Question :
Do you ever wonder if you're good enough?
Question :
Do you ever have to worry that you aren't?
Or are you like me.
Constantly wishing you were.
Wondering if you're ever gonna be.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
two of us
Still hard to say goodbye.
still.
So you're right n im a sucker.
what difference is that gonna make?
as if anyones gonna be like me.
(havent found another)
as if you are.
why?
n if you do.
boy is that gonna kill.
who?
(Argh, i lost both phones! Goddammit!!)
some people have such rich lives.
some people are losers.
am so tired this being a part of yours.
"outside looking in"
its always been a case of 'what i can never have'
with the people i've loved.
im tired.
of dealing, of pretending.
of basically putting you above.
i dont want to be above.
i just dont want there to be two of us.
'You really wanna know Why its back to nought?
Its you being selfish. Thats why.
When have you ever let it be for me, n not you?
If you're about you, then its always gonna be about you.
Because i'm always, all about you.'
*cue Aaron Carter : 'Im all about you~~'*
"This is exactly why i broke up with you. So i wont have to deal with all of your crap. But now its still like being your boyfriend. Without the sex!"
"But you do get the sex."
natural air-conditioning.
so nice to sleep.
Have you ever tried exercising in the shower?
all the extra endorphins!
Hah. thats a joke just incase you didnt notice.
Man are showers therapeutic and awesome.
(as you can see, if you're astute enough)
i could stay in them forever.
i wonder why i dont do more of those.
Off now, looking awesome.
My boots my boots! I have new boots!
N my sweater that i love. eventho no one else seems to think so.. +_+"
i wonder why~
Out xmas shopping.
S'too bad it goes dark at 4.
Now, bugger off if you're gonna be all high n mighty.
still.
So you're right n im a sucker.
what difference is that gonna make?
as if anyones gonna be like me.
(havent found another)
as if you are.
why?
n if you do.
boy is that gonna kill.
who?
(Argh, i lost both phones! Goddammit!!)
some people have such rich lives.
some people are losers.
am so tired this being a part of yours.
"outside looking in"
its always been a case of 'what i can never have'
with the people i've loved.
im tired.
of dealing, of pretending.
of basically putting you above.
i dont want to be above.
i just dont want there to be two of us.
'You really wanna know Why its back to nought?
Its you being selfish. Thats why.
When have you ever let it be for me, n not you?
If you're about you, then its always gonna be about you.
Because i'm always, all about you.'
*cue Aaron Carter : 'Im all about you~~'*
"This is exactly why i broke up with you. So i wont have to deal with all of your crap. But now its still like being your boyfriend. Without the sex!"
"But you do get the sex."
natural air-conditioning.
so nice to sleep.
Have you ever tried exercising in the shower?
all the extra endorphins!
Hah. thats a joke just incase you didnt notice.
Man are showers therapeutic and awesome.
(as you can see, if you're astute enough)
i could stay in them forever.
i wonder why i dont do more of those.
Off now, looking awesome.
My boots my boots! I have new boots!
N my sweater that i love. eventho no one else seems to think so.. +_+"
i wonder why~
Out xmas shopping.
S'too bad it goes dark at 4.
Now, bugger off if you're gonna be all high n mighty.
Monday, December 8, 2008
let
"Hemorrhage (In My Hands)"
Memories are just where you laid them
What did you expect to find?
Was it something you left behind?
Don't you remember anything I said when I said,
Don't fall away and leave me to myself
Am I the only place that you've left to go?
And leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands
And I watched as you turned away
You don't remember, but I do
You never even tried
Memories are just where you laid them
What did you expect to find?
Was it something you left behind?
Don't you remember anything I said when I said,
Don't fall away and leave me to myself
Am I the only place that you've left to go?
And leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands
And I watched as you turned away
You don't remember, but I do
You never even tried
-
"I ran out of love for you"
n sometimes you dont.
we count time.
so,
there has to be something, i know that.
there is something, we know that.
but more than that i'll never know.
i think the wrong girls get all the guys.
He asked, what are the sacrifices that women do for men.
This is what i do for you.
Yes, maybe we do rule the world.
but we'd give it up for you in a heartbeat.
just as quickly as you let us go.
n sometimes you dont.
we count time.
so,
there has to be something, i know that.
there is something, we know that.
but more than that i'll never know.
i think the wrong girls get all the guys.
He asked, what are the sacrifices that women do for men.
This is what i do for you.
Yes, maybe we do rule the world.
but we'd give it up for you in a heartbeat.
just as quickly as you let us go.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
blower
cant cry anymore.
sometimes, it all wells up inside.
but its been awhile.
n sometimes you just cant cry anymore.
the worse part is wanting to.
-
maybe you do it without thinking.
coz you dont see, that for me its so much more.
cant take my eyes off you.
wish you wanted me too.
give it up too easy.
i think we both knew that.
sometimes, it all wells up inside.
but its been awhile.
n sometimes you just cant cry anymore.
the worse part is wanting to.
-
maybe you do it without thinking.
coz you dont see, that for me its so much more.
cant take my eyes off you.
wish you wanted me too.
give it up too easy.
i think we both knew that.
Monday, December 1, 2008
迁就
Yea, im alive.
I know you hate that part of me.
so what do i do?
always keep you happy?
always always.
?
" 你已经远远离开, 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你 "
Monday, November 24, 2008
the game
i dont know how to play this game with you..
dont know how to play the game, the game for you.
im lost.
all over again.
its sad inside.
cant live a life.
cant live A life
without you
now
when i could.
again.
everything in my life is put on hold
until i see you again
starts with you
ends with you
when thats too much even for me to say.
do i tell you?
do i not?
do i try harder?
do i not?
its so different.
i know it is.
i know.
what do i do different?
how do i learn?
when to give and when to take
when to push and when to wait.
so much better when i could start over
with something new..
but now im stuck here with you.
i dont know how to play this game.
this game for you.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
swing swing
I f*cking miss you.
haih.
*washes mouth with soap*
How do you(i) say 'no' when you're all i can think of.
n who to make me better.
Friday, October 31, 2008
mess
If I called you,
would you listen and not speak?
would you listen and not speak?
*counts the days..*
maybe its about the right time to feel..
Friendless,
and abandoned,
and longing for more.
and 2.0a and 2.0b have lost their novelty.
i wanted to dress up in black, and white hair, and blood today.
my rooms in some kinda mess.
But atleast theres a party tomorrow.
where 1.0 will be.
-
she was right.
you need to trust someone enough, to tell them.
n i dont.
dont trust anyone enough.
n so i eat chocolate digestive biscuits.
maybe its about the right time to feel..
Friendless,
and abandoned,
and longing for more.
and 2.0a and 2.0b have lost their novelty.
i wanted to dress up in black, and white hair, and blood today.
my rooms in some kinda mess.
But atleast theres a party tomorrow.
where 1.0 will be.
-
she was right.
you need to trust someone enough, to tell them.
n i dont.
dont trust anyone enough.
n so i eat chocolate digestive biscuits.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Someone to love
Things to be happy about :
- Swapping crappy mattress for nice full one.. with my new yellow bedsheet on it!
- Finding crushes in unexpected places, and Finally getting the opportunity to talk to them.
- Hot french guys. (who know how to pronounce my name (in their hot french accents!!))
- More awesomely hot guys!
- Strolling in the middle of the night, with people, and preferably nice music.
- Finding the same stars in the sky.
- Awesome, Awesome download speeds! (n finding long lost shows ive Always, Always wanted to watchhhhh!)
- catching up thats been long overdue.
- Things that right themselves in the end.
- n possibly, possibly, buying pretty little things for people, to make them happy. (tho how im gonna do that when everything closes at 5 i dunno.)
:)
- Swapping crappy mattress for nice full one.. with my new yellow bedsheet on it!
- Finding crushes in unexpected places, and Finally getting the opportunity to talk to them.
- Hot french guys. (who know how to pronounce my name (in their hot french accents!!))
- More awesomely hot guys!
- Strolling in the middle of the night, with people, and preferably nice music.
- Finding the same stars in the sky.
- Awesome, Awesome download speeds! (n finding long lost shows ive Always, Always wanted to watchhhhh!)
- catching up thats been long overdue.
- Things that right themselves in the end.
- n possibly, possibly, buying pretty little things for people, to make them happy. (tho how im gonna do that when everything closes at 5 i dunno.)
:)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
8th of the 10th 86
(was blogging, den switched mood n tack half way)
One hour chats with your brother.
about your nephew and how he still remembers both of you. (despite distance in miles n time)
"ningleninglepauuu~!"
And pre-midnight phone calls (despite old-ing on one end, and classes on the other) to remind you how old you really are.
(that was all)
Might be a day with a nicer date than others.
but the same old rules still apply.
:)..
N yet i'll still keep my hopes up for 1.0 tmr. whee.
i'llmissyou
P.S. Man, I feel old.
i want you.
One hour chats with your brother.
about your nephew and how he still remembers both of you. (despite distance in miles n time)
"ningleninglepauuu~!"
And pre-midnight phone calls (despite old-ing on one end, and classes on the other) to remind you how old you really are.
(that was all)
Might be a day with a nicer date than others.
but the same old rules still apply.
:)..
N yet i'll still keep my hopes up for 1.0 tmr. whee.
i'llmissyou
P.S. Man, I feel old.
i want you.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
, that wasnt you
I Know you are doing things that i would have wanted you to.
asked for you to.
inside.
just that you dont.
you wont.
(not for me)
(youre doing it right now, but you wont for me)
But i dont want you to.
I dont want you.
I have prettier things to love.
Do whatever, as much as itd make you feel good bout yourself.
i'll give you back what you give.
because if you dont fight because you dont care.
i wont fight because i wont care anymore.
you're happy.
i'm happy.
(not because)
it's good that way.
there are better things in life to miss.
dont tell me you fall asleep crying.
no one heard me.
n you dont get my ear, without being mine.
-
Sometimes when he (semi) flirts with me,
i (semi) flirt with him too.
(Altho oddly enough, for two people who flirt so easily, we dont do it with each other.)
But most of the time, i just want him further away.
Sometimes i wanna love him.
because hes just like you.
But hes different, n im glad hes different from you.
He doesnt want to 'love' me, like you would. (if i was someone new)
But im glad its that way.
Im glad he doesnt want me too. (n that hes not that beautiful)
Hot. But not that kinda beautiful.
I couldnt stand another you.
asked for you to.
inside.
just that you dont.
you wont.
(not for me)
(youre doing it right now, but you wont for me)
But i dont want you to.
I dont want you.
I have prettier things to love.
Do whatever, as much as itd make you feel good bout yourself.
i'll give you back what you give.
because if you dont fight because you dont care.
i wont fight because i wont care anymore.
you're happy.
i'm happy.
(not because)
it's good that way.
there are better things in life to miss.
dont tell me you fall asleep crying.
no one heard me.
n you dont get my ear, without being mine.
-
Sometimes when he (semi) flirts with me,
i (semi) flirt with him too.
(Altho oddly enough, for two people who flirt so easily, we dont do it with each other.)
But most of the time, i just want him further away.
Sometimes i wanna love him.
because hes just like you.
But hes different, n im glad hes different from you.
He doesnt want to 'love' me, like you would. (if i was someone new)
But im glad its that way.
Im glad he doesnt want me too. (n that hes not that beautiful)
Hot. But not that kinda beautiful.
I couldnt stand another you.
Selamat Raya
Happy Eid.
Days over today.
i was thinking id missed the one in Malaysia by now, seeing as how we're 7 hours behind.
But that was because i forgot, over here we started fasting month one day earlier.
So eid would be a day earlier as well.
We made Raya dinner. :)
(it was pretty excellent)
Very Malaysian n pedas! :p
(and you were pretty excellent as well.)
=P
*psssssssssssssssssssss.
=PPP
I did forget it was Eid.
Not that the day was it.
Jus the name.
Coz obviously it isnt 'Raya' over here.
But. All right now. ('alrite~')
No raya cookies, no duit raya.
No open house, no endless kenduris.
No rendang.
coz no one knows how to make.
cept maybe Min. whos birthday i forgot.
(no la, not forgot la! I didnt knowww! Sorry laa~ :p U got chance to call it even la ya. :p)
Nasi lemak we had though.
haha.
n lots n lots n lots of chilli paste, curry paste, tumeric n all other Malaysian spices were used.
:p
Anyways.
Happy Eid.
We had a good one over here today.
Next week better be a great one as well. :p
(!!! no expectations, no disappointment.. no expectations, no disappointment...)
(imissyou)
Days over today.
i was thinking id missed the one in Malaysia by now, seeing as how we're 7 hours behind.
But that was because i forgot, over here we started fasting month one day earlier.
So eid would be a day earlier as well.
We made Raya dinner. :)
(it was pretty excellent)
Very Malaysian n pedas! :p
(and you were pretty excellent as well.)
=P
*psssssssssssssssssssss.
=PPP
I did forget it was Eid.
Not that the day was it.
Jus the name.
Coz obviously it isnt 'Raya' over here.
But. All right now. ('alrite~')
No raya cookies, no duit raya.
No open house, no endless kenduris.
No rendang.
coz no one knows how to make.
cept maybe Min. whos birthday i forgot.
(no la, not forgot la! I didnt knowww! Sorry laa~ :p U got chance to call it even la ya. :p)
Nasi lemak we had though.
haha.
n lots n lots n lots of chilli paste, curry paste, tumeric n all other Malaysian spices were used.
:p
Anyways.
Happy Eid.
We had a good one over here today.
Next week better be a great one as well. :p
(!!! no expectations, no disappointment.. no expectations, no disappointment...)
(imissyou)
Saturday, September 27, 2008
drunken writing
A lil vodka
n i wanna make out.
i miss wills.
i miss you.
jus like you. oni different bcoz he doesnt 'care' about me.
not that you do.
Asked all i cud rmmbr bout Chorley d.
Gotta think up a new excuse now. dammit.
i want you~
Falling asleep in the toilet.
means its time to go.
n i wanna make out.
i miss wills.
i miss you.
jus like you. oni different bcoz he doesnt 'care' about me.
not that you do.
Asked all i cud rmmbr bout Chorley d.
Gotta think up a new excuse now. dammit.
i want you~
Falling asleep in the toilet.
means its time to go.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Back
Online!
N to complaining about the same old things again!
Heads up!
(it is ok if you dont understand. ure not supposed to.)
NME (nutrition, metabolism, excretion) - Bad
Preston - Good! (as opposed to Blackburn)
Surgery - EXcellent!
but wait, CHORLEY!!?? - WtF?! (that means bad, (compared to Preston.))
Ah well.
Be grateful with what you have.
I am mightily pleased with the surgery bit.
(wait, they Dont expect us to Know anything Do they!? wtf! I am Not prepared for this!)
I can manage the Chorley bit.
(After all, 1.0 had to do the same. There! Right there, thats the excuse my dear. ;) ;) )
(They send all the Asians to Chorley WTF! 4 Asians in the NME group n All of em are kicked to Chorley! Racist *********** (thats not a word, dont bother counting :p)! I feel victimised!)
(N This after me telling Everyone at Chorley that this is my only week there n that im heading back to Prestonnnn!!)
Anyways.
Time to go its 3am n ive heaps to do!
Quiz time.
What do you do when you have Lot of work to do but you're too lazy to do it?
Set up your internet.
Set up your wireless.
Skype for 2 hours.
Chat away happily (not really).
Shower.
Eat cookies.
Try to dicepher your Really confusing timetable till its 3am
den Blog about how you have So much work to do but No time to do it bcoz its 3(.25)am and you need to sleep!
=p
Its 3.25am and i need to sleep.
I have So much work, 4 times (haha) the normal PBL (we've talked about this) to do and due on Friday n i have not touched a bit.
Whee.
:)
Obviously this having net thing is getting to my head abit.
just the tad.
:p
Off to dream of spending my next 4 months sleeping away on the shuttle to Chorls.
pfft.
Ta den!
-
i do not need you.
Oo, atleast Chorley has the Hot ST1 (i have No idea whats that) i have to present a history to tmr. (today)
Havent completed the hx tho. Dam.
Off to talk to old women in the mens ward tmr!
Have enough of the feeling stupid in Hot ST1s presence!
What visual defect do you get with pituitary tumours?!?
*&@^#* @@@@ Ask me 9 months ago n id tell you! Not now!
Bloody bitemporal hemianopia.
N to complaining about the same old things again!
Heads up!
(it is ok if you dont understand. ure not supposed to.)
NME (nutrition, metabolism, excretion) - Bad
Preston - Good! (as opposed to Blackburn)
Surgery - EXcellent!
but wait, CHORLEY!!?? - WtF?! (that means bad, (compared to Preston.))
Ah well.
Be grateful with what you have.
I am mightily pleased with the surgery bit.
(wait, they Dont expect us to Know anything Do they!? wtf! I am Not prepared for this!)
I can manage the Chorley bit.
(After all, 1.0 had to do the same. There! Right there, thats the excuse my dear. ;) ;) )
(They send all the Asians to Chorley WTF! 4 Asians in the NME group n All of em are kicked to Chorley! Racist *********** (thats not a word, dont bother counting :p)! I feel victimised!)
(N This after me telling Everyone at Chorley that this is my only week there n that im heading back to Prestonnnn!!)
Anyways.
Time to go its 3am n ive heaps to do!
Quiz time.
What do you do when you have Lot of work to do but you're too lazy to do it?
Set up your internet.
Set up your wireless.
Skype for 2 hours.
Chat away happily (not really).
Shower.
Eat cookies.
Try to dicepher your Really confusing timetable till its 3am
den Blog about how you have So much work to do but No time to do it bcoz its 3(.25)am and you need to sleep!
=p
Its 3.25am and i need to sleep.
I have So much work, 4 times (haha) the normal PBL (we've talked about this) to do and due on Friday n i have not touched a bit.
Whee.
:)
Obviously this having net thing is getting to my head abit.
just the tad.
:p
Off to dream of spending my next 4 months sleeping away on the shuttle to Chorls.
pfft.
Ta den!
-
i do not need you.
Oo, atleast Chorley has the Hot ST1 (i have No idea whats that) i have to present a history to tmr. (today)
Havent completed the hx tho. Dam.
Off to talk to old women in the mens ward tmr!
Have enough of the feeling stupid in Hot ST1s presence!
What visual defect do you get with pituitary tumours?!?
*&@^#* @@@@ Ask me 9 months ago n id tell you! Not now!
Bloody bitemporal hemianopia.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
i have a dream
long emails
long chats
long nights
hungry
ive got a plan.
:p
this wasnt supposed to be my post for today but its almost 7am
n i forget.
:p
i know (now) not to dream dreams that dont come true.
:p
(shudup i dont mean any of it)
expectations.
i miss you. :).
long chats
long nights
hungry
iii miss youu
ive got a plan.
:p
this wasnt supposed to be my post for today but its almost 7am
n i forget.
:p
i know (now) not to dream dreams that dont come true.
:p
(shudup i dont mean any of it)
expectations.
i miss you. :).
Thursday, September 4, 2008
"The night is darkest just before the dawn"
feels stupid bout today.
does not help that
I miss you!
n the dam piano.
dam the piano.
the night is here.
n dawn is coming.
but with it, unfortunately,
no news on 1.0.
:p
*Allyssa is practicing self control
(no, not really)
does not help that
I miss you!
n the dam piano.
dam the piano.
the night is here.
n dawn is coming.
but with it, unfortunately,
no news on 1.0.
:p
*Allyssa is practicing self control
(no, not really)
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
piano
Selamat berpuasa.
over here it starts(ed) one day early.
n lasts from 4am - 8pm.
so much for 'would you still want me tomorrow'
but theres 1.0.
n yes, 'i think hes amazing'.
dam the piano.
over here it starts(ed) one day early.
n lasts from 4am - 8pm.
so much for 'would you still want me tomorrow'
but theres 1.0.
n yes, 'i think hes amazing'.
dam the piano.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
first words from Preston
Change of location.
Preston, Lancashire, United Kingdom.
I apologize for not saying Gd bye before i left. (=_=)
it was all most rush. *cough cough* (yea, 9 month long rush) :p
Have not slept in 3 days. I would count for you but finally (now that there are no in-flight movies to distract me!) feeling the effects of the lack of sleep!
My day today, 27th Aug, has lasted 28 hours.
And its only 9pm! (local time) :p
Shall (try to) update all soon.
Many bad news to tell. :p
Take care all.
*succumbs to calls of sleep
Preston, Lancashire, United Kingdom.
I apologize for not saying Gd bye before i left. (=_=)
it was all most rush. *cough cough* (yea, 9 month long rush) :p
Have not slept in 3 days. I would count for you but finally (now that there are no in-flight movies to distract me!) feeling the effects of the lack of sleep!
My day today, 27th Aug, has lasted 28 hours.
And its only 9pm! (local time) :p
Shall (try to) update all soon.
Many bad news to tell. :p
Take care all.
*succumbs to calls of sleep
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Jo
It's hard to say goodbye
when its not yet your last second.
my niece today.
the boy tomorrow.
Not gonna say what i had to say,
except,
how do you say good bye
when you know you're gonna spend the next two or three days
within minutes of each other
but wont be seeing each other.
Anyways.
you're my last second.
you're my home.
how am i supposed to get over you?
Sometimes i dont do it, because i am hoping you will.
when its not yet your last second.
my niece today.
the boy tomorrow.
Not gonna say what i had to say,
except,
how do you say good bye
when you know you're gonna spend the next two or three days
within minutes of each other
but wont be seeing each other.
Anyways.
you're my last second.
you're my home.
how am i supposed to get over you?
Sometimes i dont do it, because i am hoping you will.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
the countdown game
Being forced to leave the city!
*cough*
wahaha.. sounds so dramatic.
but yes. is true.
fortunately, should be back by thurs, or weds if im lucky.
after all, it Is my last week in the city n i had alot of plans!
(or even if not.. wud atleast like to Be here so when i remember all the things i Shud be doing.. atleast i can do em.. :p)
oh, lots of things to buy, lots of people to see..
lots of Food to eat! yes!
But ah well.
making the best of it.
Will do my best to enjoy food over der! (in the land famous for its food. except i dont like it very much. the place that is. :p)
But ah.. atleast i can have my fill of CharKuehTeow! (With Ducks egg!!!) n KuehTeowT'ng!
Mwahahahaha! stuff that i mostly only enjoy over there!
Ho ho!
n maybe. if im really really lucky.
use up my free time to go Buy the stuff that i actually do need!
=p
i think my biggest problem is shoes. :p
never had much affinity towards them.
(cept my gorgeous Victory Zoom, which ive come to terms that its probably not practicle.. sniff..)
ladida.
Been trial packing my things.
bcoz somebody thinks that my bag is too small.
hmpfff..
i think i cud squeeze pretty much most of the things i can bring inside..
shud be hampered only by weight...
but well. i guess i wudnt mind a bigger bag.
its the comfort/assurance that we Cud fit all my things inside, If the weight restriction allowed it. haha.
we found another decent one.
but somebody else was concern with the brand.
haha.
oh well. up to the powers that be to decide.
im fine with anything you leave me with.
ladidaaa
so many things! so little weight!
=p
more things to buy more things to buy~~
im sure by the last few days i wud have come up with even more! hah!
why is moving such a hassle anyways? =P
(n also, if only other ppl cud be aLot less naggy. naggynaggy. :p)
will be panicking about not having everything with me soon enough. :)
in the mean time.
off trying to do my best to think of all the necessities!
(n the cheapest way to get em!)
shall catch ya all in a few days time den!
lalala
Another completely useless post brought to you by
-Me.
*cough*
wahaha.. sounds so dramatic.
but yes. is true.
fortunately, should be back by thurs, or weds if im lucky.
after all, it Is my last week in the city n i had alot of plans!
(or even if not.. wud atleast like to Be here so when i remember all the things i Shud be doing.. atleast i can do em.. :p)
oh, lots of things to buy, lots of people to see..
lots of Food to eat! yes!
But ah well.
making the best of it.
Will do my best to enjoy food over der! (in the land famous for its food. except i dont like it very much. the place that is. :p)
But ah.. atleast i can have my fill of CharKuehTeow! (With Ducks egg!!!) n KuehTeowT'ng!
Mwahahahaha! stuff that i mostly only enjoy over there!
Ho ho!
n maybe. if im really really lucky.
use up my free time to go Buy the stuff that i actually do need!
=p
i think my biggest problem is shoes. :p
never had much affinity towards them.
(cept my gorgeous Victory Zoom, which ive come to terms that its probably not practicle.. sniff..)
ladida.
Been trial packing my things.
bcoz somebody thinks that my bag is too small.
hmpfff..
i think i cud squeeze pretty much most of the things i can bring inside..
shud be hampered only by weight...
but well. i guess i wudnt mind a bigger bag.
its the comfort/assurance that we Cud fit all my things inside, If the weight restriction allowed it. haha.
we found another decent one.
but somebody else was concern with the brand.
haha.
oh well. up to the powers that be to decide.
im fine with anything you leave me with.
ladidaaa
so many things! so little weight!
=p
more things to buy more things to buy~~
im sure by the last few days i wud have come up with even more! hah!
why is moving such a hassle anyways? =P
(n also, if only other ppl cud be aLot less naggy. naggynaggy. :p)
will be panicking about not having everything with me soon enough. :)
in the mean time.
off trying to do my best to think of all the necessities!
(n the cheapest way to get em!)
shall catch ya all in a few days time den!
lalala
Another completely useless post brought to you by
-Me.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
just more
='(....
its not about understanding...
but about trying..
doing.
wanting.
...
Its alright..
it'll be alright.
---
It's starting..
whats starting?
a life without you...
....
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见..
never wanted to leave you..
Monday, August 11, 2008
fools in love
haha.. i was announcing at several places that i was going to watch the Dark Knight 2nd time around, at 11.30pm too! (time is important coz its not always i get to watch midnight shows ok! =p)
except..
False alarm!
due to several technicalities.. (haha)
watched the Mummy instead.
hehehe..
(forgot that maybe i was supposed to save that for somebody.. hehe.. but nvm.. :p)
Hollywood thinks its ok to make shows where the characters try to speak chinese.. and it all sounds really comedy-funny when you cant speak chinese yourself..
but they seem to forget (or more likely not care) that Chinese ppl actually watch the show!
n It all becomes really lame n totally blows the movie la ok.. haha..
Especially when the chinese ppl in the show themselves cant speak chinese!
i mean.. its not their fault, n not that i judge chinese ppl who cant speak chinese!
But here is like, Michelle Yeo, who has to speak chinese in the show, n i guess bcoz maybe she sounds to all the orang puteh (white ppl) like she actually knows what shes sayin, but to us, its all lame n you can Totally tell that she cant speak!
haha.. ok ok.. maybe that was too mean..
but really it was dam hilarious n lame la...
haha.. not that the show was bad!
haha no no.. it was pretty good..
(marred by the absense of someone to insult the movie with tho.. hehe..)
haha..
just not all the chinese speaking parts.. haha.. :p
Anyways, Dark Knight shud be soon. =P
or as my Dad calls it, the Black Knight/Night. haha.. (See elly, I Thot i was exaggerating bout the whole White knight black knight thing! but i really wasnt! hahaa..)
shud. :p
-
feeling melancholic, and sentimental..
hmm...
but going to bed now anyways..
is evil as well but oh well..
whos on the losing end anyways?
some people are lucky but dont know how to appreciate it.
n maybe some ppl shud by now realise.. maybe i wasnt the mean one after all.
i was right bout it all.
n we are all fools in love.
that includes you as well.
except..
False alarm!
due to several technicalities.. (haha)
watched the Mummy instead.
hehehe..
(forgot that maybe i was supposed to save that for somebody.. hehe.. but nvm.. :p)
Hollywood thinks its ok to make shows where the characters try to speak chinese.. and it all sounds really comedy-funny when you cant speak chinese yourself..
but they seem to forget (or more likely not care) that Chinese ppl actually watch the show!
n It all becomes really lame n totally blows the movie la ok.. haha..
Especially when the chinese ppl in the show themselves cant speak chinese!
i mean.. its not their fault, n not that i judge chinese ppl who cant speak chinese!
But here is like, Michelle Yeo, who has to speak chinese in the show, n i guess bcoz maybe she sounds to all the orang puteh (white ppl) like she actually knows what shes sayin, but to us, its all lame n you can Totally tell that she cant speak!
haha.. ok ok.. maybe that was too mean..
but really it was dam hilarious n lame la...
haha.. not that the show was bad!
haha no no.. it was pretty good..
(marred by the absense of someone to insult the movie with tho.. hehe..)
haha..
just not all the chinese speaking parts.. haha.. :p
Anyways, Dark Knight shud be soon. =P
or as my Dad calls it, the Black Knight/Night. haha.. (See elly, I Thot i was exaggerating bout the whole White knight black knight thing! but i really wasnt! hahaa..)
shud. :p
-
feeling melancholic, and sentimental..
hmm...
but going to bed now anyways..
is evil as well but oh well..
whos on the losing end anyways?
some people are lucky but dont know how to appreciate it.
n maybe some ppl shud by now realise.. maybe i wasnt the mean one after all.
i was right bout it all.
n we are all fools in love.
that includes you as well.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Just tonight
Tonight,
i found out that someone has been seeing someone. for 3 yrs now, n we're only just finding out.
tsk tsk.
Tonight,
a friend, who as recently as a day or so ago (or thats when he decided to announce it to the world atleast) got into a relationship, just told me more about his girl.
n this guy, hardly a month or two ago, was talking to me bout how he has commitment issues n what not. hah that! =p
Sigh..
Tonight,
i spoke to like.. some 9 people..
which must be some kinda record for me..
some for a couple minutes, some for much much more...
people i speak to everyday, people ive had less chance to talk to, people i havent spoken to in months, people who have been ignoring me till now...
found so many..
yet lost someone tonight...
I did stupid things tonight.
probably because i was already emo.
F***ing emo now n not necessarily bcoz of stupid things.
but just cause.
you just dont get it.
some are forever.
Dont lie to yourself, dont lie to others.
If its your choice, be a man n admit it.
thats what you never did on this end..
n what you must do to fix it.
If you want something, it takes effort.
n that aside.
Good things, take effort.
Oh God, please...
Im really tired.
n i dont want to do it.
i dont deserve this havin to deal with half-heartedness anymore.
its really very simple.
Do it, or dont. n a 100%.
leave me be so i dont have to settle.
.
I need God, i need fate, i need the World..
i need to know what my future holds for me.
or atleast, if its gonna be ok?
i need to know what is there for me out there.
Im not sure i want in on this life.
.
Baby, where are you?
-
Brian counting.wav
Heres a link of my boy counting. =P
i found out that someone has been seeing someone. for 3 yrs now, n we're only just finding out.
tsk tsk.
Tonight,
a friend, who as recently as a day or so ago (or thats when he decided to announce it to the world atleast) got into a relationship, just told me more about his girl.
n this guy, hardly a month or two ago, was talking to me bout how he has commitment issues n what not. hah that! =p
Sigh..
Tonight,
i spoke to like.. some 9 people..
which must be some kinda record for me..
some for a couple minutes, some for much much more...
people i speak to everyday, people ive had less chance to talk to, people i havent spoken to in months, people who have been ignoring me till now...
found so many..
yet lost someone tonight...
I did stupid things tonight.
probably because i was already emo.
F***ing emo now n not necessarily bcoz of stupid things.
but just cause.
you just dont get it.
some are forever.
Dont lie to yourself, dont lie to others.
If its your choice, be a man n admit it.
thats what you never did on this end..
n what you must do to fix it.
If you want something, it takes effort.
n that aside.
Good things, take effort.
Oh God, please...
Im really tired.
n i dont want to do it.
i dont deserve this havin to deal with half-heartedness anymore.
its really very simple.
Do it, or dont. n a 100%.
leave me be so i dont have to settle.
.
I need God, i need fate, i need the World..
i need to know what my future holds for me.
or atleast, if its gonna be ok?
i need to know what is there for me out there.
Im not sure i want in on this life.
.
Baby, where are you?
-
Brian counting.wav
Heres a link of my boy counting. =P
Friday, August 8, 2008
只让我们相恋，这一季的秋天。。
I conduct imaginary arguments in my head.
hmmmmmm.
should i be worried?
-----
不能說的秘密 (Secret) - 周杰倫 (Jay Chou)
"今天是12月25日，我还是忘不了你。。" (8月9日，还有7天...)
Got conned into watching chinese music last night. =(
Beautifully emo song.
最美的不是下雨天，是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐。。
The first time i heard it i emo-ed.
n den i had to explain to a friend that it wasnt an emo-ing bcoz of myself or anything.. but merely bcoz the song is so freaking beautiful, n sad, n emo.
Eventho the more i watched it, the more i cud find lines to relate to.
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远。。
But essentially, it was just the music.
especially when the band comes in..
想象你在身边，在完全失去之前。。 (还有17天...)
Then i just played it over n over so many times last night.
You wont believe the number of times i was swearing at stupid Jay Chou (whom i still refuse to like on principle. but doesnt mean i cant appreciate his music. ahem. :p)
或许命运的签，只让我们遇见。。
只让我们相恋，这一季的秋天。。
-
分手快樂 - 梁靜茹
"我和他可能真的分手了。。" (might be some 3 years late.. but still seems kinda familiar..)
i didnt get it at first.. why there were two girls.
i'd thought it was from one party to the other.
N den i watched from the begining n paid attention.. den i got that it was from a friend to another who was in the situation. (a break up)
我无法帮你预言，委屈求全有没有用。。
less cool that way. :p
but still pretty all the same..
-
彩虹 (Rainbow) - 周杰倫
I know its too many vids.. n i didnt plan to put so many..
But this video was so freaking incredibly sad...
I didnt get it the first time n i was like... What?!! Whyyy?!!!
So i re-watched it... n den.. well..
you'll see la..
when you watch the second time..
But i must say.
Chinese shows/dramas/videos always like to do this whole sacrifice/dying theme.
But freak it if Any guy thinks thats the 'noble' or right thing to do or whatever he is Stupid n Messed up in the head n i will Kick him in the nuts ok.
But ah, nvm that la.
After i watched the video i was all like..
Arghh Stupid Jay Chou I hate Jay Chou Arghhh WHY THE HELL Wud Anyone Make videos like that SO SAD Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Haha..
Oh well.
---
Also listening to, (not that ure supposed to watch these, but just to tell you what im listening to..)
Taiyou Wa Yoru Mo Kagayaku from Hunter X Hunter,
Shinjitsu No Uta from Inuyasha
hmmmmmm.
should i be worried?
-----
不能說的秘密 (Secret) - 周杰倫 (Jay Chou)
"今天是12月25日，我还是忘不了你。。" (8月9日，还有7天...)
Got conned into watching chinese music last night. =(
Beautifully emo song.
最美的不是下雨天，是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐。。
The first time i heard it i emo-ed.
n den i had to explain to a friend that it wasnt an emo-ing bcoz of myself or anything.. but merely bcoz the song is so freaking beautiful, n sad, n emo.
Eventho the more i watched it, the more i cud find lines to relate to.
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远。。
But essentially, it was just the music.
especially when the band comes in..
想象你在身边，在完全失去之前。。 (还有17天...)
Then i just played it over n over so many times last night.
You wont believe the number of times i was swearing at stupid Jay Chou (whom i still refuse to like on principle. but doesnt mean i cant appreciate his music. ahem. :p)
或许命运的签，只让我们遇见。。
只让我们相恋，这一季的秋天。。
-
分手快樂 - 梁靜茹
"我和他可能真的分手了。。" (might be some 3 years late.. but still seems kinda familiar..)
i didnt get it at first.. why there were two girls.
i'd thought it was from one party to the other.
N den i watched from the begining n paid attention.. den i got that it was from a friend to another who was in the situation. (a break up)
我无法帮你预言，委屈求全有没有用。。
less cool that way. :p
but still pretty all the same..
-
彩虹 (Rainbow) - 周杰倫
I know its too many vids.. n i didnt plan to put so many..
But this video was so freaking incredibly sad...
I didnt get it the first time n i was like... What?!! Whyyy?!!!
So i re-watched it... n den.. well..
you'll see la..
when you watch the second time..
But i must say.
Chinese shows/dramas/videos always like to do this whole sacrifice/dying theme.
But freak it if Any guy thinks thats the 'noble' or right thing to do or whatever he is Stupid n Messed up in the head n i will Kick him in the nuts ok.
But ah, nvm that la.
After i watched the video i was all like..
Arghh Stupid Jay Chou I hate Jay Chou Arghhh WHY THE HELL Wud Anyone Make videos like that SO SAD Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Haha..
Oh well.
---
Also listening to, (not that ure supposed to watch these, but just to tell you what im listening to..)
Taiyou Wa Yoru Mo Kagayaku from Hunter X Hunter,
Shinjitsu No Uta from Inuyasha
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
The Zoom Victory+ aka dont buy me with money, if ure a temporary thing
Its not my fault i went to the land of no internet, and when i came back to the land of internet, there was no internet.
:p
it feels kinda surprising to me that my last post of any sorta substance was about being about to meet important people.
bcoz so so much has happened since.
important, eventful, material things. :p
Yes, i did meet 'important' people.
n yes, i did indeed learn important things! :p
One of em, very important, being that i am going to be homeless for quite a while. =p
I learned that 12 divide by 4 sometimes equals 7. :p
i learned that if all goes well i wont have to stash 3 months living expenses in pounds, in cash or travellers cheques, on my person or luggage, after all. :p
will be testing this proposal on wednesday.
n today, i found out more about the 365 day plan thing (phone). but i still might have to debate on that out loud once first.
N ive Done important things too.
even with the half a week of absence (in which i contributed to the hole in the ozone! burned down an entire tree! honestly, the whole big tree, taller than me (not that thats hard to do), reduced to mere ashes! haha.. not proud.. not. :p) i still managed to finally, complete and submit my visa application.
which is up for collection, something else useful i'll be doing tomorrow (or today actually.. in like.. 4 hours..)
altho, i must say i should probably hold off on the bragging...
n wait till i actually have the approved thing in my hand before i say anything..
god knows how unlucky presumptious talks are. :)
also!
among the useful things i did!
shopping spreeeeee!
Today i spent 364 bucks.
but on 14 items!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and all in one shop haha.
not to mention the 166 bucks i spent on 8 things in the same shop last week!
haha..
lingerie~~
La Senza sales rock.
i have excellent looking underwear now. =P (with monkeys on them! Monkeys!!!)
not to mention the 3 sets of pyjamas i got for 50 each. discounted from 139 ok! f*ckin excellent! =P oh and with Penguins n Reindeers! (Haha! Reindeers elly! Xmas collection! Wheeee~~~)
and also, in yellow. *beams*
oh man, the shade of yellow....... *hyperventilates*
:p
yes, i emo-ed yesterday becoz nothing was being done.
yes, i am happiest (now) when things are. :p
like today (lets pretend today is (still) Monday), when i went n shopped, ie. looked for things i need (altho didnt get. yet. :p), n bought a whole bunch of things i wasnt necessarily lookin for.. but could do With anyways. =P
and tmr (again, the pretending that tmr is Tuesday) when i shall be collecting my supposedly ready visa. in a couple hours actually. Dammit i shud be asleep. (altho, im not sure how happy im gonna be After collecting the visa when i'll probably have to go with dad to work. hmmmm.)
n Wednesday (saves the trouble of the dam parentheses. wait.. whats this again?), when i shall be heading to the bank, and then to the doctors.
oh joy joy plentiful things to do.
=P
Aight. been at this for hours, mostly spent lying back n thinking what to say n how to phrase it. :p
Time better spent asleep.
couple hours left for me.
Last note tho..
Have fallen in love with a gorgeous pair of shoes! (nikes elly, nikes. :p)
Nike Zoom Victory+ Womens. Black.
Black ok, black.
f*cking gorgeous. *sighs*
Didnt think it was that incredible when i first saw it online,
was into this, the Nike Shox Experience+ Womens atfirst. :p
but then, tried on the zoom victory earlier today an omg..
Its Black!!!
it looks friking amazing la.
i think.
and anyways the Shox Experience doesnt come in the right colour. the grey with yellow one.
apparently Nike oni assigns certain colours to certain countries, and Malaysia got the red one. -_-" which is pretty yuck.
so no Shox experience for me. :p
cant even try it on to compare..
but hey, who needs it. (eventho the online pic still looks pretty awesome to me.. hmmm.. dammit! why does the shox look so good online! possibly even better than the zoom! hmmm!)
The Zoom victory was so awesome, every other shoe i tried just paled in comparison.
sniff.
cant. take. it.
:p
but havin internal struggle on it. :p
new model. full price.
Nike factory in Manchester!
haha..
n also the whole, cloth material issue. :)
summer shoes.
but it rains in the summer too. =P
oooooh crap i just realised.
are my feet gonna freeze in the winter in those shoes?
goddammit!
=p
P.S. its hard to be a rational voice to others on spending, when you're drooling after a 400 dollar pair of shoes. =p
:p
it feels kinda surprising to me that my last post of any sorta substance was about being about to meet important people.
bcoz so so much has happened since.
important, eventful, material things. :p
Yes, i did meet 'important' people.
n yes, i did indeed learn important things! :p
One of em, very important, being that i am going to be homeless for quite a while. =p
I learned that 12 divide by 4 sometimes equals 7. :p
i learned that if all goes well i wont have to stash 3 months living expenses in pounds, in cash or travellers cheques, on my person or luggage, after all. :p
will be testing this proposal on wednesday.
n today, i found out more about the 365 day plan thing (phone). but i still might have to debate on that out loud once first.
N ive Done important things too.
even with the half a week of absence (in which i contributed to the hole in the ozone! burned down an entire tree! honestly, the whole big tree, taller than me (not that thats hard to do), reduced to mere ashes! haha.. not proud.. not. :p) i still managed to finally, complete and submit my visa application.
which is up for collection, something else useful i'll be doing tomorrow (or today actually.. in like.. 4 hours..)
altho, i must say i should probably hold off on the bragging...
n wait till i actually have the approved thing in my hand before i say anything..
god knows how unlucky presumptious talks are. :)
also!
among the useful things i did!
shopping spreeeeee!
Today i spent 364 bucks.
but on 14 items!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and all in one shop haha.
not to mention the 166 bucks i spent on 8 things in the same shop last week!
haha..
lingerie~~
La Senza sales rock.
i have excellent looking underwear now. =P (with monkeys on them! Monkeys!!!)
not to mention the 3 sets of pyjamas i got for 50 each. discounted from 139 ok! f*ckin excellent! =P oh and with Penguins n Reindeers! (Haha! Reindeers elly! Xmas collection! Wheeee~~~)
and also, in yellow. *beams*
oh man, the shade of yellow....... *hyperventilates*
:p
yes, i emo-ed yesterday becoz nothing was being done.
yes, i am happiest (now) when things are. :p
like today (lets pretend today is (still) Monday), when i went n shopped, ie. looked for things i need (altho didnt get. yet. :p), n bought a whole bunch of things i wasnt necessarily lookin for.. but could do With anyways. =P
and tmr (again, the pretending that tmr is Tuesday) when i shall be collecting my supposedly ready visa. in a couple hours actually. Dammit i shud be asleep. (altho, im not sure how happy im gonna be After collecting the visa when i'll probably have to go with dad to work. hmmmm.)
n Wednesday (saves the trouble of the dam parentheses. wait.. whats this again?), when i shall be heading to the bank, and then to the doctors.
oh joy joy plentiful things to do.
=P
Aight. been at this for hours, mostly spent lying back n thinking what to say n how to phrase it. :p
Time better spent asleep.
couple hours left for me.
Last note tho..
Have fallen in love with a gorgeous pair of shoes! (nikes elly, nikes. :p)
Nike Zoom Victory+ Womens. Black.
Black ok, black.
f*cking gorgeous. *sighs*
Didnt think it was that incredible when i first saw it online,
was into this, the Nike Shox Experience+ Womens atfirst. :p
but then, tried on the zoom victory earlier today an omg..
Its Black!!!
it looks friking amazing la.
i think.
and anyways the Shox Experience doesnt come in the right colour. the grey with yellow one.
apparently Nike oni assigns certain colours to certain countries, and Malaysia got the red one. -_-" which is pretty yuck.
so no Shox experience for me. :p
cant even try it on to compare..
but hey, who needs it. (eventho the online pic still looks pretty awesome to me.. hmmm.. dammit! why does the shox look so good online! possibly even better than the zoom! hmmm!)
The Zoom victory was so awesome, every other shoe i tried just paled in comparison.
sniff.
cant. take. it.
:p
but havin internal struggle on it. :p
new model. full price.
Nike factory in Manchester!
haha..
n also the whole, cloth material issue. :)
summer shoes.
but it rains in the summer too. =P
oooooh crap i just realised.
are my feet gonna freeze in the winter in those shoes?
goddammit!
=p
P.S. its hard to be a rational voice to others on spending, when you're drooling after a 400 dollar pair of shoes. =p
Sunday, July 27, 2008
absentee vote
Heres a note
just to say
that me shall be gone for half a week.
shall not see u or be here how sad.
oh look.
they be calling
the peeps..
:p
Heres just a note
so that there will be more than one
from this week.
:)
just to say
that me shall be gone for half a week.
shall not see u or be here how sad.
oh look.
they be calling
the peeps..
:p
Heres just a note
so that there will be more than one
from this week.
:)
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
=)
/
=(
---
leaves for a really confused child. =/
.
Tmr i go to meet 'important' ppl!
Most excited!
(tho as always, all this happiness/excitement, is only makin me wary that Bad things are about to happen. :p)
but anewhees.
Tmr i will gain new knowledge
n important information!
haha.
Im just tired of being stuck n stagnant n everything in the past week has just been building up but waiting for tmr to come so that I can
Finally
get some answers.
n den we can get a move on things.
:p
wheeeeeeeeee..
(haha. overdramatizing things that arent actually that dramatic. :p
but drama is fun. :p)
I can not wait for exciting things to come!
(*wary wary*)
/
=(
---
leaves for a really confused child. =/
.
Tmr i go to meet 'important' ppl!
Most excited!
(tho as always, all this happiness/excitement, is only makin me wary that Bad things are about to happen. :p)
but anewhees.
Tmr i will gain new knowledge
n important information!
haha.
Im just tired of being stuck n stagnant n everything in the past week has just been building up but waiting for tmr to come so that I can
Finally
get some answers.
n den we can get a move on things.
:p
wheeeeeeeeee..
(haha. overdramatizing things that arent actually that dramatic. :p
but drama is fun. :p)
I can not wait for exciting things to come!
(*wary wary*)
Sleepy as hell now.
nitey nite.
*cake!*
nitey nite.
*cake!*
Sunday, July 20, 2008
never never land
Skyped for 54 minutes n 22 seconds.
:)
How fun when the world you live in allows you to make calls for free! :D
Even more amazing when the ppl you talk to are across oceans from you.
(Altho, if we all skyped at home, we could save on local calls as well! haha.. Hey! Why have i nvr thought of that. Considering i/we spent most of our time in front of the computers anyways. N many of the calls i used to be on with my friends (before they up n left me!!) were done while we were in front of the comps too. hah.)
Applying for visa online.
n on Section 5 - Immigration History
"Do you have any criminal convictions in any country
(including traffic offences)?"
oh. ****.
:p
"Have you ever‚ by any means or medium‚ expressed views that justify or glorify terrorist violence or that may encourage others to terrorist acts or other serious criminal acts?"
right. *looks around* must watch what i say from now on...
"Have you engaged in any other activities that might indicate that you may not be considered a person of good character?"
bwahahhahahahaaa! How do i even Answer this question!?
:)
How fun when the world you live in allows you to make calls for free! :D
Even more amazing when the ppl you talk to are across oceans from you.
(Altho, if we all skyped at home, we could save on local calls as well! haha.. Hey! Why have i nvr thought of that. Considering i/we spent most of our time in front of the computers anyways. N many of the calls i used to be on with my friends (before they up n left me!!) were done while we were in front of the comps too. hah.)
Applying for visa online.
n on Section 5 - Immigration History
"Do you have any criminal convictions in any country
(including traffic offences)?"
oh. ****.
:p
"Have you ever‚ by any means or medium‚ expressed views that justify or glorify terrorist violence or that may encourage others to terrorist acts or other serious criminal acts?"
right. *looks around* must watch what i say from now on...
"Have you engaged in any other activities that might indicate that you may not be considered a person of good character?"
bwahahhahahahaaa! How do i even Answer this question!?
after darkness, comes dawn
When the choice is between doing something,
n not doing something,
the thing is, not doing something only lasts until you do do something.
while once you do something,
its done.
not doing something,
is always at a greater disadvantage.
-
i watched the Dark Knight tonight
(i cried when they said silent guardian)
n i missed you.
Theres not a show i can watch
(not once can i sit there)
without missing you.
but you dont miss me. (like i do)
I want you to, but
Dont ask me,
if im free to catch a rat.
Dont tell me,
that my facts are right.
Pick up the phone
say,
Fleur, i'm sorry.
say it.
dont say it.
dont say it because you're not ready to do it all.
dont say it unless
(no buts, ifs, or maybes.
no unless.)
dont say it because you need to want to trudge thru all the sludge in the moat,
that which stinks n smells n will burden you n pull you down.
to want to go thru it all to reach the gates.
the gates the gates.
oh
dont let me open it up if you're not ready to do it.
"i want you to want to do the dishes"
or dont
because as always,
n den what?
dont
because,
i dont want to be 2nd class.
or 3rd or 4th or 5th..
i cant.
oh
so many negatives,
so familiar.
do it
because you should...
because i need you to.
n den what?
( if you do it...
oh, please dont let me go....
... )
(but i guess the thing is,
i know that you cant not let me go.)
do it
dont do it
i cant say.
-
time has passed.
i dont need to anymore.
but im doing it all the same.
because im weak that way.
All i can think of is you
but d'you know what im afraid of?
im afraid you'll tell me that you need to go to bed.
i'm afraid you'll tell me, 'sorry, i forgot.'
if not today,
den the next.
I'm sorry.
for the things I can not do.
for missing you.
n not doing something,
the thing is, not doing something only lasts until you do do something.
while once you do something,
its done.
not doing something,
is always at a greater disadvantage.
-
i watched the Dark Knight tonight
(i cried when they said silent guardian)
n i missed you.
Theres not a show i can watch
(not once can i sit there)
without missing you.
but you dont miss me. (like i do)
I want you to, but
Dont ask me,
if im free to catch a rat.
Dont tell me,
that my facts are right.
Pick up the phone
say,
Fleur, i'm sorry.
say it.
dont say it.
dont say it because you're not ready to do it all.
dont say it unless
(no buts, ifs, or maybes.
no unless.)
dont say it because you need to want to trudge thru all the sludge in the moat,
that which stinks n smells n will burden you n pull you down.
to want to go thru it all to reach the gates.
the gates the gates.
oh
dont let me open it up if you're not ready to do it.
"i want you to want to do the dishes"
or dont
because as always,
n den what?
dont
because,
i dont want to be 2nd class.
or 3rd or 4th or 5th..
i cant.
oh
so many negatives,
so familiar.
do it
because you should...
because i need you to.
n den what?
( if you do it...
oh, please dont let me go....
... )
(but i guess the thing is,
i know that you cant not let me go.)
do it
dont do it
i cant say.
-
time has passed.
i dont need to anymore.
but im doing it all the same.
because im weak that way.
All i can think of is you
but d'you know what im afraid of?
im afraid you'll tell me that you need to go to bed.
i'm afraid you'll tell me, 'sorry, i forgot.'
if not today,
den the next.
I'm sorry.
for the things I can not do.
for missing you.
P.S. i was yelling for reasons, 'why not?'.
n then i remembered why.
because i'd have to spend my days feeling like this.
hope. expectation. where they've no place being.
so i remembered.
so, no.
dont.
n then i remembered why.
because i'd have to spend my days feeling like this.
hope. expectation. where they've no place being.
so i remembered.
so, no.
dont.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
because hate is safer than love
4 days later, let see what actually happened to the plans.
s'funny how time changes things?
after all the long nagging n yelling n making me decide on everything n set what day to see who, where, when, how n everything,
after what i said Should be, this is what was. :p
Wednesday, instead of lunch, the guy says we're meeting at 2, after he has this huge brunch. so, non-existent lunch den. :p but we had cake, several, and a movie.
Thursday, instead of outing n dinner, my friend calls in the morning n says we're changing to Lunch instead! or well.. not really lunch (there was no food involved) but an afternoon outing, no dinner. And another movie. :p Also, oh yea i forgot, breakfast in the morning got cancelled. :p
Friday, not too drastic changes but 12.30pm (after all the asking n asking n everyone waiting for me to Set a time! Hmff!) becomes past 1pm? Movie time changes. Oh n going back at 6pm becomes 7.30pm, where i den had family dinner outside pop up. :p
Saturday, lunch plans got pushed to Sunday, so i gotta rest before buffet dinner. (which had excellent cheese lobster btw..)
hah!
how amusing. :)
not that i mind all the changing though. coz hopefully after everyone changed everything, nex time they'd be more accepting with my fickleness. =P
Anyways, since lunch on Sat got pushed to Sun, n i have an appointment with mum on Mon, And Dear Pah wants to go out on Tues!
That wud mean that I wud be out one straight week! Weds to Tues. haha.
tiring tho.
Oh, n to add to my already long list of movies watched recently,
this week I watched, in chronological order,
Amazing Grace - which was really rather great! walked into the theatre with zero idea of what itd be about, because at that point, id watched every other decent movie, n we just picked one randomly. N it was cool on so many levels. In itself a great show, it was also fitting for both of us, for differing reasong :p, n also, it turned out that the day we watched it, was the last day it was screened. :) How great.
Journey to the Centre of the Earth - was actually a pretty Great show! Me Must watched 3d version!! *bawls* which there was a motion master! :p
Hancock - pretty great as well. :)
Seriously, i have pretty much exhausted all the movies showing!
before this was Incredible Hulk, Made of Honour, Get Smart, Nanny Diaries (which sucked!), Kungfu Panda, Wanted, Narnia..
really. all the decent shows gone. :D n journey n hancock, good new ones only just out, but accounted for edi. :p only things left that are watchable, if i have to force it wud be, war of the dragons, n hellboy, n only bcoz theyve only just come out.
but i dont think i will bcoz ive had too much movies la.. n there are a few more im looking forward to that shud be out in a bit. :)
Cake plans changed too.
didnt have excellent cake.
Weds - wasnt available. made up with Secret Recipe.
Thurs - didnt bother.
Fri - wasnt available again. made up with Secret Recipe. again. :p
---
finally? emo-ed today.
dont know why.
maybe its about time. theres been several weeks of up, bout time the cycle turned down?
or maybe its about the time of the month. not sure bout that yet.
but anyways.
emo-ed.
not a good feeling.
keep looking for ppl to talk to these days.
like, pick up n talk.
but anyways.
i got Breakfast at Tiffanys for him today, because you liked it,
..trying to remember which others i got for you from my head because i knew you'd like them.
accidentally found that Todays one said, hate is safer than love.
.
gonna go.
headache now.
gotta up tmr.
sigh.
s'funny how time changes things?
after all the long nagging n yelling n making me decide on everything n set what day to see who, where, when, how n everything,
after what i said Should be, this is what was. :p
Wednesday, instead of lunch, the guy says we're meeting at 2, after he has this huge brunch. so, non-existent lunch den. :p but we had cake, several, and a movie.
Thursday, instead of outing n dinner, my friend calls in the morning n says we're changing to Lunch instead! or well.. not really lunch (there was no food involved) but an afternoon outing, no dinner. And another movie. :p Also, oh yea i forgot, breakfast in the morning got cancelled. :p
Friday, not too drastic changes but 12.30pm (after all the asking n asking n everyone waiting for me to Set a time! Hmff!) becomes past 1pm? Movie time changes. Oh n going back at 6pm becomes 7.30pm, where i den had family dinner outside pop up. :p
Saturday, lunch plans got pushed to Sunday, so i gotta rest before buffet dinner. (which had excellent cheese lobster btw..)
hah!
how amusing. :)
not that i mind all the changing though. coz hopefully after everyone changed everything, nex time they'd be more accepting with my fickleness. =P
Anyways, since lunch on Sat got pushed to Sun, n i have an appointment with mum on Mon, And Dear Pah wants to go out on Tues!
That wud mean that I wud be out one straight week! Weds to Tues. haha.
tiring tho.
Oh, n to add to my already long list of movies watched recently,
this week I watched, in chronological order,
Amazing Grace - which was really rather great! walked into the theatre with zero idea of what itd be about, because at that point, id watched every other decent movie, n we just picked one randomly. N it was cool on so many levels. In itself a great show, it was also fitting for both of us, for differing reasong :p, n also, it turned out that the day we watched it, was the last day it was screened. :) How great.
Journey to the Centre of the Earth - was actually a pretty Great show! Me Must watched 3d version!! *bawls* which there was a motion master! :p
Hancock - pretty great as well. :)
Seriously, i have pretty much exhausted all the movies showing!
before this was Incredible Hulk, Made of Honour, Get Smart, Nanny Diaries (which sucked!), Kungfu Panda, Wanted, Narnia..
really. all the decent shows gone. :D n journey n hancock, good new ones only just out, but accounted for edi. :p only things left that are watchable, if i have to force it wud be, war of the dragons, n hellboy, n only bcoz theyve only just come out.
but i dont think i will bcoz ive had too much movies la.. n there are a few more im looking forward to that shud be out in a bit. :)
Cake plans changed too.
didnt have excellent cake.
Weds - wasnt available. made up with Secret Recipe.
Thurs - didnt bother.
Fri - wasnt available again. made up with Secret Recipe. again. :p
---
finally? emo-ed today.
dont know why.
maybe its about time. theres been several weeks of up, bout time the cycle turned down?
or maybe its about the time of the month. not sure bout that yet.
but anyways.
emo-ed.
not a good feeling.
keep looking for ppl to talk to these days.
like, pick up n talk.
but anyways.
i got Breakfast at Tiffanys for him today, because you liked it,
..trying to remember which others i got for you from my head because i knew you'd like them.
accidentally found that Todays one said, hate is safer than love.
.
gonna go.
headache now.
gotta up tmr.
sigh.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
thats where im going
So.
I need you~
whos 'you'?
Yea.. thats the part i havent figured out yet.
[heres where i fell asleep again.. not a new thing that. :p]
i watched Narnia online today.
so yea, that means i shud show you guys this link, movierumor
spelt without an o bcoz its an american site. them n their lousy spelling. :p
it lets you stream (or watever the word is) movies online directly.
pretty cool u know..
dont expect the best quality la. but still, can save you the trouble of downloading. :p
(which is Also a newly acquired skill on my end! Yay! *feels so smart now*) :p
:)
oh yea anyways, like i was sayin.
watched narnia online today.
n den i was emo after it ended.
blehh.
haha..
coz its all like 'why cudnt it be like this?' 'why does it have to be this way?' kinda thing you know?
haha.
n some 'poor baby' moments too. which u all Know i just love. :p
Neways, den i moved on to continuing me Westwing again!
N i'll say now, I'll totally do Josh man. ahem.
coz, Sams cute n all but thats so bandwagony (n boring). which i hate.
n anyways Josh is my kinda cute ie. not Sam.
n Also he is all complicated n injured inside.
which, as i have said countless times before, is totally wat i dig so yea.
I'd do Josh man.
ahem.
(ok that totally sounds less weird in my head. :p:p)
[n here ones again ladies and gentleman, is where i fell asleep Yet again. :p Now if my blogging puts Myself to sleep.. It must be really exciting for all of you! :p which is good coz i intend to go on n on. (if, hopefully, i dont fall asleep again.)]
Anyways, as i was saying before getting cut off by falling asleep (several days have past now.. :p),
In the last episode i watched yesterday (yes its yesterday by now..), n i watched several one after another without even pausing bcoz the last few were pretty exciting. ahem. :p
anyways, in the last episode somebody died.
Boohoo sadsad.
His name was Simon (ohhoho! Lookie! i didnt realise his name was 'simon simon' u know. :p) n he was Hot. (ahaha! Maybe its something about that name.. maybe all Simons are hot.. infact, my first ever crush (when i was 9), was a Simon himself. n he was pretty cute back den. (or so i thought. now hes just like, normal.) :p)
Anyways, This Simon, was Hot. In My kinda way yum.
N he was a secret service agent. the nice n cute n cool kind.
n ofcourse he had just fallen in like with his charge, n as his charge was just discharged (haha) from under his charge (still with me here?) they had just shared a nice kiss with promise of more to come. hoho.
N den i was like, oh shit, hes gonna die. :p
n he did.
very sad u know very sad tsktsk.
Anewhees, enough of that nonsense.
I shall move on to more important things, so i can go back to watch the Next season of westwing. (i know its finished at 7, but im just at 4 now. :p)
Some weeks theres pretty much nothing.
n den we get this week where things suddenly go crazy.
Tmr is Wednesday n I have plans for lunch.
n on Thurs its Breakfast and dinner. (separate appointments)
n den Fri we have.. probably lunch and dinner, still under negotiations.
n lastly on Sat i have another lunch appoinment, before heading for my nephews bday at a certain hotels buffet. (hmmmmmmmm)
so. in 4 days i have to meet with
1 from up North
1 who came back from Aus
1 back from UK
1 from down South
and another 1 from well.. somewhere South but not quite as far down. =P
chronologically.
and initially the way things were going, i was to meet everyone, though separately, in the same place! Hah!
(just because its in the middle of the valley n is so convenient for everyone. ;))
but since the last ammendments of the plans, it seems, Thurs will take place in 2 other places (and not the middle of the valley) n possibly Fri as well.
N yet!
Tmr is a date to have cake/s (i think we're skipping lunch to binge on cakes :p), n since
Thurs we is going to the Other Awesome Cake place, we shall have that!, n if
Fri guy decides to have the Great Choc Cakes as well we shall be doing that, n on
Sat, since its a birthday, i wanted to have them try my special choc cake that i rave so much about but cant have everyone eat the same thing so we'll probably end up in secret recipe (i'll probably get the cakes from there that is) so once again! More cake!
And at night, as ive said since its the nephew bday!
MORE CAKE!
great.
unsarcastically.
I shall be a huge balloon, or maybe even get a coronary straight.
But pls may it be at the end of the week so i atleast get to enjoy 4 days of awesome cakes.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
diediediediediewithabiggrinonmyface.
:D
s'funny the way things work. :p
oh n i havent got any presents for the birthday people yet. damm.
Deathly Hallows paperback isnt out yet.
i was thinking of getting that for my friend since shes been hogging my Deathly Hallows for the past year n i havent gotten to read it a 2nd time yet! Arghhhhh! (hahahaha)
Btw, before i end i must say,
Manchester (the Uni) sucks goddammit.
ive just sent the same email to bout.. 5 different emails.
they pushed me to this!!! (:p)
i hope they dont blacklist me man.
Dam!
i also have a story bout me and commitment but its late (4.15am) n ive to get up not too late lunchdate, n also i wud like to get some westwing in before bed So!
heres gdnight n enjoy all your cakes!
:)
P.S. oh btw, my speakers have gone n fixed themselves (:p), tho it is possible that my bro did something that worked without knowin it. :p
neways been biding my time to see if it stays permanent, but anyways, have finally transfered all my songs (but ahhhhh wait. i have not told you yet! :p well.. basically.. lets just say) from over there to over here la. =P so now i have All me songs with me.
which is a cause to celebrate except having All of them, means if i really play All of them randomly.. i will at some point (n it wont take too long) end up with some song that i probably do like, but pisses me off too. :p Im very picky bout my music. :p (as well as everything else =p)
P.P.S. I am having a cold ie running nose, so i hope all the cake n choc wont turn my cold into a flu (ahem bwahaha) by like adding a sorethroat n idunnowhatelse la. =Ppp tho that Is scientifically/medically improbably la right. =Pppp
there is a reason why i wanna date someone else in the medical field la! =P Only us med students are crazy in our crazy way!!! =P
no no it isnt just me! :D
P.P.P.S. ok i didnt mean for it to get this far but well, the cd im trying to play is not working for some reason. (dammit!) so i guess its as good a time as any to head to bed! (4.51am!) :p
also, i should note that, 3 of the 5 ppl i emailed are on leave. goddangdammit. pffft.
see someone already told me that the person i usually write to is on leave, but i sent anyways coz i heard theres someone there to take over. also, i found the alternative email which the take-over guy probably uses.
n den i send to 'someones' boss. which is when i get an automated reply to say 'boss' is not in please contact 'assistant' n so i send again to 'assistant' n den, guess what, i get an Automated reply from 'Assistant'! which says 'Assistant' is out n please contact 'assistants assistant'.
Wtf is the word man, Wtf.
hmm.
I need you~
whos 'you'?
Yea.. thats the part i havent figured out yet.
[heres where i fell asleep again.. not a new thing that. :p]
i watched Narnia online today.
so yea, that means i shud show you guys this link, movierumor
spelt without an o bcoz its an american site. them n their lousy spelling. :p
it lets you stream (or watever the word is) movies online directly.
pretty cool u know..
dont expect the best quality la. but still, can save you the trouble of downloading. :p
(which is Also a newly acquired skill on my end! Yay! *feels so smart now*) :p
:)
oh yea anyways, like i was sayin.
watched narnia online today.
n den i was emo after it ended.
blehh.
haha..
coz its all like 'why cudnt it be like this?' 'why does it have to be this way?' kinda thing you know?
haha.
n some 'poor baby' moments too. which u all Know i just love. :p
Neways, den i moved on to continuing me Westwing again!
N i'll say now, I'll totally do Josh man. ahem.
coz, Sams cute n all but thats so bandwagony (n boring). which i hate.
n anyways Josh is my kinda cute ie. not Sam.
n Also he is all complicated n injured inside.
which, as i have said countless times before, is totally wat i dig so yea.
I'd do Josh man.
ahem.
(ok that totally sounds less weird in my head. :p:p)
[n here ones again ladies and gentleman, is where i fell asleep Yet again. :p Now if my blogging puts Myself to sleep.. It must be really exciting for all of you! :p which is good coz i intend to go on n on. (if, hopefully, i dont fall asleep again.)]
Anyways, as i was saying before getting cut off by falling asleep (several days have past now.. :p),
In the last episode i watched yesterday (yes its yesterday by now..), n i watched several one after another without even pausing bcoz the last few were pretty exciting. ahem. :p
anyways, in the last episode somebody died.
Boohoo sadsad.
His name was Simon (ohhoho! Lookie! i didnt realise his name was 'simon simon' u know. :p) n he was Hot. (ahaha! Maybe its something about that name.. maybe all Simons are hot.. infact, my first ever crush (when i was 9), was a Simon himself. n he was pretty cute back den. (or so i thought. now hes just like, normal.) :p)
Anyways, This Simon, was Hot. In My kinda way yum.
N he was a secret service agent. the nice n cute n cool kind.
n ofcourse he had just fallen in like with his charge, n as his charge was just discharged (haha) from under his charge (still with me here?) they had just shared a nice kiss with promise of more to come. hoho.
N den i was like, oh shit, hes gonna die. :p
n he did.
very sad u know very sad tsktsk.
Anewhees, enough of that nonsense.
I shall move on to more important things, so i can go back to watch the Next season of westwing. (i know its finished at 7, but im just at 4 now. :p)
Some weeks theres pretty much nothing.
n den we get this week where things suddenly go crazy.
Tmr is Wednesday n I have plans for lunch.
n on Thurs its Breakfast and dinner. (separate appointments)
n den Fri we have.. probably lunch and dinner, still under negotiations.
n lastly on Sat i have another lunch appoinment, before heading for my nephews bday at a certain hotels buffet. (hmmmmmmmm)
so. in 4 days i have to meet with
1 from up North
1 who came back from Aus
1 back from UK
1 from down South
and another 1 from well.. somewhere South but not quite as far down. =P
chronologically.
and initially the way things were going, i was to meet everyone, though separately, in the same place! Hah!
(just because its in the middle of the valley n is so convenient for everyone. ;))
but since the last ammendments of the plans, it seems, Thurs will take place in 2 other places (and not the middle of the valley) n possibly Fri as well.
N yet!
Tmr is a date to have cake/s (i think we're skipping lunch to binge on cakes :p), n since
Thurs we is going to the Other Awesome Cake place, we shall have that!, n if
Fri guy decides to have the Great Choc Cakes as well we shall be doing that, n on
Sat, since its a birthday, i wanted to have them try my special choc cake that i rave so much about but cant have everyone eat the same thing so we'll probably end up in secret recipe (i'll probably get the cakes from there that is) so once again! More cake!
And at night, as ive said since its the nephew bday!
MORE CAKE!
great.
unsarcastically.
I shall be a huge balloon, or maybe even get a coronary straight.
But pls may it be at the end of the week so i atleast get to enjoy 4 days of awesome cakes.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
diediediediediewithabiggrinonmyface.
:D
s'funny the way things work. :p
oh n i havent got any presents for the birthday people yet. damm.
Deathly Hallows paperback isnt out yet.
i was thinking of getting that for my friend since shes been hogging my Deathly Hallows for the past year n i havent gotten to read it a 2nd time yet! Arghhhhh! (hahahaha)
Btw, before i end i must say,
Manchester (the Uni) sucks goddammit.
ive just sent the same email to bout.. 5 different emails.
they pushed me to this!!! (:p)
i hope they dont blacklist me man.
Dam!
i also have a story bout me and commitment but its late (4.15am) n ive to get up not too late lunchdate, n also i wud like to get some westwing in before bed So!
heres gdnight n enjoy all your cakes!
:)
P.S. oh btw, my speakers have gone n fixed themselves (:p), tho it is possible that my bro did something that worked without knowin it. :p
neways been biding my time to see if it stays permanent, but anyways, have finally transfered all my songs (but ahhhhh wait. i have not told you yet! :p well.. basically.. lets just say) from over there to over here la. =P so now i have All me songs with me.
which is a cause to celebrate except having All of them, means if i really play All of them randomly.. i will at some point (n it wont take too long) end up with some song that i probably do like, but pisses me off too. :p Im very picky bout my music. :p (as well as everything else =p)
P.P.S. I am having a cold ie running nose, so i hope all the cake n choc wont turn my cold into a flu (ahem bwahaha) by like adding a sorethroat n idunnowhatelse la. =Ppp tho that Is scientifically/medically improbably la right. =Pppp
there is a reason why i wanna date someone else in the medical field la! =P Only us med students are crazy in our crazy way!!! =P
no no it isnt just me! :D
There’s a place I go
When I’m alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I’m fallin
That’s where I’m goin
Where are you goin
Hold it close won’t let this goDream catch me, yea
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won’t come back at all
P.P.P.S. ok i didnt mean for it to get this far but well, the cd im trying to play is not working for some reason. (dammit!) so i guess its as good a time as any to head to bed! (4.51am!) :p
also, i should note that, 3 of the 5 ppl i emailed are on leave. goddangdammit. pffft.
see someone already told me that the person i usually write to is on leave, but i sent anyways coz i heard theres someone there to take over. also, i found the alternative email which the take-over guy probably uses.
n den i send to 'someones' boss. which is when i get an automated reply to say 'boss' is not in please contact 'assistant' n so i send again to 'assistant' n den, guess what, i get an Automated reply from 'Assistant'! which says 'Assistant' is out n please contact 'assistants assistant'.
Wtf is the word man, Wtf.
hmm.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Pon and Zi
Whats been going on?
...
Hey, look what i found.
Pon and Zi.
theyre a couple of emo cartoon characters and theyre cute as hell.
You really must go n have a look!
Effects best with emo personality.
(like me)
But semi emo ppl are able to appreciate it too. :)..
oni if you're all happy happy airy like some ppl i know (who are not here), then it wud be much harder to see whats so special bout this two fellas (apparently they're asexual hmm), n ud look at me all funny like i was weird or something.
Tho ofcourse some would argue that you dont have to be happy happy airy to look at me like i was weird.
some.
But, that aside, I think theyre awesome n beautiful so have a look n hopefully you can see the beauty in it too.
Do you go 'aww'?
Youtube over here for a quicker view.
tho i wud argue that for some of them you might need to look at them for a while before really getting it.
:)
This are a couple of my favourites..!! :)..
Pon is the yellow one n Zi is blue. (so you know atleast One reason why i love Pon. =) )
i thought Pon was the male n Zi the female but apparently theyre asexual. :p
no wonder it was hard to tell at some points.. :)
I Love this obviously, because Thats Me!
I'm Emo!
(just made it my desktop pic but doesnt look all that great back there.. :) )
n wont it be nice if someone would think that? (im interpreting it as a nice thing Zi is saying..)
(i have always been one to say that its awesome when ppl love someone for their apparent 'shortcomings')
poor Pons so sad... Thats me! the emo! :)
i also love that its 'ello'.. :)
This ones Awesome.. haha.. :)
Pon rocks!
n there're quite a few pretty cool lines that i can see some people i know turn around n use...
this one kinda tingled a nerve somewhere in me.. but didnt quite jar anything..
probably because while it is something that probably means alot to me in some way.. i couldnt immediately figure out how..
but then i figured its how this was something that was very important to me at one point, n i think i would have liked it more (not that i dont already) if it was an offer, as opposed to a request, to keep someone safe; 'i'll keep you safe while you sleep'.
But then, that it was Zi (who i thought was the girl) keeping Pon (the (not really) guy) safe.. that part was right..
n then i remembered how Ryan had said "stay in? so i know you're safe?".. n the way he said it too.. n how that was one of my favourite parts of the show. (OC)
tho the reason stems from above.
N thus, (because 4 is really too many n if i dont stop, the whole collection would be here..), we shall end with..
:)..
Oh yes. There really are alot of lines there you could learn..
...
Hey, look what i found.
Pon and Zi.
theyre a couple of emo cartoon characters and theyre cute as hell.
You really must go n have a look!
Effects best with emo personality.
(like me)
But semi emo ppl are able to appreciate it too. :)..
oni if you're all happy happy airy like some ppl i know (who are not here), then it wud be much harder to see whats so special bout this two fellas (apparently they're asexual hmm), n ud look at me all funny like i was weird or something.
Tho ofcourse some would argue that you dont have to be happy happy airy to look at me like i was weird.
some.
But, that aside, I think theyre awesome n beautiful so have a look n hopefully you can see the beauty in it too.
Do you go 'aww'?
Youtube over here for a quicker view.
tho i wud argue that for some of them you might need to look at them for a while before really getting it.
:)
This are a couple of my favourites..!! :)..
Pon is the yellow one n Zi is blue. (so you know atleast One reason why i love Pon. =) )
i thought Pon was the male n Zi the female but apparently theyre asexual. :p
no wonder it was hard to tell at some points.. :)
I Love this obviously, because Thats Me!
I'm Emo!
(just made it my desktop pic but doesnt look all that great back there.. :) )
n wont it be nice if someone would think that? (im interpreting it as a nice thing Zi is saying..)
(i have always been one to say that its awesome when ppl love someone for their apparent 'shortcomings')
poor Pons so sad... Thats me! the emo! :)
i also love that its 'ello'.. :)
This ones Awesome.. haha.. :)
Pon rocks!
n there're quite a few pretty cool lines that i can see some people i know turn around n use...
this one kinda tingled a nerve somewhere in me.. but didnt quite jar anything..
probably because while it is something that probably means alot to me in some way.. i couldnt immediately figure out how..
but then i figured its how this was something that was very important to me at one point, n i think i would have liked it more (not that i dont already) if it was an offer, as opposed to a request, to keep someone safe; 'i'll keep you safe while you sleep'.
But then, that it was Zi (who i thought was the girl) keeping Pon (the (not really) guy) safe.. that part was right..
n then i remembered how Ryan had said "stay in? so i know you're safe?".. n the way he said it too.. n how that was one of my favourite parts of the show. (OC)
tho the reason stems from above.
N thus, (because 4 is really too many n if i dont stop, the whole collection would be here..), we shall end with..
:)..
Oh yes. There really are alot of lines there you could learn..
Thursday, July 3, 2008
many times before
I am thinking... =/..
:(
sigh..
Somethings wrong with my speakers.
They suddenly stopped working without headphones.
Wtf.
One minute they were working n the next...
Argh.
I f*cking love my music man.
sry bout the swearing but i really love it that damn much right now.
n i think in the quest for figuring out wats wrong with my speakers,
i might have inadvertently turned up my bass.
n its pretty dam awesome now.
(either that or bcoz this is probably the first time ive started listening to this list with earphones n therefore am only just able to appreciate the finer nuances. :p..)
Im thinking... :(
i really.. dont really know.. :(
i wanna be casual n ask you about Jordan.
but, really, can I?
.......
(n den what?....)
Watching Wanted tomorrow.
but.. :(...
sigh..
i told him that i wasnt too comfortable with things because of you.
but inside i was thinking that it was actually because of him.
n den now ive realised..
in a way.. maybe it is about you.
can you believe that you still own it?
that i still let you own it.
=(...
four or five options.
the one i really want, is the one i dont want.
i dont know how or why or what.
its not because you did anything wrong.
not in the last round atleast...
its the whole story.
the old story.
the big picture....
(n the big question (n then what?..),
n the old question,
n all the questions.....)
sigh...
i wish you could hear my songs..
n my heart.
(theres something wrong with my speakers. :( )
:(
sigh..
Somethings wrong with my speakers.
They suddenly stopped working without headphones.
Wtf.
One minute they were working n the next...
Argh.
I f*cking love my music man.
sry bout the swearing but i really love it that damn much right now.
n i think in the quest for figuring out wats wrong with my speakers,
i might have inadvertently turned up my bass.
n its pretty dam awesome now.
(either that or bcoz this is probably the first time ive started listening to this list with earphones n therefore am only just able to appreciate the finer nuances. :p..)
Im thinking... :(
i really.. dont really know.. :(
i wanna be casual n ask you about Jordan.
but, really, can I?
.......
(n den what?....)
Watching Wanted tomorrow.
but.. :(...
sigh..
i told him that i wasnt too comfortable with things because of you.
but inside i was thinking that it was actually because of him.
n den now ive realised..
in a way.. maybe it is about you.
can you believe that you still own it?
that i still let you own it.
=(...
four or five options.
the one i really want, is the one i dont want.
i dont know how or why or what.
its not because you did anything wrong.
not in the last round atleast...
its the whole story.
the old story.
the big picture....
(n the big question (n then what?..),
n the old question,
n all the questions.....)
sigh...
i wish you could hear my songs..
n my heart.
(theres something wrong with my speakers. :( )
Sunday, June 29, 2008
time passes by
So, ive been staring at this draft for.. 3 days now..
(eventho it says Sunday 29 June, it is actually right now, Tuesday, 1st of July) its been kinda hard to complete la bcoz well, i started it a few hours after my last post right.. n at first it was angry.. hence,
HAH!
(eventho it says Sunday 29 June, it is actually right now, Tuesday, 1st of July) its been kinda hard to complete la bcoz well, i started it a few hours after my last post right.. n at first it was angry.. hence,
HAH!
HAR HAR HAR!!!
HAR HAR HAR HAR HAR HAR!
Well.
That shows me doesnt it.
Can i go back to being mean again?
:p
N den, two minutes in,
i realised i wasnt really Angry anymore but well..
you'll see.
N den, two minutes in,
i realised i wasnt really Angry anymore but well..
you'll see.
i knew this wud happen la.
i knew that i cant be nice bcoz everytime i am, something will happen n i'll regret it.But this was much faster,
n with a much bigger reason than i thought la.oh well.
im not sure i really care la.
(fine, i probably do.)
but really.
im not even angry/upset d la.i am just sienness n pisted.
not pissed.pisted.
i dunno what it means but it sounds fun.yay.
la-di-da.
(do you understand what four minds means now?)
heh.
ANEWeeees.
N at this point i stopped, went back home (i was out)
n had alot of things to say..
well, back to my flirting then.
Mr. Offline, n Mr. wants-to-get-in-my-pants are waiting.
so what if he only wants to get in my pants?
Am i glad ive got my own room
n haha
my new baby, whos been with me.. what.. 3 weeks now..?
n is the biggest reason why im even Sane right now! n why the days are bearable man. bcoz my baby allows me to BE in my room! Muahahahhaaa..
i Was supposed to post up pics but ofcoz, me being me.. tsk tsk.. they're all in the camera, waiting for me to do something bout it.
haha.
n see how crazy i am (more than usual la) when i get to dictate my own life!?
I didnt even sleep last night. (or anytime in the morning la, which is my night. :p)
Went to sleep at 11am. Woken up at 11.30 to go off n work. Pfft!
So its 4.20pm now n i ought to slp huh.
oh well.
N this is where i promptly fell asleep. :p
n this is what i'll say today.
--->
im not completely satisfied with what i have up there. but i'll leave it..
N because this is what they say about me (among many other things :p)
"Indecisiveness is your biggest drawback. It is a trait that often leads to delays; you spend an inordinate amount of time weighing up the pros and cons. You are most apt to postpone difficult decisions for as long as possible than face unsavoury situations."
they are quite correct ofcourse.
for the past few days, while i have seriously had this page open in one of my tabs,
mostly bcoz i cant decide what to say, or whether to blog or to watch my most excellent show, i end up hitting 'play again' over n over, on this really lame yahoo game i have been playing (which, tho lame, incidentally says 'Excellent' everytime i score well, so it is a most fitting game for me indeed!). :p
the diplomatic choice ofcourse.
the one that is neither of the two you are considering. =P
Just to simplify matters.
haha.
and this is not the first nor only time i have made choices like this in my life either. :p
i am telling you la, (not that it is related), but if ever i were faced with two guys that i had to pick between, i'll probably end up choosing a life of celibacy.
ahem.
haha.. ok no, wait.. thats not true..
s'happened twice before n thats not what i did..
haha..
but it is highly possible. :p
Anyways.
i digressed.
back to the matter at hand.
whatever man.
i am glad la.
bcoz ive realised that
i am pretty happy here la. :)
n atleast it has brought me back to some sorta, what has been referred to as Simon-mode.
(hahahaha.. :p)
but actually it is not really Simon-mode for me,
just me getting along pretty fine now.
:)
i dunno,
its like i dont even know you anymore.
n i dunno why im saying that bcoz i can understand everything that is going on.
but, its like i dont know who you are anymore.
hah.
[P.S. it is actually now, Wednesday, 2nd July, not because i delayed further but bcoz after i was done with everything above, blogger went n konked on my n i cudnt post! N i cudnt log into or open Any blogger site the whole day after that! Pfffft! But everything else is accurate. :p]
N at this point i stopped, went back home (i was out)
n had alot of things to say..
well, back to my flirting then.
Mr. Offline, n Mr. wants-to-get-in-my-pants are waiting.
so what if he only wants to get in my pants?
Am i glad ive got my own room
n haha
my new baby, whos been with me.. what.. 3 weeks now..?
n is the biggest reason why im even Sane right now! n why the days are bearable man. bcoz my baby allows me to BE in my room! Muahahahhaaa..
i Was supposed to post up pics but ofcoz, me being me.. tsk tsk.. they're all in the camera, waiting for me to do something bout it.
haha.
n see how crazy i am (more than usual la) when i get to dictate my own life!?
I didnt even sleep last night. (or anytime in the morning la, which is my night. :p)
Went to sleep at 11am. Woken up at 11.30 to go off n work. Pfft!
So its 4.20pm now n i ought to slp huh.
oh well.
N this is where i promptly fell asleep. :p
n this is what i'll say today.
--->
im not completely satisfied with what i have up there. but i'll leave it..
N because this is what they say about me (among many other things :p)
"Indecisiveness is your biggest drawback. It is a trait that often leads to delays; you spend an inordinate amount of time weighing up the pros and cons. You are most apt to postpone difficult decisions for as long as possible than face unsavoury situations."
they are quite correct ofcourse.
for the past few days, while i have seriously had this page open in one of my tabs,
mostly bcoz i cant decide what to say, or whether to blog or to watch my most excellent show, i end up hitting 'play again' over n over, on this really lame yahoo game i have been playing (which, tho lame, incidentally says 'Excellent' everytime i score well, so it is a most fitting game for me indeed!). :p
the diplomatic choice ofcourse.
the one that is neither of the two you are considering. =P
Just to simplify matters.
haha.
and this is not the first nor only time i have made choices like this in my life either. :p
i am telling you la, (not that it is related), but if ever i were faced with two guys that i had to pick between, i'll probably end up choosing a life of celibacy.
ahem.
haha.. ok no, wait.. thats not true..
s'happened twice before n thats not what i did..
haha..
but it is highly possible. :p
Anyways.
i digressed.
back to the matter at hand.
whatever man.
i am glad la.
bcoz ive realised that
i am pretty happy here la. :)
n atleast it has brought me back to some sorta, what has been referred to as Simon-mode.
(hahahaha.. :p)
but actually it is not really Simon-mode for me,
just me getting along pretty fine now.
:)
i dunno,
its like i dont even know you anymore.
n i dunno why im saying that bcoz i can understand everything that is going on.
but, its like i dont know who you are anymore.
hah.
[P.S. it is actually now, Wednesday, 2nd July, not because i delayed further but bcoz after i was done with everything above, blogger went n konked on my n i cudnt post! N i cudnt log into or open Any blogger site the whole day after that! Pfffft! But everything else is accurate. :p]
heres looking at you kid
知道我今天看着你多久吗？
哈。。
啊，是。。我承认，还爱着你。。该说声对不起吧。
可是，难道我爱你，有错吗？
不是我的错。。可是，同时，你不爱我，也不是你的错。。
不是我不知道。 感情的事嘛。。咳，控制不了的，不是吗。。
想着你。想知道你还好吗。。
你以为我会不想你吗？。。哈哈。。
你，心里，应该知道是不可能的吧。
不是我炫耀。。
你，应该知道吧，爱你，想你，一定会是我对你比你对我多的。。
对不起。
不想要你。。不舒服。
为什么我们不能正常地，象以前一样。。。
可是老实说。。。我们。。应该没有正常过吧。。咳。。。
算了吧。
心情好了。。
想你。。
想要你好。。。
对不起。
请保重。。好吗？。。
请你明白。。不是我不要放下。。
真的不是。。
是我还放不下。。请你原谅。。
你不是没体会过的。。
wish that you could 'care' about me.. the way you should..
咳，我也不知道我们会怎么样，能怎么样。。
亲爱的。。
真心祝福你。。
（对不起，请你不要因我说的话，我的心情，而不高兴。。）
我心里的话。。。
不说你也应该明白吧。。
*hugs...*
(dont come..)
>> i dont want to be the one to admit that..., i hate saying this..., that, even from the pictures.. we were never meant to be...
哈。。
啊，是。。我承认，还爱着你。。该说声对不起吧。
可是，难道我爱你，有错吗？
不是我的错。。可是，同时，你不爱我，也不是你的错。。
不是我不知道。 感情的事嘛。。咳，控制不了的，不是吗。。
想着你。想知道你还好吗。。
你以为我会不想你吗？。。哈哈。。
你，心里，应该知道是不可能的吧。
不是我炫耀。。
你，应该知道吧，爱你，想你，一定会是我对你比你对我多的。。
对不起。
不想要你。。不舒服。
为什么我们不能正常地，象以前一样。。。
可是老实说。。。我们。。应该没有正常过吧。。咳。。。
算了吧。
心情好了。。
想你。。
想要你好。。。
对不起。
请保重。。好吗？。。
请你明白。。不是我不要放下。。
真的不是。。
是我还放不下。。请你原谅。。
你不是没体会过的。。
wish that you could 'care' about me.. the way you should..
咳，我也不知道我们会怎么样，能怎么样。。
亲爱的。。
真心祝福你。。
（对不起，请你不要因我说的话，我的心情，而不高兴。。）
我心里的话。。。
不说你也应该明白吧。。
*hugs...*
(dont come..)
>> i dont want to be the one to admit that..., i hate saying this..., that, even from the pictures.. we were never meant to be...
Friday, June 27, 2008
youre a lonely soul
Say (All I Need) - One Republic
Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it
---
its playing on the sidebar.
P.S. shit Bloody hell i just got a called from somebodys mum. wtF that was awkward dammitdammitdammittttttttttttttttttt haha shit arghhhhh. fffft.
Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it
---
its playing on the sidebar.
P.S. shit Bloody hell i just got a called from somebodys mum. wtF that was awkward dammitdammitdammittttttttttttttttttt haha shit arghhhhh. fffft.
love affair with your dust
Hi.
Its 9.18am n i havent slept yet.
(so obviously i wont be going out with u la Pah =/)
I think when i stay up for long hours till morning (like really really morning, 7-9am morning, 4am is not counted, thats normal. :p), many times its bcoz theres something i wanna blog about, but i cant really find the words.
Like this night.
theres some stuff that i would like to make a record of,
but i cant find the right words..
cant find the right way to put it,
it just sounds very blah now in my head..
But oh well.
S'not like i can stay up much long.
(dam, im already starting to get hungry. bah. n ppl are up downstairs so i cant go steal food. bah.)
so yea, obviously i wont be doing that (blogging).
but, we'll see.
-
wow..
i never knew..
those words that you have up there..
hah! i never knew they were about mine..
hilarious.. bcoz.. dyu know..
everytime i head over there n see those things..
i get so upset and jealous! jealous!
bcoz your words would always remind me of, what i gave you, but i thought that it wasnt mine, n so i was jealous.
(jealous that you pick something that was so like mine, but not mine, to be up there..)
n upset. to the point that i even dislike heading to a certain strangers blog, bcoz of similar things that are there. (no offense meant to the blogger or blog, which i actually like, theres just something im personally sensitive about.)
dyu know that i actually hated your words...
haha..
so today, when i finally found mine again, n then it suddenly hit me.
the words, your words..
it was mine.
haha. yes i could laugh.
how silly..
sigh..
i love you too...
sigh
so that was one good thing
..
and another wud be being appreciated by some people..
n the conversations you can have..
do you see me like he does..
did you / will you ..?
like he thinks he does.. he doesnt really though..
sigh..
why cant we be normal?
n reading blogs (in chinese) that make me feel..
＂乖啦，别哭。。＂
我好想你。。咳。。
n bad things would be reading bout the juniors ta pau-ing the exams, tho they dont know it yet..
n getting all pissed off,
bcoz i feel so incompetent, n stupid, n useless. ARGH.
sigh. n you've moved on from it bcoz you can..
but i cant yet.
n if i continue to be useless, then i wont ever be able to.
bah.
*thinks choc cake*
oh n.. i just realised today..
Man.. i forgot my blogs birthday!
9 days ago, 4 year anniversary!
Wow..
its been long..
so the cake i posted yest shall be for you ok baby? :p
n when i go have it (which shall be SOON bcoz PAH has ordered it to be so! :p)
it shall be in your honour ok?
hahahaa..
have to bed now before i die.
...
nites.
Its 9.18am n i havent slept yet.
(so obviously i wont be going out with u la Pah =/)
I think when i stay up for long hours till morning (like really really morning, 7-9am morning, 4am is not counted, thats normal. :p), many times its bcoz theres something i wanna blog about, but i cant really find the words.
Like this night.
theres some stuff that i would like to make a record of,
but i cant find the right words..
cant find the right way to put it,
it just sounds very blah now in my head..
But oh well.
S'not like i can stay up much long.
(dam, im already starting to get hungry. bah. n ppl are up downstairs so i cant go steal food. bah.)
so yea, obviously i wont be doing that (blogging).
but, we'll see.
-
wow..
i never knew..
those words that you have up there..
hah! i never knew they were about mine..
hilarious.. bcoz.. dyu know..
everytime i head over there n see those things..
i get so upset and jealous! jealous!
bcoz your words would always remind me of, what i gave you, but i thought that it wasnt mine, n so i was jealous.
(jealous that you pick something that was so like mine, but not mine, to be up there..)
n upset. to the point that i even dislike heading to a certain strangers blog, bcoz of similar things that are there. (no offense meant to the blogger or blog, which i actually like, theres just something im personally sensitive about.)
dyu know that i actually hated your words...
haha..
so today, when i finally found mine again, n then it suddenly hit me.
the words, your words..
it was mine.
haha. yes i could laugh.
how silly..
sigh..
i love you too...
sigh
so that was one good thing
..
and another wud be being appreciated by some people..
n the conversations you can have..
do you see me like he does..
did you / will you ..?
like he thinks he does.. he doesnt really though..
sigh..
why cant we be normal?
n reading blogs (in chinese) that make me feel..
＂乖啦，别哭。。＂
我好想你。。咳。。
n bad things would be reading bout the juniors ta pau-ing the exams, tho they dont know it yet..
n getting all pissed off,
bcoz i feel so incompetent, n stupid, n useless. ARGH.
sigh. n you've moved on from it bcoz you can..
but i cant yet.
n if i continue to be useless, then i wont ever be able to.
bah.
*thinks choc cake*
oh n.. i just realised today..
Man.. i forgot my blogs birthday!
9 days ago, 4 year anniversary!
Wow..
its been long..
so the cake i posted yest shall be for you ok baby? :p
n when i go have it (which shall be SOON bcoz PAH has ordered it to be so! :p)
it shall be in your honour ok?
hahahaa..
have to bed now before i die.
...
nites.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I need you now~~~
Faaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!
ARGH! OMG i Cant stand it!!!
oh i have found my soulmate.. my love...
Baby! I need to have you now!!!
I Must have you nowwww!!!
there is nothing else left for me in this world...
Baby, if i cant have you..
oh the pain that feels me up inside.. (think stomach yearning :p)
I shall die!!!
but a quick n lonely.. n sad sad sad death..
without you~~~
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
Do not elude me my love!
My heart (or stomach) cries out for you~~!
No! I swear! I shall not be able to stand it!
Come to me~
oh, Wait for me...
One day.. one day soon (PAH WE ARE GOING TO 1U TO HAVE THAT CAKE GAHHH!!!)
we shall be together....
n den my life will be complete...
(you, on the other hand, will be dead n swimming in my stomach, but that is not important now.)
P.S. n If it disappoints.. as it very well might bcoz it is a pretty picture but they dont always end well.. these love stories.. sniff.. :p But If that happens, there is always still the Moist choc cake at Alexis at the Gardens!! Which i (also) Love n Ache for n if ever i am disappointed by any of its kind (other, lesser, chocolates :p:p) It shall be the one to redeem the dignity n integrity of its fellow brothers... Ahhhhhhhh~~~
P.P.S. the pic links to the blog that reviewed it!
oh i have found my soulmate.. my love...
Baby! I need to have you now!!!
I Must have you nowwww!!!
there is nothing else left for me in this world...
Baby, if i cant have you..
oh the pain that feels me up inside.. (think stomach yearning :p)
I shall die!!!
but a quick n lonely.. n sad sad sad death..
without you~~~
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
Do not elude me my love!
My heart (or stomach) cries out for you~~!
No! I swear! I shall not be able to stand it!
Come to me~
oh, Wait for me...
One day.. one day soon (PAH WE ARE GOING TO 1U TO HAVE THAT CAKE GAHHH!!!)
we shall be together....
n den my life will be complete...
(you, on the other hand, will be dead n swimming in my stomach, but that is not important now.)
P.S. n If it disappoints.. as it very well might bcoz it is a pretty picture but they dont always end well.. these love stories.. sniff.. :p But If that happens, there is always still the Moist choc cake at Alexis at the Gardens!! Which i (also) Love n Ache for n if ever i am disappointed by any of its kind (other, lesser, chocolates :p:p) It shall be the one to redeem the dignity n integrity of its fellow brothers... Ahhhhhhhh~~~
P.P.S. the pic links to the blog that reviewed it!
Monday, June 23, 2008
whos a dumbbell
Today was the day for the dumbbell idea...
n very possibly that it happened around midnight too..
which is most interesting / ironic / funny hor..
something lidat la.. :p
hehheh.
oh well.
not a good one to remember but
oh well what can we do.
This ones too early but we'll see anyways. Who knows whats gonna happen.
wait let me count...
oh holy shit!
Do my ideas all happen around the same time?!?!
What the...
Why oh Why!?
hah!
u can look back..
apparently this year chrismas came 2 days earlier.. :p
(altho, arguably, it might not have been the exact date)
ladida.
we'll see.
might be a dumbell idea afterall.
sigh.
n very possibly that it happened around midnight too..
which is most interesting / ironic / funny hor..
something lidat la.. :p
hehheh.
oh well.
not a good one to remember but
oh well what can we do.
This ones too early but we'll see anyways. Who knows whats gonna happen.
wait let me count...
oh holy shit!
Do my ideas all happen around the same time?!?!
What the...
Why oh Why!?
hah!
u can look back..
apparently this year chrismas came 2 days earlier.. :p
(altho, arguably, it might not have been the exact date)
ladida.
we'll see.
might be a dumbell idea afterall.
sigh.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
never went away
I was away longer than i expected.
but i am back n it hasnt been forever.
There isnt just, not even just two sides in my head.
there are, i dunno, four parties arguing.
Can you believe it?
that i remember your dates, but i didnt remember mine.
When was mine? There was one last Sunday. I didnt realise it.
there was one, the past Wednesday. but i didnt think about it.
There'll probably be one.. sometime maybe next Tuesday or Wednesday? would you like me to check?
but that doesnt come before yours does it. No.
So can you believe it?
It wasnt even something i carved into my mind.
But i realised ive always known it.
Ive had it, all the time, floating around my head, for the past year.
Ive always had it.
Long enough dyu think?
Since our day is over.
Isit over though?
So, of the many sides that could be said.
maybe one of them would be that, maybe my last round was.. too much in a way.
in a way.
but it was a weak moment,
n i meant it.
n whatever it was
atleast it set me free.
for this cycle.
once i drop the ball. n left it for you.
i was set free.
even if it were just for this months cycle.
even if im about due for a down cycle.
atleast i have been doing good.
coz there we have you failing again.
thats what i say.
i know what you want. you want what we have.
Well, what happened there 'Best friend'?
what happened indeed.
today is another day she says she loves you.
maybe im glad i spent the week away.
what if?
but yours went away didnt it.
lost behind
words you could never find.
i have mine right with me.
today is another day she loves you.
baby.
but i am back n it hasnt been forever.
There isnt just, not even just two sides in my head.
there are, i dunno, four parties arguing.
Can you believe it?
that i remember your dates, but i didnt remember mine.
When was mine? There was one last Sunday. I didnt realise it.
there was one, the past Wednesday. but i didnt think about it.
There'll probably be one.. sometime maybe next Tuesday or Wednesday? would you like me to check?
but that doesnt come before yours does it. No.
So can you believe it?
It wasnt even something i carved into my mind.
But i realised ive always known it.
Ive had it, all the time, floating around my head, for the past year.
Ive always had it.
Long enough dyu think?
Since our day is over.
Isit over though?
So, of the many sides that could be said.
maybe one of them would be that, maybe my last round was.. too much in a way.
in a way.
but it was a weak moment,
n i meant it.
n whatever it was
atleast it set me free.
for this cycle.
once i drop the ball. n left it for you.
i was set free.
even if it were just for this months cycle.
even if im about due for a down cycle.
atleast i have been doing good.
coz there we have you failing again.
thats what i say.
i know what you want. you want what we have.
Well, what happened there 'Best friend'?
what happened indeed.
today is another day she says she loves you.
maybe im glad i spent the week away.
what if?
but yours went away didnt it.
lost behind
words you could never find.
i have mine right with me.
today is another day she loves you.
baby.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
of busted balls
i cried.
someone died. (in a show)
someone was mad at God.
someone put out a cigarette in church.
someone got slapped by their father.
he was a beautiful boy.
he was a beautiful boy.
-
i have always thought..
i cant pin point where i know these things but
from my knowledge of these things..
from the conversations ive had with friends (guys) about this..
from maybe, the pictures of anatomy we have in classes, i dunno.
from a certain friend hanging certain dices (is tat a double plural) in his car, the left one lower than the right... :p
that the left testicle (for men obviously, bcoz women dont have testicles) is always lower than the right.
so i was quite surprised today
when i get this from Oprah ok..
there was this Mens section with a doc this afternoon.
n he asks the audience (men), who has their penises (which is the correct plural for penis, as opposed to penii) bend to the left, and who has them bend to the right.
his explanation being that the guys penis would bend to the direction, where the corresponding testicle was hanging lower than the other. because it would give it room to go to or something.
anyways.
that meant, n since there were also raised hands for both sides, that the left testicle is not always lower than the right. n that some men have their right testicle lower than the left instead.
ahem.
well yes.
quite surprised.
see, how could my assumption have been wrong all this while.
why would i have had such an assumption so surely in my head if it were not true?
n after conversations with guys themselves who did assure me that they had the same idea.
hmmm.
Well off to wiki it is then, for where else can you get accurate information. haha. (incidentally at the time that i was at wiki, the article for 'erection' had been vandalised and then said 'i eat d*** in your *insert relationship*'s *insert female reproductive organ*. ahem indeed.)
anyways.
on wiki, i finally found my answer.
ahh how wise wiki is indeed.
apparently it is something like 85% of men, that have their left testicle hanging lower than their right.
which explains both that, no indeed, not all men have a lower left testicle, but also that the reason why we thought it was that was because Most men have lower left testicles but it is not abnormal to have a lower right testicle.
aha.
enlightened i am indeed.
me : well, you learn something new everyday huh.
him : yes, n today it was testicles.
haha.
yes, n i also learned that some men dont know which of their testicles hang lower. or that one hangs lower than the other. or that there were men/guys who would find it odd or even gay that they examine their testicles in the shower. -_-" which is, by the way, what boys/men from 15yrs onwards are adviced to do, just like women are adviced to perform breast self examinations. (but no thats not odd because, n this is according to this guy, "breast are right there on your chests! my testicles are hidden between my legs n it take effort to examine them Eww!" Hahahahaa.. what interesting information indeed.
what an informative day it was indeed.
whatever will i learn tomorrow.
someone died. (in a show)
someone was mad at God.
someone put out a cigarette in church.
someone got slapped by their father.
he was a beautiful boy.
he was a beautiful boy.
-
i have always thought..
i cant pin point where i know these things but
from my knowledge of these things..
from the conversations ive had with friends (guys) about this..
from maybe, the pictures of anatomy we have in classes, i dunno.
from a certain friend hanging certain dices (is tat a double plural) in his car, the left one lower than the right... :p
that the left testicle (for men obviously, bcoz women dont have testicles) is always lower than the right.
so i was quite surprised today
when i get this from Oprah ok..
there was this Mens section with a doc this afternoon.
n he asks the audience (men), who has their penises (which is the correct plural for penis, as opposed to penii) bend to the left, and who has them bend to the right.
his explanation being that the guys penis would bend to the direction, where the corresponding testicle was hanging lower than the other. because it would give it room to go to or something.
anyways.
that meant, n since there were also raised hands for both sides, that the left testicle is not always lower than the right. n that some men have their right testicle lower than the left instead.
ahem.
well yes.
quite surprised.
see, how could my assumption have been wrong all this while.
why would i have had such an assumption so surely in my head if it were not true?
n after conversations with guys themselves who did assure me that they had the same idea.
hmmm.
Well off to wiki it is then, for where else can you get accurate information. haha. (incidentally at the time that i was at wiki, the article for 'erection' had been vandalised and then said 'i eat d*** in your *insert relationship*'s *insert female reproductive organ*. ahem indeed.)
anyways.
on wiki, i finally found my answer.
ahh how wise wiki is indeed.
apparently it is something like 85% of men, that have their left testicle hanging lower than their right.
which explains both that, no indeed, not all men have a lower left testicle, but also that the reason why we thought it was that was because Most men have lower left testicles but it is not abnormal to have a lower right testicle.
aha.
enlightened i am indeed.
me : well, you learn something new everyday huh.
him : yes, n today it was testicles.
haha.
yes, n i also learned that some men dont know which of their testicles hang lower. or that one hangs lower than the other. or that there were men/guys who would find it odd or even gay that they examine their testicles in the shower. -_-" which is, by the way, what boys/men from 15yrs onwards are adviced to do, just like women are adviced to perform breast self examinations. (but no thats not odd because, n this is according to this guy, "breast are right there on your chests! my testicles are hidden between my legs n it take effort to examine them Eww!" Hahahahaa.. what interesting information indeed.
what an informative day it was indeed.
whatever will i learn tomorrow.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
down the line
Nothing tastes as good without rice.
even my favourite stew (or was it soup.. hmm too soupy for stew, too stewy for soup. --> soupy stew (or stewy soup :p) ) was disappointingly un-great until i realised i had to add rice!
Den voila! Yummy~ :p
Midnight snack. (which means something i ate at 5am instead of at 12. :p)
I love sandwiches too! :p
(what the hell do you think you're gonna accomplish by ignoring me.)
I have been pretty much living in my room for the past couple weeks or so.
bcoz i have everything i need in here. ahh..
except food ofcourse.
(n den locked in my room for the past week.
bcoz there is nothing outside for me.)
So it is Most great when i can have my food on my bed!
Like room service! (except i did the servicing myself ofcourse, n no one gets paid. :p)
happiness.
(did u know that bones left out in the cold, dry n shrivel up... hmmm.. :p)
Traveling again nex few days. :)
this is goodbye note. :p
Thankfully i'll have comp, shows, book, games, almost everything i need, to occupy me.
So all yous take cares n tas!
(P.S. oh... i didnt realise it meant you too.. =/ )
even my favourite stew (or was it soup.. hmm too soupy for stew, too stewy for soup. --> soupy stew (or stewy soup :p) ) was disappointingly un-great until i realised i had to add rice!
Den voila! Yummy~ :p
Midnight snack. (which means something i ate at 5am instead of at 12. :p)
I love sandwiches too! :p
(what the hell do you think you're gonna accomplish by ignoring me.)
I have been pretty much living in my room for the past couple weeks or so.
bcoz i have everything i need in here. ahh..
except food ofcourse.
(n den locked in my room for the past week.
bcoz there is nothing outside for me.)
So it is Most great when i can have my food on my bed!
Like room service! (except i did the servicing myself ofcourse, n no one gets paid. :p)
happiness.
(did u know that bones left out in the cold, dry n shrivel up... hmmm.. :p)
Traveling again nex few days. :)
this is goodbye note. :p
Thankfully i'll have comp, shows, book, games, almost everything i need, to occupy me.
So all yous take cares n tas!
(P.S. oh... i didnt realise it meant you too.. =/ )
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
i hate you.
you shouldnt get to do that to me.
wield your power like i have to cower in front of you.
i hate you.
this is not a dictatorship.
i deserve better.
i deserve better than your damn pride.
dammit
you pick on the wrong goddamn things.
you pick the right fights n i have nothing to say.
i admit them, if only in my head.
but you dont.
you pick on the stupidest goddamn things like you're a little kid.
thats how you act.
like a damn kid.
i wish i didnt have to tell you to grow up.
i wish you didnt hurt me.
you shouldnt get to do that to me.
wield your power like i have to cower in front of you.
i hate you.
this is not a dictatorship.
i deserve better.
i deserve better than your damn pride.
dammit
you pick on the wrong goddamn things.
you pick the right fights n i have nothing to say.
i admit them, if only in my head.
but you dont.
you pick on the stupidest goddamn things like you're a little kid.
thats how you act.
like a damn kid.
i wish i didnt have to tell you to grow up.
i wish you didnt hurt me.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
torn apart
You make me miserable.
god i hate you.
enough of this nonsense, im 22!
i shouldnt be feeling like a stupid 16 yr old who wants to run away.
goddamn it..
forget the being happy now
ure just gonna screw up my damn week now oh i know.
well thank god i have my room n my entertainment
so i guess ill just havta stay inside n rot.
there're doors, there're windows, thankfully theres no way to hurt myself in here.
n Now im freaking hungry but now we know i'll havta screw that n starve.
i hope you get your freaking kick out of it this week.
coz, got knows it has already broken me.
-
n if i told you, what would you say?
somehow i think, you'd have nothing.
i had you on a pedestal.
what would you know about saving me.
(n yet its still you i dream of.)
god i hate you.
enough of this nonsense, im 22!
i shouldnt be feeling like a stupid 16 yr old who wants to run away.
goddamn it..
forget the being happy now
ure just gonna screw up my damn week now oh i know.
well thank god i have my room n my entertainment
so i guess ill just havta stay inside n rot.
there're doors, there're windows, thankfully theres no way to hurt myself in here.
n Now im freaking hungry but now we know i'll havta screw that n starve.
i hope you get your freaking kick out of it this week.
coz, got knows it has already broken me.
-
n if i told you, what would you say?
somehow i think, you'd have nothing.
i had you on a pedestal.
what would you know about saving me.
(n yet its still you i dream of.)
intermission
I havent been writing alot.
i mean, I havent been writing here, n
i havent been writing to people im supposed to write to. (which is quite a few actually..)
(eventho actually, a couple nights ago i Did write something here, only, half way thru i kinda fell asleep. like, really.)
N its abit odd bcoz id say i havent written here bcoz ive been happy,
n yet i havent written to people bcoz im moody.
so.
complicated.
But anyways, i am not writing. (just like i said)
I am gonna go to sleep now, until somebody wakes me up.
(which unfortunately for me will not be many hours from now.)
ah dang..
Gd nights tho.
n i'll leave you with this.
It is a song called Wood, by Second Person.
bcoz i think someone might like it.
i mean, I havent been writing here, n
i havent been writing to people im supposed to write to. (which is quite a few actually..)
(eventho actually, a couple nights ago i Did write something here, only, half way thru i kinda fell asleep. like, really.)
N its abit odd bcoz id say i havent written here bcoz ive been happy,
n yet i havent written to people bcoz im moody.
so.
complicated.
But anyways, i am not writing. (just like i said)
I am gonna go to sleep now, until somebody wakes me up.
(which unfortunately for me will not be many hours from now.)
ah dang..
Gd nights tho.
n i'll leave you with this.
It is a song called Wood, by Second Person.
bcoz i think someone might like it.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
secret
is back. clearly.
is lazy. clearly.
is hungry.
but is scared to go downstairs for food where there are people.
is remembered the nice chocos she has in fridge, downstair,
and is also suddenly overcome with craving for said chocos.. sniff..
is sleepy.
is been feeling like a rotting vegetable. hmm.
is finding that there are very few things to do online.
is falling asleep now. hmmmm..
ta!
P.S. ppl downstairs are gone now so is able to go downstairs for chocs! but on second thought.. maybe having chocs jus before bed is not the bestest idea for the teeth huh..
is lazy. clearly.
is hungry.
but is scared to go downstairs for food where there are people.
is remembered the nice chocos she has in fridge, downstair,
and is also suddenly overcome with craving for said chocos.. sniff..
is been feeling like a rotting vegetable. hmm.
is finding that there are very few things to do online.
is falling asleep now. hmmmm..
ta!
P.S. ppl downstairs are gone now so is able to go downstairs for chocs! but on second thought.. maybe having chocs jus before bed is not the bestest idea for the teeth huh..
Friday, May 30, 2008
oh joy
Hello!
Ah.......
Today has been a Most Excellent day!! :D
n i really want to tell you ALL about it.. haha..
BUT!
but.. its 6am now.. n ive to be up in.. Bah 3hrs.. :'(
n get ready n all for 5 hr drive up north.
n i'll be doing the driving too. which sucks balls man.
ah well.
this is me telling u that i wont be around for nex few days aight? =P
So you'll Juss hav to wait till den to hear All bout my most excellent day..
n Hopefully.. i'll actually finish the story this time..
haha.. :)
n heres a hint : it involves a most excellent show (yes, that does seem to be my new favourite word.. haha), some cute guys for eye candy, n something really Really yellow!!! ha ha ha.
Now u see why i is ALL the happiness! wheee!
:)
Ta!
(off to the beach with the lil baby niece!! :D)
Ah.......
Today has been a Most Excellent day!! :D
n i really want to tell you ALL about it.. haha..
BUT!
but.. its 6am now.. n ive to be up in.. Bah 3hrs.. :'(
n get ready n all for 5 hr drive up north.
n i'll be doing the driving too. which sucks balls man.
ah well.
this is me telling u that i wont be around for nex few days aight? =P
So you'll Juss hav to wait till den to hear All bout my most excellent day..
n Hopefully.. i'll actually finish the story this time..
haha.. :)
n heres a hint : it involves a most excellent show (yes, that does seem to be my new favourite word.. haha), some cute guys for eye candy, n something really Really yellow!!! ha ha ha.
Now u see why i is ALL the happiness! wheee!
:)
Ta!
(off to the beach with the lil baby niece!! :D)
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
the blood in your veins
I cant find the words to express how i am feeling right now..
about the many things going on..
this is not an emo post like normal,
this is past the common kind of emo..
not the little matters of the broken heart..
(that might seem trivial to this)
but the heart that bleeds for the lack of what was supposed to be unconditional love..
eventho i fixed it by finding a way to force you into a situation where you cant carry on with your petty games..
still..
the fact that you did it..
that you will continue to do it always..
the harsh tones of your voice..
the look i can imagine on your face
avoiding me..
and only last night you were talking to someone else about petty people n jealousy..
why then cant you be a lil more mature in our lives..
n you, the one who is supposed to be the adult here.
all these things just tell me that you cant love me very much
for i could never hold out on it, on people that i love..
try me, talk to me and i give you what you want.
i hate growing up n finding out this is how you feel about me.
i hate growing up n knowing that you shouldnt be this way.
i hate growing up n realising that im the only one you cud do this to.
i hate growing up n understanding that i could never think the best of you..
but i have to love you anyways.
n i do.
but do you?
you make me feel like theres nothing for me to live for
when i cant even count on your love.
you have broken, the last bit of my broken heart, that was supposed to be held whole by your love.
this is the depression that you have left me to swim through these last few days..
eventho i am sure it must have been merely a game to you..
but this is what it means to me, when you play it so lightly..
that i can never love you wholely
that i can never count on you, turn to you, run back to you.
that i shall never love you like i am ready to love another
n you have never known me, nor shall you ever know me, like some have, or will..
tho that right was yours to begin with..
n i shall never know you, or love you,
as i can another.
this is why, i run away, to find love in somebody else.
about the many things going on..
this is not an emo post like normal,
this is past the common kind of emo..
not the little matters of the broken heart..
(that might seem trivial to this)
but the heart that bleeds for the lack of what was supposed to be unconditional love..
eventho i fixed it by finding a way to force you into a situation where you cant carry on with your petty games..
still..
the fact that you did it..
that you will continue to do it always..
the harsh tones of your voice..
the look i can imagine on your face
avoiding me..
and only last night you were talking to someone else about petty people n jealousy..
why then cant you be a lil more mature in our lives..
n you, the one who is supposed to be the adult here.
all these things just tell me that you cant love me very much
for i could never hold out on it, on people that i love..
try me, talk to me and i give you what you want.
i hate growing up n finding out this is how you feel about me.
i hate growing up n knowing that you shouldnt be this way.
i hate growing up n realising that im the only one you cud do this to.
i hate growing up n understanding that i could never think the best of you..
but i have to love you anyways.
n i do.
but do you?
you make me feel like theres nothing for me to live for
when i cant even count on your love.
you have broken, the last bit of my broken heart, that was supposed to be held whole by your love.
this is the depression that you have left me to swim through these last few days..
eventho i am sure it must have been merely a game to you..
but this is what it means to me, when you play it so lightly..
that i can never love you wholely
that i can never count on you, turn to you, run back to you.
that i shall never love you like i am ready to love another
n you have never known me, nor shall you ever know me, like some have, or will..
tho that right was yours to begin with..
n i shall never know you, or love you,
as i can another.
this is why, i run away, to find love in somebody else.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
when you lose something you cant replace
='(..
i know i shudn't..
but i am..
='(
how?.. :(
sighh..
what if i..?
will it be wrong..?
i just wanna.....
:(
sigh..
ARGH!!!
i canNot wait.
for some things to come,
for some things to end.
...
i am so on the edge..
on the very verge of doing things i shudnt..
if any one lil thing were to go wrongly
i just might make the old mistake..
haih..
its all his fault.
him n all his talking.
n all his reminding me of everything
that is exactly like what hes been having.
but i cant say anything,
bcoz, bcoz of him,
i know how annoying it is.
(not to mention stupid)
bleh.
i shall think this way :
What Could i say..
sigh.
i know i shudn't..
but i am..
='(
how?.. :(
sighh..
what if i..?
will it be wrong..?
i just wanna.....
:(
sigh..
ARGH!!!
i canNot wait.
for some things to come,
for some things to end.
...
i am so on the edge..
on the very verge of doing things i shudnt..
if any one lil thing were to go wrongly
i just might make the old mistake..
haih..
its all his fault.
him n all his talking.
n all his reminding me of everything
that is exactly like what hes been having.
but i cant say anything,
bcoz, bcoz of him,
i know how annoying it is.
(not to mention stupid)
bleh.
i shall think this way :
What Could i say..
sigh.
N for distractions sake,
Brad Pitt is So the hotness.
psssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...
Brad Pitt is So the hotness.
psssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...
What does it mean?
where my heart is..?
where my heart is..?
Saturday, May 24, 2008
same soul
Was emo-ing.
now im just moody.
coz the boredom doesnt help.
-
I wonder if you're all dressed up for the show.
dam %@$&@#^$. (<--coz im all bitter)
sigh.
all the times i've lost.
...
I know you must be all happy n pleased n proud.
but its hurting on this end.
for all the many reasons.
You, being the greatest.
see, the difference between me n him..
i know i dont measure up.
i know there will be a hundred more as willing as i.
as i still am.
-
so what can i say?
what need i say?
when nothings changed.
nothing on my end,
but everything on yours.
now im just moody.
coz the boredom doesnt help.
-
I wonder if you're all dressed up for the show.
dam %@$&@#^$. (<--coz im all bitter)
sigh.
all the times i've lost.
...
I know you must be all happy n pleased n proud.
but its hurting on this end.
for all the many reasons.
You, being the greatest.
and its you when i look in the mirror,
n its you that makes it hard to let go..
n its you that makes it hard to let go..
see, the difference between me n him..
i know i dont measure up.
i know there will be a hundred more as willing as i.
as i still am.
-
so what can i say?
what need i say?
when nothings changed.
nothing on my end,
but everything on yours.
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes You Cant Make It On Your Own - U2
Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...
Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
so im faking it.
Sometimes You Cant Make It On Your Own - U2
Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...
Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
-
Got tickets to the theatre on Thursday.
actual theatre, not movie theatre.
which is so cool. except that i hate musicals. -_-"
Den travelling on Fri.
-
smiles
happiness
dressrobes
a singular arm
the dark night
flowers
pretty things
why me?
-
sighh
forget it
just, take care ok?
Got tickets to the theatre on Thursday.
actual theatre, not movie theatre.
which is so cool. except that i hate musicals. -_-"
Den travelling on Fri.
-
smiles
happiness
dressrobes
a singular arm
the dark night
flowers
pretty things
why me?
-
sighh
forget it
just, take care ok?
If only you were here.. Id have so much for you..~
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