3 weeks past new year but im gonna say it anyways.
Happy New Year! Yay!
Ofcourse my excuse will be something like.. Oh im striking a balance.. right between the Western new year n Chinese New Year. Yay. hah.
yes yes as u can tell.. bloggins.. alllmost dead for me now.
quite sad to me too.
oh well. anyways im here bcoz.
- supermans not talking to me
- im in my room n its nice coz the lights are out,
- my brothers sleeping (yes... in my room. pity me now wont u..),
- (but on the plus side..) im using his comp.
how nice ya. haha
atleast no using the downstairs comp with everyone crowding in the room that was once pretty much jus mine at nites.
i'll save u the details.
ritey den.
tat was the intro...
n now ive forgotten my main content.
hah how great!
ok how bout this
my tiny mirrors staring down at me from above n dyu know how many ghost stories start out like this.
why do ppl blog when they dun have anything interesting to say.
ppl say that theyre 'lonely inside' n they 'want someone to listen'. but they dont just want any someone because sometimes there Is a someone but they jus dont give a damn back. sometimes someone is ready to be there to listen n care but they dont give a damn. precisely because its not a someone that they particularly care about. so its not just any someone that they want.
but i guess u cant fault them because u just cant click with someone just because that person wants u to. n because most of the time, u do it too.
it just sucks. when ure ready to be that someone, or maybe jus one of many someones.. but they just dont give a damn about u. (n then they say that all they want is someone.) ok enough with the someone talk.
do u think u can die from all the radiation by spending too much time next to ur comp. (like sleeping next to it). We all know our cellphones are gonna kill us. =p
tired of living in the same house as my parents n being guarded by rules n curfews. but ofcourse thats the only way i can get free food n less household responsibilities n a car n allowance n ppl to buy u stuff n so on n so forth. typical. still tired of all that curfew bull though.
i never wanna grow up coz i think being an adult sucks n im not sure i can deal with all the responsibilities thats gonna come. or wanna.
im watching all these medical shows n apparently being on the road to being a surgeon is tough, n it sucks, n it takes a long time (n pays bad while ure at it), n it Takes up All ur time During, N u have to be the best, theres no middle ground, n im not or never will be the best, n im not even the kind to even strive to Be the best. (i suck) because i dont believe in all the kiasuness, i run away from competition. i jus cant stand to compete now... But i do try to compete with myself. My new years resolution, that i didnt officially make.. is to really buck up this year. My results these past 6 months jus wasnt good enough.. n even wen i bucked up.. it still wasnt good enough. N i Know i cud hav done better. Thats the worse bit. Knowing its on u n all u had to do was work harder, n tat u cud hav. So this year.. i wanna get down to it. Not sure how or will i really take that extra mile. but hoping i will. i need to do better. Oh (back to the surgeon bit) but being a surgeon is what i want to.. er.. be.. n im not gonna give that up (unless i change my mind on what i want). Coz the other thing i believe in is doing what U wanna do because U wanna do it. So add these things up n lifes gonna be pretty dam tough.
well that wasnt exactly enough for my style but pain in the butt in my rooms awake n i shud get to sleep before my butts in pain..
take care n maybe i'll be back soon!
