the new stupidity

wat m i doin here

bloggin

surfin

readin

i.e. NOT studyin


fuck

...
no wait. i didnt mean tat.

fuck off

yes. tats it.

dont leave..

I Could Not Ask For More Lyrics

by Edwin McCain

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

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seems to tap into my past, somewhere..
no idea..

heard this song from long ago..

means something doesnt it..

the words are..nice.. ideal..

u know? songs are cheats..
its not fair..
u can put everything nice and perfect in them..
but things tat dont neccessarily exist..

just like how books have the upper hand of controlling the outcome..
n movies where the cops always only turn up after everythings done.. (actually this i dunno why i added here.. hehee...)
n fairy tales tat end at marriage.. =P

hate them all.. =P

Almost here

Almost Here Lyrics

by Brian McFadden and Delta Goodrem

Guy: Did I hear you right
'Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason

Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

Girl: But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

Guy: I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me

Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Both: Bruised and battered by your words
     Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Guy: Haven't I always loved you

Girl: But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

Both: Bruised and battered by your words
     Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Guy: Haven't I always loved you

Girl: But when I need you, you're almost here
Guy: (Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you)
Girl: And when I hold you, you're almost here
Guy: (Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted)
Both: (Now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
Guy: 'Cause I know I'm almost here)
Both: Only almost here

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hurts..

last day of coll..

I blog more during exams den i do during hols. =P
Much more better things to do during hols..
haha...
N exams?! Jus trying to get away from it all.

But exams havnt started yet..
Jus a few days more..
No stress yet..
sigh..
Not good..
Cant believe i still cant study..

Anyways..

Its the last day of college..
The very very last day..
Sure theres still the exam period but.. exams.. gonna be too busy for anything else..
( I regret tat they dun hav long weeks between papers like during AS. Tat was SO cool! All the late Late night studying.. till morning.. Tat was So super cool..)

Im not one to care much bout leaving n stuff..
i dunno..
Maybe its not even so much the place..
the people?
I dunno..

Things are gonna change from now..
Graduation..
its like we're thrown into an ocean..
the real world..
the adult world..
I hate growing up..
i really do..

relationships tat were built during my time at college..
due to the circumstances, tat we were all thrown together.. into one tiny lil.. quadrangle.. =P
now the circumstances are gonna change..
n it wont be convenient to be friends anymore..
now, its going to require work.. (Force x displacement. heheheee..)
n im jus talking bout friendships here..
lets not even get into coupling. (phenols n diazonium salts. hehehheeee..)

lost..
confused..
saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad..

yet, not free
to think..

oh well.

Today.
13th of May.
Friday the 13th.
wow..
double badness..
maybe, they'll cancel each other out.

last day of coll..

Elly, Fabes..
Yes, i remember..
U guys are invited to my wedding n my baby showers
whenever, n with whomever..
n if i forget that u are
may it be that u wont forget with me..

To all my dear friends..
all the people who have.. played a part?
major or minor..
affected my life in any way..

Thank you.

Because of you, i have
laughed
cried
experienced
grown

Heres to life. (not in an embracing manner..)

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p.s. i was not brought up to go against my parents..
..its hard..really hard..

happy mothers day

I have ALOT of work n studying to do..
I am Waaaaaay behind..

I CANT study coz i have WORK to do!
N I CANT WORK coz i have STUDYING to do..

Bio core.
Bio option.
Physics option.
Math EVERYTHING.

i have to re-do phys core (properly tis time) tis weekend b4 the exam.
i have to do bio core sometime.. which doesnt seem to be possible now..
i have to do phys option or i wont b able to do the questions tat he's gonna discuss..
i cant do a SINGLE math question without help..

today.
I have to
Finish up todays chem practical.
Do a phys core paper tat he shud discuss tmr.,
Do a math paper coz im not doing any studying..

sleep.
Need alot of sleep.
I am absolutely exhausted.
cant get enough sleep..

I NEED to skip classes, but i cant..
i want to go for discussions too..

i cant study..

i cant watch Boston Public..

I am Absolutely exhausted..

I am stressed out.

I want my baby..but i dun wanna talk..

I want my mummy...
...
which is why i started this..

I want my mummy,
but i dont have anything to say to her..

I dont have anything to say to my mummy..
i dont see her, i dont talk to her..
I called her up on Mothers Day yesterday.. n i didnt have anything to say to her..
I hate my life..
what am i without my mummy..
what am i without my mummy...

i miss my mummy..
maybe an illusion..
i dun really care right now..

i hate my life.