mess

If I called you,

would you listen and not speak?

*counts the days..*
maybe its about the right time to feel..

Friendless,
and abandoned,
and longing for more.

and 2.0a and 2.0b have lost their novelty.

i wanted to dress up in black, and white hair, and blood today.

my rooms in some kinda mess.

But atleast theres a party tomorrow.
where 1.0 will be.

-
she was right.
you need to trust someone enough, to tell them.

n i dont.
dont trust anyone enough.

n so i eat chocolate digestive biscuits.

Someone to love

Things to be happy about :

- Swapping crappy mattress for nice full one.. with my new yellow bedsheet on it!

- Finding crushes in unexpected places, and Finally getting the opportunity to talk to them.

- Hot french guys. (who know how to pronounce my name (in their hot french accents!!))

- More awesomely hot guys!

- Strolling in the middle of the night, with people, and preferably nice music.

- Finding the same stars in the sky.

- Awesome, Awesome download speeds! (n finding long lost shows ive Always, Always wanted to watchhhhh!)

- catching up thats been long overdue.

- Things that right themselves in the end.

- n possibly, possibly, buying pretty little things for people, to make them happy. (tho how im gonna do that when everything closes at 5 i dunno.)

:)

WHY DO YOU NOT GIVE A DAMN!?!


(do you enjoy it when i hurt)

500th post (but probably including drafts)

8th of the 10th 86

(was blogging, den switched mood n tack half way)

One hour chats with your brother.
about your nephew and how he still remembers both of you. (despite distance in miles n time)

"ningleninglepauuu~!"

And pre-midnight phone calls (despite old-ing on one end, and classes on the other) to remind you how old you really are.

(that was all)

Might be a day with a nicer date than others.

but the same old rules still apply.

:)..

N yet i'll still keep my hopes up for 1.0 tmr. whee.

i'llmissyou

P.S. Man, I feel old.

i want you.

, that wasnt you

I Know you are doing things that i would have wanted you to.
asked for you to.
inside.

just that you dont.

you wont.
(not for me)

(youre doing it right now, but you wont for me)

But i dont want you to.
I dont want you.

I have prettier things to love.


Do whatever, as much as itd make you feel good bout yourself.

i'll give you back what you give.

because if you dont fight because you dont care.
i wont fight because i wont care anymore.

you're happy.
i'm happy.
(not because)

it's good that way.

there are better things in life to miss.

dont tell me you fall asleep crying.

no one heard me.
n you dont get my ear, without being mine.

-

Sometimes when he (semi) flirts with me,
i (semi) flirt with him too.
(Altho oddly enough, for two people who flirt so easily, we dont do it with each other.)

But most of the time, i just want him further away.

Sometimes i wanna love him.
because hes just like you.

But hes different, n im glad hes different from you.
He doesnt want to 'love' me, like you would. (if i was someone new)

But im glad its that way.
Im glad he doesnt want me too. (n that hes not that beautiful)
Hot. But not that kinda beautiful.

I couldnt stand another you.

Selamat Raya

Happy Eid.

Days over today.

i was thinking id missed the one in Malaysia by now, seeing as how we're 7 hours behind.
But that was because i forgot, over here we started fasting month one day earlier.
So eid would be a day earlier as well.

We made Raya dinner. :)

(it was pretty excellent)

Very Malaysian n pedas! :p

(and you were pretty excellent as well.)
=P

*psssssssssssssssssssss.
=PPP


I did forget it was Eid.
Not that the day was it.
Jus the name.

Coz obviously it isnt 'Raya' over here.

But. All right now. ('alrite~')


No raya cookies, no duit raya.
No open house, no endless kenduris.
No rendang.

coz no one knows how to make.
cept maybe Min. whos birthday i forgot.
(no la, not forgot la! I didnt knowww! Sorry laa~ :p U got chance to call it even la ya. :p)

Nasi lemak we had though.
haha.

n lots n lots n lots of chilli paste, curry paste, tumeric n all other Malaysian spices were used.
:p


Anyways.

Happy Eid.

We had a good one over here today.


Next week better be a great one as well. :p

(!!! no expectations, no disappointment.. no expectations, no disappointment...)

(imissyou)