-funny when you cant speak chinese yourself..
but they seem to forget (or more likely not care) that Chinese ppl actually watch the show!
n It all becomes really lame n totally blows the movie la ok.. haha..
Especially when the chinese ppl in the show themselves cant speak chinese!

i mean.. its not their fault, n not that i judge chinese ppl who cant speak chinese!
But here is like, Michelle Yeo, who has to speak chinese in the show, n i guess bcoz maybe she sounds to all the orang puteh (white ppl) like she actually knows what shes sayin, but to us, its all lame n you can Totally tell that she cant speak!

haha.. ok ok.. maybe that was too mean..
but really it was dam hilarious n lame la...

haha.. not that the show was bad!
haha no no.. it was pretty good..
(marred by the absense of someone to insult the movie with tho.. hehe..)
haha..

just not all the chinese speaking parts.. haha.. :p

Anyways, Dark Knight shud be soon. =P
or as my Dad calls it, the Black Knight/Night. haha.. (See elly, I Thot i was exaggerating bout the whole White knight black knight thing! but i really wasnt! hahaa..)
shud. :p

-
feeling melancholic, and sentimental..
hmm...

but going to bed now anyways..

is evil as well but oh well..
whos on the losing end anyways?

some people are lucky but dont know how to appreciate it.
n maybe some ppl shud by now realise.. maybe i wasnt the mean one after all.
i was right bout it all.

n we are all fools in love.

that includes you as well.

Just tonight

Tonight,
i found out that someone has been seeing someone. for 3 yrs now, n we're only just finding out.
tsk tsk.

Tonight,
a friend, who as recently as a day or so ago (or thats when he decided to announce it to the world atleast) got into a relationship, just told me more about his girl.
n this guy, hardly a month or two ago, was talking to me bout how he has commitment issues n what not. hah that! =p

Sigh..
Tonight,
i spoke to like.. some 9 people..
which must be some kinda record for me..
some for a couple minutes, some for much much more...
people i speak to everyday, people ive had less chance to talk to, people i havent spoken to in months, people who have been ignoring me till now...

found so many..

yet lost someone tonight...

I did stupid things tonight.
probably because i was already emo.

F***ing emo now n not necessarily bcoz of stupid things.
but just cause.

you just dont get it.

some are forever.

Dont lie to yourself, dont lie to others.
If its your choice, be a man n admit it.

thats what you never did on this end..
n what you must do to fix it.


If you want something, it takes effort.
n that aside.
Good things, take effort.

Oh God, please...

Im really tired.
n i dont want to do it.

i dont deserve this havin to deal with half-heartedness anymore.

its really very simple.

Do it, or dont. n a 100%.

leave me be so i dont have to settle.

.
I need God, i need fate, i need the World..

i need to know what my future holds for me.
or atleast, if its gonna be ok?

i need to know what is there for me out there.

Im not sure i want in on this life.

.
Baby, where are you?


-

Brian counting.wav

Heres a link of my boy counting. =P

只让我们相恋，这一季的秋天。。

I conduct imaginary arguments in my head.

hmmmmmm.

should i be worried?

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不能說的秘密 (Secret) - 周杰倫 (Jay Chou)


"今天是12月25日，我还是忘不了你。。" (8月9日，还有7天...)

Got conned into watching chinese music last night. =(

Beautifully emo song.

最美的不是下雨天，是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐。。

The first time i heard it i emo-ed.
n den i had to explain to a friend that it wasnt an emo-ing bcoz of myself or anything.. but merely bcoz the song is so freaking beautiful, n sad, n emo.
Eventho the more i watched it, the more i cud find lines to relate to.

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远。。

But essentially, it was just the music.
especially when the band comes in..

想象你在身边，在完全失去之前。。 (还有17天...)

Then i just played it over n over so many times last night.
You wont believe the number of times i was swearing at stupid Jay Chou (whom i still refuse to like on principle. but doesnt mean i cant appreciate his music. ahem. :p)

或许命运的签，只让我们遇见。。
只让我们相恋，这一季的秋天。。

-

分手快樂 - 梁靜茹


"我和他可能真的分手了。。" (might be some 3 years late.. but still seems kinda familiar..)

i didnt get it at first.. why there were two girls.

i'd thought it was from one party to the other.

N den i watched from the begining n paid attention.. den i got that it was from a friend to another who was in the situation. (a break up)

我无法帮你预言，委屈求全有没有用。。

less cool that way. :p
but still pretty all the same..

-

彩虹 (Rainbow) - 周杰倫


I know its too many vids.. n i didnt plan to put so many..

But this video was so freaking incredibly sad...

I didnt get it the first time n i was like... What?!! Whyyy?!!!

So i re-watched it... n den.. well..
you'll see la..
when you watch the second time..

But i must say.
Chinese shows/dramas/videos always like to do this whole sacrifice/dying theme.
But freak it if Any guy thinks thats the 'noble' or right thing to do or whatever he is Stupid n Messed up in the head n i will Kick him in the nuts ok.

But ah, nvm that la.

After i watched the video i was all like..
Arghh Stupid Jay Chou I hate Jay Chou Arghhh WHY THE HELL Wud Anyone Make videos like that SO SAD Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Haha..

Oh well.

---

Also listening to, (not that ure supposed to watch these, but just to tell you what im listening to..)

Taiyou Wa Yoru Mo Kagayaku from Hunter X Hunter,
Shinjitsu No Uta from Inuyasha

The Zoom Victory+ aka dont buy me with money, if ure a temporary thing

Its not my fault i went to the land of no internet, and when i came back to the land of internet, there was no internet.
:p

it feels kinda surprising to me that my last post of any sorta substance was about being about to meet important people.
bcoz so so much has happened since.
important, eventful, material things. :p

Yes, i did meet 'important' people.
n yes, i did indeed learn important things! :p
One of em, very important, being that i am going to be homeless for quite a while. =p

I learned that 12 divide by 4 sometimes equals 7. :p

i learned that if all goes well i wont have to stash 3 months living expenses in pounds, in cash or travellers cheques, on my person or luggage, after all. :p
will be testing this proposal on wednesday.

n today, i found out more about the 365 day plan thing (phone). but i still might have to debate on that out loud once first.

N ive Done important things too.
even with the half a week of absence (in which i contributed to the hole in the ozone! burned down an entire tree! honestly, the whole big tree, taller than me (not that thats hard to do), reduced to mere ashes! haha.. not proud.. not. :p) i still managed to finally, complete and submit my visa application.
which is up for collection, something else useful i'll be doing tomorrow (or today actually.. in like.. 4 hours..)
altho, i must say i should probably hold off on the bragging...
n wait till i actually have the approved thing in my hand before i say anything..
god knows how unlucky presumptious talks are. :)

also!
among the useful things i did!
shopping spreeeeee!

Today i spent 364 bucks.
but on 14 items!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and all in one shop haha.
not to mention the 166 bucks i spent on 8 things in the same shop last week!
haha..

lingerie~~

La Senza sales rock.
i have excellent looking underwear now. =P (with monkeys on them! Monkeys!!!)
not to mention the 3 sets of pyjamas i got for 50 each. discounted from 139 ok! f*ckin excellent! =P oh and with Penguins n Reindeers! (Haha! Reindeers elly! Xmas collection! Wheeee~~~)
and also, in yellow. *beams*
oh man, the shade of yellow....... *hyperventilates*

:p

yes, i emo-ed yesterday becoz nothing was being done.
yes, i am happiest (now) when things are. :p
like today (lets pretend today is (still) Monday), when i went n shopped, ie. looked for things i need (altho didnt get. yet. :p), n bought a whole bunch of things i wasnt necessarily lookin for.. but could do With anyways. =P
and tmr (again, the pretending that tmr is Tuesday) when i shall be collecting my supposedly ready visa. in a couple hours actually. Dammit i shud be asleep. (altho, im not sure how happy im gonna be After collecting the visa when i'll probably have to go with dad to work. hmmmm.)
n Wednesday (saves the trouble of the dam parentheses. wait.. whats this again?), when i shall be heading to the bank, and then to the doctors.

oh joy joy plentiful things to do.
=P


Aight. been at this for hours, mostly spent lying back n thinking what to say n how to phrase it. :p
Time better spent asleep.
couple hours left for me.

Last note tho..
Have fallen in love with a gorgeous pair of shoes! (nikes elly, nikes. :p)
Nike Zoom Victory+ Womens. Black.
Black ok, black.
f*cking gorgeous. *sighs*

Didnt think it was that incredible when i first saw it online,
was into this, the Nike Shox Experience+ Womens atfirst. :p
but then, tried on the zoom victory earlier today an omg..
Its Black!!!
it looks friking amazing la.
i think.
and anyways the Shox Experience doesnt come in the right colour. the grey with yellow one.
apparently Nike oni assigns certain colours to certain countries, and Malaysia got the red one. -_-" which is pretty yuck.
so no Shox experience for me. :p
cant even try it on to compare..
but hey, who needs it. (eventho the online pic still looks pretty awesome to me.. hmmm.. dammit! why does the shox look so good online! possibly even better than the zoom! hmmm!)

The Zoom victory was so awesome, every other shoe i tried just paled in comparison.
sniff.
cant. take. it.
:p

but havin internal struggle on it. :p
new model. full price.
Nike factory in Manchester!
haha..
n also the whole, cloth material issue. :)
summer shoes.
but it rains in the summer too. =P

oooooh crap i just realised.
are my feet gonna freeze in the winter in those shoes?

goddammit!
=p


P.S. its hard to be a rational voice to others on spending, when you're drooling after a 400 dollar pair of shoes. =p