isit only me?

Er..

I did not sign up for this?


Im an inertia kinda girl remember?
inertia?

i dont do sudden.

not the first time.


Maybe im just a pessimistic b*tch.
wait i thought i was optimistic.

No. im the devils advocate.

When you're down, im your optimist and your cheerleader (so gay)

but when you're up, den im just the scare-dy cat bitch
forever afraid to thread.

hmm.


Trivializing all it was.

but i guess its your right.


btw, didnt you know?

Im a terrible liar.

.

F*cking bastard Malaysians! (who are in Malaysia!!)

Stop f*cking Food-blogging!!!

You're driving me inSane already!

You bloody Live there just Eat in peace n Leave me Alone!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!


Miss home miss food.


supposed to be studying. :((

--
p.s. some people are so f*cking lucky but they dont even know it.

post hoc

The brain cells said : "Yes! We managed to order the expulsion of the alcohol. We think it was a success. We think we got most of it. It wont get (inside) us now!"

And the stomach says : "Urghhh groan groan burnnnn..."

Brain cells to body : "Stay down lads, stay down!" (ala Eddie Izzard)

..

n the brain cells say : "OooOoo.. a lil whoopeedooda here... *sway sway* maybe a lil remnant effect afteralll.... *slurr*"

n the stomach says : "Fooooooodddd! NO no! No food... sickkkkkk..."

n the brain cells say : "No! Give stomach Food! We need food! We need food! *brain cells holding signs walking around chanting*"

..

after food :

Brain cells and stomach : "Ahhhhhhhh..."


Another pointless post brought to you by...

14 days

it is very hard to decide between

what is good for you but makes you confused and upset and longing

and what is bad for you but makes you happy, if only for a while.


The choice should really be obvious

if you know whats good for you.

but you want it so bad
that you're willing to risk it, even if you've made the same mistake over and over
and over

and you're not sure how right you are in analyzing it that way

how fair you're being n

whats the right thing to do?

Whos happiness matters?
matters more
Or whos happiness has been sacrificed all the while

How important you are,
how much can you really do,
is it really for them, or really, for you.


So,
Whats the right thing to do?
Should you sacrifice whats good for you for that something that you want, for, possibly, that someone else as well
or do you hold back n do what might be right, right for you, n maybe, maybe (you'll realise) they dont need you after all.

relativity

3am.
the mildest time of the day or night.
probably because everyone sane is asleep.

everyone but people like me.
(and that will be .... ?)


theres alot to be said about trust.
n what it has to do with comfort
proximity
ease
mood..

theres alot to be said about trust.
n how it can make you feel.

after the first time
everything just went downhill.


we were having a chat about Einstein n his theory of relativity today.

its only just Monday today

hows that for relativity.


this.

the story of my life.

maybe i should have had it figured out by now.
the number of times its happened

maybe it is really me thats the prob.

i should know better.

so, how do you change how you feel?


is it right that things seems these way
or was i supposed to be better?

am i being my usual me, instead of the unselfish person that one should be
or does it all make sense
or, have i done enough already.

which ways the act?

trying to figure out what kinda person to be
n what things to feel.

sounds

That tone is fast becoming one of the most annoying sounds ive heard in my life.

It used to be another.


I wonder
what if i played the two next to each other just to see which one bugs me more.

two completely different people..
you wouldnt think there was a competition.

but u never know.
its annoying me now.


what am i doing?

Backup plan

if im honest with you, its because i trust you.

if i didnt trust you, i wouldnt be honest with you.

if i tell you something, but not everything,
i trust you, but not too much,

maybe im not sure how much.


So which way do you want it?


How well do you know me?

How well do you need to know me before you can tell.
or can read whats going on
or even just
sense.


I refuse to listen to the left overs
or process for you

it is not a privilege,
its disrespectful.


How much do I trust you?
..

(p.s. - hate that hanging around people makes me feel inadequate.)